A walk day..

 27.09 — Sunday~

Kal subah, just morning mai subah-subah uthkar I went for a walk with my sir.. Honestly, the feeling was amazing.. and I really want ki har morning mai yeh karu. 🌻

As soon as I entered the beach, I was expecting ki beach pe full visarjan wali Ganesh ji ki murtis idhar-udhar hongi… but it was actually a full clean beach. Almost beach clean ho gaya tha, but murtis ko trucks mai transfer karna tha..

And my question was — where??? Kahi dumping ground??? Noooo, please. Kya hum insaano ka faith itna kharab hai???

Kuch dino pehle hi mai discuss kar rahi thi ki jab log chale jaate hain na, toh people eventually forget them and get busy enjoying other things again.. And now I’m fully assured — yes.

Log visarjan ke baad Bhagwan ji ko bhul jaate hain. Where is… yess.

Mandal wale hi beach clean nahi kar sakte the? Literally, murtis ko dande se phod rahe theee… and I was feeling so bad.

Yess, NGO wale full josh mai cleaning kar rahe the — “Ganpati Bappa Morya” karte karte. Har age ke log theee… yes, you read it right. But jo bheed visarjan ke waqt aayi thi, woh log kyun nahi kiyeee???

Kya unko bas dance karna tha? Roads gande karne the? Aur phir ghar jaakar aaram karna tha, next day office jaana tha?

Even I saw one famous Ganpati made by a famous artist in a reel… woh murti bhi same wahiii… I was like, “I want to clean this too…” Yaar… kaash mujhe bhi yeh mauka mileee.

Honestly, beach full clean tha… but woh log kyun nahi? And before I start judging everyone, ek reality check mere liye bhi hai.

Aisa nahi hai ki I’m some pure person. Main bhi kabhi-kabhi roads par ya idhar-udhar litter dump kar deti hoon. So maybe this wasn’t just about them. It was a reality check for me too.

Hum sabko change chahiye hota hai… but shayad change ki beginning hamesha “unhone kyun nahi kiya?” se nahi,

“maine kya kiya?” se honi chahiye.This version keeps your frustration intact, but makes the ending hit harder because you include yourself in the question instead of only blaming the visarjan crowd... 

Btw guys, this was my very first time experiencing a proper walk day. 😂I started my walk at 8:13 a.m. and ended up around 10:30 a.m. almost.And beach ki sand mai chalna is NOT easy yaar!!! 😭😂

Beech mai hume kuch weird-looking log bhi dikhe, so I would always recommend — beach par walk karo toh jaha people ho waha hi raho. Aage zyada isolated side jaana safe nahi lagta. This was actually my 2nd time experiencing something like this, so bas sharing it as a reminder — beaches par bhi har type ke log hote hain, so thoda alert rehna.

Baaki mai toh sir ke saath thi, so I was safe and I genuinely enjoyed it. I ran… I played… I talked about travelling… and finance. And finance ki baat aayi toh yaar… 😭😭😭 Making a career in finance is NOT easy. Sometimes I feel I’m lacking in my skills. And then I start questioning myself… “Aaish" tu kar kya rahi hai?”

Aaj meeting bhi thi and I was literally thinking — why can’t I take this meeting alone Why was it postponed just because no one was there from my seniors?

Somehow, I managed everything and convinced my client to do the meeting by evening.Sochooo kaise. 😂 I even told him, “Sir, I’m in mandir.” 😂 So that he would understand why I wasn’t immediately available. And funny thing is — I was actually in ISKCON. 😂

As soon as I finished my walk, we went to ISKCON. Waha humne dosa khana tha… but dosa tha hi nahi. 😭 So I ate dahi vadeee. And yaar, ₹100 per plate!!! 😭 Upar se itna heavy tha ki mujhe kuch khaas pasand bhi nahi aaya.

Then railway mai thodi si inquiry karni thi, so I did that and then metro lekar ghar aa gayi. Actually mujhe Tolani jaana tha, but phone charge nahi tha and upar se meeting ka arrangement made me crazyyy yaar. 😭 Finally, 4 baje ki meeting fix hui. We started preparing from around 3:30. Arsh bhai ko mujhe sab explain karna tha — client background, his requirements, what exactly he needs and all.

