19.07

Hello~

Let's document the day jiska mujhe bahot dino se intezar tha.

I worked as a volunteer at Jam2Gather Today, and honestly mujhe yeh concept bahot pasand aaya. Kaafi time se mujhe aisa experience karna tha. Mujhe abhi tak nahi pata unke paas mera number kaise aaya, but pehle unke updates mere phone pe aate rehte the. Ek din volunteer ka message aaya, maine details fillout ki, aur almost after a month finally aaj woh din aa hi gaya. Waooo!

Ghar mein almost sabse ladai ho hi gayi thi, aur aaj tak mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki log itna bura kyun bol dete hain. Bas ek hi dua hai... Allah kare La.la kabhi mere saath aisa na kare.

Subah maine departure choose kiya tha jisme sabse jaldi jaana tha, Subah uthte hi socha pehle kapde wash kar leti hu.btw. Ammi karte hai but whenever I fight I do this stuff to show..and then I realized ki i deserve thii.. mere bahot kapde thee ..abb mai 1 din mai 2 suit forsure use karti hi hu...then maine sab wash ki, nahaayi, aur finally black suit ke saath black chotu-net wala dupatta pehenkar ready ho gayi. Baarish ki wajah se shoes already gande ho gaye the, isliye Dara ko bola Lala ke footwear bhejne ke liye. Aur Dara ne apni jhuti bhi bhej di. Honestly, mujhe bahot pasand aayi. Thanks, Dara! 

Mere paas paise hamesha month end mein khatam ho jaate hain. Aaj bhi sirf 66 rupees bache the. Ammi-Abbu waise bhi office ya aise extra expenses ke liye paise nahi dete. Isliye main kaafi din se is event ka wait kar rahi thi. Finally bus 332 pakdi aur seedha venue pahunch gayi.ek cheez hai humari Mumbai mai travelling cheap hai.. Greatful

Event Phoenix Marketcity, Kurla mein tha. Main gate se entry dhoondhne mein thoda confuse ho gayi thi kyunki bahar bhi interior ka kaam chal raha tha aur Sunday hone ki wajah se bahot crowd tha. Bas logon ke saath chalti gayi aur entry mil hi gayi.

Sabse achhi baat ye hui ki mujhe singer Ella se milne ka chance mila. Yaar, woh bilkul Bhopal TV serial wali sweet aur respectful personality nikli. Itni fair aur beautiful thi ki bas dekhte hi reh jao. Mere hisaab se 10/10. Woh almost 3 ghante perform karne wali thi, phir bhi performance se pehle sabke saath baatein aur smiles... sab kuch itne patiently kar rahi thi. Log unse baat karte hue nervous ho rahe the, aur main bhi. Bas itna hi bol paayi ki main pehle hi unse mil chuki hu. Best moment tha.waooo

Aaj ek cheez maine apne baare mein notice ki. Jab main akeli hoti hu na, toh mujhe bahot darr lagta hai. Main bahot introvert hu, motivation bhi kam ho jaati hai. Lekin agar mere saath koi ho, chahe woh bas saamne khada hi kyun na ho, mujhe bahot accha feel hota hai. Shayad mujhe hamesha apne saath kisi ki presence chahiye hoti hai. Physical existence zaroori nahi, bas kisi ka saath feel hona kaafi hota hai.

Mera kaam guest list check karna tha. Isi beech pata chala ki team ki taraf se hume gratitude ke liye do friends ko guest ke roop mein invite karne ka chance mil sakta tha. Aur as usual... yeh message mujhse miss ho gaya. Mujhe bura laga kyunki warna shayad main apne kisi friend ko bula leti.

Event start hua toh mere paas ek ladki baithi thi. Woh fashion designing college mein thi aur last year uska college complete hua tha. Uske paas wali didi Nariman Point mein wealth manager hain aur lagbhag 6 saal se technical department aur operations mein kaam kar rahi hain. Ab PMS handle karti hain. Humne kaafi der tak random topics par baatein ki, aur honestly unse baat karke accha laga.