I did that… And finally, almost 5 baje mai free ho gayiii. But uske baad mere legs mai bht pain tha. 😭 So I did some oiling, thoda aaram kiya and then I picked up my book. And honestly… Mera dimaag kharab ho gaya. 😂😭 Zara ke alawa mujhe kuch characters hi samajh nahi aa rahe the! Jack… and Jim… 😭😂

I think mujhe wapas reread karna hoga yaar. Meeting ke baad I also had a talk with my TL. And honestly, the way she suggested things was very positive.

She basically told me to work on myself — my knowledge, communication, confidence and even my appearance.

And I feel the same. Mujhe khud par bht kaam karna chahiye. And I never want ki log mujhe point out karein aur usse pehle mujhe khud realise na ho. I want to work on myself before anyone has to tell me. So from now onwards… I will spend on me. Not just money. I want to spend my time, energy, effort and consistency on myself. For growing. For learning. For becoming better.

Kitni baar maine plans banaye hain… Kitni baar bola hai ki “ab yeh karungi, ab woh karungi…” But maybe ab sirf plans ka time nahi hai. Ab action ka time hai. I want to start valuing every second I have. I want to work hard on me. Because maybe I’m not where I want to be yet… but I know one thing — I don’t want to stay the same person either.

And maybe this walk was not just a walk. 

literally and in life too. 🌻

Allhumdulillah 

-safarnama 

A little college vibe, a long VC & sukoon 🤍

22.09 ~

Hello guysss.... 🫶🏻

Aaj bhaiii, mai 9.00 baje uthii. Anyways, office ghar se itna paas hai ki I can reach there in just 10 minutes, so aaj maine aaram se mast nahaya, ready hui aur office ke liye nikal gayi.

N pahoch kar pata chala ki meri full row khali hai. Wahhh!! 😂

Aur upar se mere Regional Manager ka WhatsApp par message bhi tha: "Advisors????" 😭

Wahhh... full college vibe hai yeh office, bhaiii! 😂 Bht kuch hai yahan, kabhi fursat mein share karungi.

Anyways, office khatam karke as usual mai walk karte hue soch rahi thi ki mere pending works kya hain, kya karna hai, aur aage kaise manage karna hai... but but...

As soon as I reached home, I went to the bathroom and phir Chand ke saath VC par almost 2 hours baat ki.

Sochooo... honestly, mere mann mein jo bhi hota hai na, I just share it with her. Good, bad, everything. Aur woh mujhe sunti hai. Bina kisi hesitation ke, bina yeh soche ki mai kya bol rahi hoon.

And honestly, usse baat karke ek alag hi sukoon milta hai. 🥹🤍

I will never regret saying that it was a waste of time. Because it wasn't. Mujhe motivation milti hai, clarity milti hai, aur apne next step ke baare mein sochne ka ek naya perspective milta hai.

Kabhi-kabhi bas kisi apne se baat karna hi enough hota hai. You don't need a solution every time, you just need someone who listens.

Then maine book read ki, phir khana khaya, thodi der phone chalaya, aur Neet se bhi thodi der VC par baat hui.

And honestly, aaj mujhe bht khushi hui yaar. ❤️

Ki shaadi ke baad bhi woh mujhse connected hai. Apne naye life mein adjust hokar bhi, woh time nikaal leti hai. Always there, always making an effort.

Aur main usse bas yahi bolti rehti hoon...

"Please shaadi na kariyooo!"😭😂 Haan bhai, meri feelings samjho. 😂❤️ Bas, yun hi din guzar gaya.

Aaj kal office ke baad thak jaati hoon, isliye jaldi neend aa jaati hai. Life ka routine thoda change ho gaya hai, but I'm trying to adjust, manage things, and make time for the people and things that matter to me.

And that's it for today, guysss.

Milte hain next blog mein. Until then, take care. 🤍✨

-Allhumdulillah 

-safarnama 

A VISIT TO ganpati mandal~~

21.09 ~ A little conversation with my heart 🤍

Kya jaat aur dharm hota hai?

I know, sabke apne-apne thoughts hain, apni spirituality hai, aur main kabhi kisi ko unke faith ya beliefs ke liye question nahi karna chahti. Just like I don't want anyone to judge me for mine. And honestly, if someone does, Idc.

I know Allah ne hum sabko banaya hai. There is only one God, bas naam alag hain, chehre alag hain, aur shayad hum unhe alag-alag tareekon se samajhte hain. Kya pata main galat hoon? Maybe, with time, I'll learn more, understand more, and grow.

So, today I visited a Ganpati mandal with my friend Shrey

. And yesss, I was genuinely happy. 🥹❤️ Not just because I was there, but because through me, my friend was visiting too. She was praying, asking for her dua to be qubool, and seeing her there made me feel something I can't properly explain.

But sach kahu toh... mujhe thoda darr bhi lag raha tha.

Ek thought baar-baar mind mein aa raha tha, "Kahin Allah mujhse naraaz toh nahi ho jayenge?"

Isliye main smile karte hue, apne dil mein bas Allah se baat kar rahi thi...

"Allah, you know my heart. You know my niyat. You know what I'm doing and why I'm here. Agar main kuch galat kar rahi hoon, toh please mujhe guide karna. Mujhe koi ishara dena. Bas mujhse naraaz mat hona."

I respect every religion and its culture. I love seeing different traditions, understanding people, and experiencing the beauty of things I haven't grown up with. But at the same time, mere dil mein mera Qur'an hai, mera kalma hai, aur mera Allah hai.

And maybe that's what I'm trying to understand right now... How do I respect someone else's faith while staying true to my own?

Kya pata main kya keh rahi hoon. Kya sahi hai, kya galat, mujhe khud nahi pata. I'm still learning, still understanding, and still trying to figure out what my faith means to me.

But this is what I honestly felt today.

No judgement. No pretending to have all the answers. Just me, my thoughts, my Allah, and a heart that's trying to understand the world while holding on to what it believes in.

Allah, you know my heart. 🤍

-Allhumdulillah 

Safarnama 

 ~~♡ 20.09

Oyee oyee.. I'm Khush here with my blog.. ♡

Hello guyss~~~ Kaise ho sab? Chalo, aaj ka safarnama shuru karte hain.

So, kal raat sone mein almost 3:30 a.m. ho gaye the, and obviously, subah jaldi uthna toh possible hi nahi tha. Isliye aaj meri aankhein bhi late khuli, and uthte hi fatigue feel ho raha tha. Body was like, "Please, thoda aur rest karne do!"

Anyways, uthne ke baad maine khud se Maggi banayi and breakfast kiya. Phir mera plan tha ki aaj series dekhungi aur book read karungi. And yesss, dono ka thoda-thoda progress hua, but unfortunately, dono mein se kuch bhi finish nahi hua.

Honestly, jis series ko main dekh rahi hoon aur jo book read kar rahi hoon,  is anxious people. Story acchi hai, no doubt, but the way it is presented... thodi boring lag rahi hai. Like, abhi tak main Zara ke alawa kisi aur character se properly connect nahi kar paayi hoon.

Book ka ek aspect aisa hai jo mujhe sochne par majboor karta hai. Jab logon ko paise ki zarurat hoti hai, woh bank se loan maangte hain, but bank unhe deny kar deta hai. Aur kya there is only option left is Suicide 

But honestly, mere liye yeh book sirf bank robbery ki kahani nahi hai. It's more about humans, their personal lives, their struggles, and the things they carry inside themselves.

Main toh book complete kar lungi, but as of now, I wouldn't recommend it to everyone.  Kyunki shayad aap log aadhi book padhne ke baad hi side mein rakh do. The story has potential, but the presentation is not really keeping me hooked.

Anyways, meri series chal rahi thi, book bhi paas mein thi, and main apne hi thoughts aur dream world mein chali gayi... Aur kab neend aa gayi, pata hi nahi chala! 

Wahh, maza aa gaya sone mein! But uthne ke baad sir ekdum heavy ho gaya tha. Mujhe laga tha ki nahane ke baad fresh feel hoga, but na na naaa... Hair wash karne ke baad toh headache aur bhi zyada ho gaya. 

Phir bhi, maine socha ki chalo, kuch pages read kar leti hoon. At least aaj ka reading goal bilkul zero toh nahi hona chahiye.

But ghar par bina kisi disturbance ke rehna... Impossible mission! 

Beech mein Dara ne mujhe bola ki potatoes ko thin slices mein kaat do, taaki woh aloo pakode bana sake. And obviously, main lag gayi kaam par. 

Maine potatoes slice kar diye, phir woh besan ka batter bana rahi thi. But yaar, batter kuch khaas ban hi nahi raha tha.  Toh maine uski help ki, thoda idhar-udhar adjust kiya, and finally...