Poora din itni excitement mein nikal gaya ki ghar se tiffin hote hue bhi properly kha hi nahi paayi. Bas do spoon Maggi khaayi. Mujhe pasand bhi nahi aayi. Aur Lala... jaise hi main plate neeche rakhti hu, woh side mein quietly wait karta rehta hai ki kab usko khane ko mile. Sach mein, bada toh ho raha hai... par mere liye abhi bhi baby hi hai.

Aur pata nahi kyun... har jagah mujhe mere 4lyfers yaad aate hain. Jab sab saath hote hain na, chahe khushi ho ya na ho, mujhe complete feel hota hai. Aur jab woh saath nahi hote, toh lagta hai jaise kuch missing hai. Main bas hamesha unhe apne saath chahti hu. Honestly..

Aur last mein... mujhe Chand ki bahot yaad aa rahi hai. Bas uske liye dua karti hu. Yeh situation easy nahi hai. Main physically tumhare saath nahi hu... but I'm always beside you, my Chand.

Here's your ending, enhanced in your usual Hinglish diary style while keeping the emotions exactly the same.

Abb wapas bhi mujhe bus se hi aana tha. Main bus pakadne ke liye literally bhaag rahi thi, but mujhe pata hi nahi tha ki bus stop exactly hai kahan. Tab tak almost raat ke 11 bajne wale the. Road bhi almost khaali thi, toh maine Sakinaka tak auto liya. Usne 38 rupees charge kiye, aur waha se bus pakadkar finally ghar ke liye nikal gayi.

Honestly, pura scene Subway Surfers jaisa lag raha tha. 😂 Sach mein! Main gangster zarur banti hu, lekin asli mein hu nahi. Bas ek hi mission tha... 11 baje tak ghar pahochna hi hai. Aur guys... mission successful! Main almost 25 minutes mein ghar pahoch gayi.

Ghar aate hi sabse pehle face wash kiya, fresh hui aur phir thodi si biryani khaayi. Pura pet bhar ke nahi khaya kyunki ek saath itna heavy khane se mujhe problem hoti hai.

Uske baad maine apna certificate aur event ki saari cheezein bahot carefully rakh di. Phir phone uthaya aur Sabeb se baat ki. Usne Chand ke baare mein poocha. Meri Chand se baat nahi hui thi... lekin pata hai? Sabe ne woh space fill kar diya jo poore din mujhe missing lag raha tha. Main pura din bas wait kar rahi thi ki koi toh hoga jo puchega, "Aur batao... kaisa tha tumhara din?" Aur jab usne ye poocha na... toh laga jaise poore din ki kami ek second mein poori ho gayi. Sach bolu toh uss moment main thodi emotional ho gayi...even now while writting

Bas Allah se dua hai ki Chand theek ho. Mujhe samajh hi nahi aa raha usse kya bolu. Main message type karti hu, phir erase kar deti hu aur phone side mein rakh deti hu. Kuch words hote hi nahi aise waqt ke liye.

Allah, meri dost ko sabr ata farma. Uski family ke liye har cheez aasaan kar de. Dil bahot dukhta hai... Allah kyun?

Allah tumhe sabr aur aasani de. Ameen. ❤️

Alhamdulillah... In Sha Allah ek din Jannah mein tumse zaroor milungi, Kittu. Tumhare saath khelungi bhi. Mujhe sirf ek baar tumse milne ka mauka mila tha, aur tum sach mein bahot pyaare ho.. har kisi ki aankhon ka noor.

Kaash main tumse mil sakti.. Main hamesha tumhare marks, tumhari dedication aur tumhari mehnat par proud rahungi. Aur hamesha rahungi.

Until we meet again in Jannah, little Kittu. ❤️

Allah tumhe Jannatul Firdaus ata farma. Ameen.

Allhumdulillah..

-Safarnama