Bas bhai, mujhse aur kaam nahi ho sakta! 

Maine apne haath khade kar diye and quietly stepped back. Ab jitna karna tha, kar diya. Aage ka kaam aapka, behen! 

And then came the best part... BHAJIYAAA TIME!♡

Abb mast humne garma-garam bhajiya khaye. Aur saath mein curry rice... Ufff, kya yumm thaa! 🤌🏻 Honestly, ghar ka khana aur uske saath woh simple happiness...alag hi level ka sukoon deta hai.

Uske baad main mast chill karne baith gayi. Thoda blog likha, almost half blog complete bhi kar diya. Phir Chand se baat ki, reels chalayi, and Main so gayiii! 😭😂

And that's how my 20th September went. Nothing too extraordinary, but a day filled with little things—reading, sleeping, ghar ka kaam, bhajiya, curry rice, conversations, and a little bit of writing.

Sometimes, bas itna hi kaafi hota hai. ♡

Okayyy, milte hain next blog mein. Till then, take care and keep smiling!

— Alhumdulillah 

Safarnama

19.09

Hello guyss~~~ Kaise ho sab? Mere blog ko yaad kiya?? 🥹

Anyways, let’s start. It’s 10:41 a.m. and I’m sitting in a Harbour Line train. Abhi just Dockyard station cross kiya hai, next station kya hai mujhe nahi pata 😂 So I stopped reading for a while and started looking outside the window. Halki-halki dhoop hai, and everything feels kinda peaceful.

Onoo… I reached my stop. Let me finish my work, I’ll be back. 🫠

Hola! It’s 5:47 p.m. — mast 2nd time thande paani se nahakar I’m back to writing my blog.

Before starting, I just want to say ki main har din blog likhne ki koshish karti hoon, but somehow woh drafts mein hi reh jaata hai. Ek perfect blog finish hi nahi hota.

Honestly, ab time manage karna mushkil ho raha hai. But from this upcoming week, I want to change this. I’ll work harder and try to manage things better.

Aaj realise hua ki I’m really bad at time management. School-college mein bhi papers incomplete reh jaate the… but I don’t want meri life incomplete reh jaaye.

So, I’m starting to change — one small step at a time. 🤍

Alhamdulillah, sab kuch bohot pyaara hai… bas thoda unmanageable sa ho gaya hai. And I’m learning to manage it.

(Inshallah I will try to post my blogs again on daily basis) 

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-Allhumdulillah 

-safarnama 

11.09: A prep for a Visit...

 15.09

11.09✨️💀

~Hello..today is 15.09 n

I'm clubbing all my days together here, so thoda sa blog lengthy hoga..  Kaise shuru karu, I'm honestly not getting it..

So, last time I posted on 8.09 and uske baad, as usual, office mein full busy schedule tha. And phir… meri wishlist tick hone ka day aa gaya finally. 

Yehhhhhhhhh.........🥂✨️  A VISIT TO MY CHANDYAARI HOME.. 🏠

Yaar! Mai bohot khush thii. Aisa lag raha tha jaise I'm finally getting something I had wished for n I never expected ki yeh wishlist tick ho jayegi itnii jaldi ..Mujhe kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha ki kaise prep karu, kya leke jaau for her, kya karu… literally everything was running in my mind.

So, on 11.09, Friday, mera day full hectic tha. Body mein literally 0 energy thi, but meri soul itni khush thii ki main phir bhi saari preparations kar rahi thii. Aur bhaiii sahab… waqt ki teziiii! As soon as I finished my job, I crossed the road and went for the card print, jaise Chand ne mujhe bola tha. Bht pyaare cards lag rahe theee. 

Almost half an hour ho gaya waha.

Then mujhe ek wall sticker mein butterfly bohot pasand aayi thi, but I didn't buy it because uncle was being arrogant. And ab regret ho raha hai yaar… le lena chahiye tha!  But ab mujhe ghar ka space pata hai, toh I know… ab main uske ghar ke har little corner ke liye beautiful gifts bhejungi. 🦋

Abb prints kara kar I reached home. Fresh hokar sabse pehle khana khaya because maine poore din mein almost shaam ke 7 baje khana khaya tha. Body ko seriously energy chahiye thi. So I ate baingan ki sabzi with rice and honestly, uss time pe woh simple sa khana bhi bohot satisfying laga. Phir maine Ammi ko bola ki hamara Anarkali pick karne ke liye chale jao. But Mere bros bhi u gaye and I was just waiting for itttt…

Finallyyy, ab Anarkali aa jayegi! ✨

Then I went to the bathroom and wapas aakar phone pe active ho gayi. Like FULL chats chal rahe the. Aisa lag raha tha meri life mein sirf chats hi chal rahi hain, kaam ek bhi nahi ho raha. 😂

Ammi ne bhi bol diya ki, “I will not join you. Sach bolu toh half sad aur half khush thii mai. Sad because obviously I wanted Ammi to be there… but khush bhi because abb koi restrictions nahiii. Balle- balle ...bhaiiiii, MASTI MODE ONNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

But my friends are my other moms — specially meri Darling aur Dara.  Aur unka toh constant reminder: “Dur stand raho from tracks n all.” 

Aur kya… Raat ke almost 9 baje main apne shoes repair karne baith gayi. But obviously, I failed.  Then I went to the shop to buy sandals for Dara. Honestly, I was irritated yaar… last moment par kyuuuu?  Upar se itne messages aur calls aa rahe the ki aur gussa aa raha tha.

But raste mein bhi mera brain ek hi cheez soch raha tha — Chand ke ghar ke liye kya lu? Kya leke jaau? Finally maine half kg biscuits aur half kg khaja le liya. Ek cheez aur leni thi, but woh nahi mil paayi… Inshallah, next time. 

Abb itni raat ho gayi thi — almost 10 baje — and I knew Abbu ko late night shopping pasand nahi hai. Aur mere paas 3 bags the, woh bhi kaafi bade dikh rahe the.  Toh maine kya kiya? Balcony mein rakh ke chupa diye.  Then I went inside. Mummy bhi shopping ke liye bahar gayi thi, so somehow hum bach gayeeee. (ACTING MAST KI HU) 😂😂

As said, STRICK PARENTS RISE BIG LIARS ......Aur mai bhi hu.....

Abb main wait kar rahi thi ki sab kha-peeke so jaayein, phir main apne clothes nikaalun aur packing start karu. But koi sone ka naam hi nahi le raha tha.  Main bas space clear hone ka wait kar rahi thii. Finally maine Dara ko bola, “Dara, it's too late. Let's do it… warna subah pakka problem hogi.”

Then we started doing everything and humare 2 bags already ready ho gaye theee. Makeup and all bhi humne rakh liya. ✨ But Dara ka abhi tak fix hi nahi hua tha ki kya wear karna hai and all. I was like, “Kya kar rahi thi itne din se after knowing ki tickets done hain aur sab?” 

She got irritated and phone lekar chali gayi. So basically, main apne phone mein busy thi and she was busy in hers.  Abb brain already bohot active tha, toh neend toh aani hi nahi thi. But somehow, Chand se saari baatein karte karte hi main so gayi…  And bas… yahi thi meri pre-Chandyaari-home wali raat. 

Ek taraf excitement, ek taraf packing ka stress, beech mein shopping, gussa, hiding bags from Abbu, aur nonstop chats… But somewhere inside, I was just genuinely happy because the wish I had been carrying for so long was finally happening. I was finally going to visit my Chandyaari Home. 🏠 let's post .. the day visit on next blog 

Allhumdulillah Allah.. thank u 

-Safarnama

08.09

Hello~ 🌻

How are you all?

I’m here again, in my little space, after too long.

Actually, there are a LOT of things pending in my bucket right now, and I’m trying to sort them one by one. Along with everything else, I think I’m also figuring out me. 😭😂

I’ve spent days thinking about what’s next, and honestly, abhi bhi koi proper conclusion nahi mila… but Inshallah, I will figure it out. Maybe life doesn’t always need an immediate answer. Sometimes, we just need to keep moving.

So, taking a deep breath, wearing a small smile, and opening my blog again..

let’s share the little highlights from 1st to 7th September. ✨

01.09 ~

Okayyy, so I got my life ke first specs! 🤓

And honestly, dekhkar toh I was SO happy because they looked crazy good yaar! 😂

But the moment I wore them, mujhe itne tez chakkar aane lage ki bas… fashion gaya bhaad mein. 😭 Test karne ke baad maine wapas wear nahi kiya.

I keep telling myself, “Free hoke try karungi.”

But then I look at my pending work and realise… Free? Main? Kabhi nahi. 😂

02.09 ~

Today’s highlight was something very random:

I ate yellow Manchurian for the first time! 😂

And honestly, I was not even feeling like I was eating Manchurian. 0/10 for me. 😭 Butttt, the action taken by Tuka Sir was absolutely great.

Someone is actually taking care of things and making sure people don’t fall sick because of what they’re eating, and honestly, that kind of concern deserves appreciation.

03.09 ~

Aaj se Abbu ka full work officially start ho gaya, and obviously humara bhi. 😂 Kaam ghar par chal raha tha, toh hum automatically workforce ka part ban gaye. “Yeh lao… woh lao… idhar rakho… udhar le jao…” 😭 Thankfully, I work in an office where I mostly get to sit on one chair. 😂

Allhumdulillah, suddenly office ki chair ki value samajh aa gayi.

Shaam ko thoda-bahut kaam toh ho hi jaata tha, but jo kaam initially 1 day ka lag raha tha… It went on for 3 days. 😭 Pardas, cushion covers and all the ghar ka setup — everything was happening together. Basically, ghar was under renovation mode and hum unpaid interns. 😂

04.09 ~

Ab mujhe exact date yaad nahi hai, but somehow iss week maine bahot logon se baat ki. And honestly, it felt nice. As always, Chand se baat toh ho hi jaati hai. ❤️ She has this way of making me happy. Somehow usse baat karne ke baad mujhe direction milti hai, motivation milta hai, and I feel like— “Okay, stand up again. Let’s run for the work.”

I just love you, Chand. 🫶🏻

Then I spoke to Vedu bhai, and now apparently I’m learning Gen-Z slang from him. 😂 Meri vocabulary ka kya hoga, Allah jaane.

And somewhere in between all these conversations, ek confession bhi hai… I know you all are probably going to bite me for this. 😭 But this week, I started talking to a stranger. 👀 Bas. Itna hi bolungi. 😂

05.09 ~

Happy Janmashtami to everyone! 🌼 Festival hai, but holidays nahi hain. School aur college ke time ki holidays ki yaad aa gayi yaar. Corporate life really said: “Festival? Good. Now get back to work.” 😭😂 Aaj ka honestly koi proper plan nahi tha. But somehow the day turned out to be painful, adventurous, crazy… and memorable.

And yes, I also visited my franchise after quite some time. There were quite a few changes, and honestly, sabse milkar accha laga. ❤️

 Also, my sneezing decided to become the main character today. I think I successfully irritated everyone. 😂🤧

06.09 ~

Aaj main aur Ammi Milad ke liye gaye. Bahot saari new stories aur baatein seekhne ko mili. Maine mann se sab naat bhi suni aur dua ke waqt pata nahi kyun… Meri aankhon mein aansu aa gaye. There was something deep inside me that I couldn’t really explain.

Kuch tha…alag sa tha. But whatever it was, it gave me a strange kind of sukoon. 🤍

After that, main aur Ammi kapdon ki shopping karne gaye. And here comes an interesting part— My friend Chand had given me two sarees, and we had decided that we would make anarkalis out of them. Mujhe hamesha lagta tha, “Shayad yeh banega hi nahi.” 😭

But finally, woh din aa gaya!

I gave the tailor a reference and design, and now… let’s see how it turns out. 🤞🏻bBoth of us are literally crossing our fingers. Ya Allah, please accha banana. 😂🤲🏻

Ghar aakar, obviously, maine Chand ko ek-ek detail bata di. And then suddenly…nMonday aa gaya yaar. 😭 But surprisingly, I’m feeling happy in office. Work samajhne mein abhi bhi mistakes hoti hain, errors hote hain, but I’m learning. And maybe that’s enough for now.

07.09 ~

A fresh day.

A fresh week.

And obviously…

a fresh list of things to do. 😂 Ab aap soch rahe hoge— “Aisa konsa kaam hai iske paas?”

Well…

I changed my office some time ago, but honestly, I still haven’t completely settled into everything. And now I feel like I need to sit down and reorganise myself.

My finances. My goals. My targets. My work. My messages. My emails. My trackings.

Unread messages, pending mails, unfinished tasks..It feels like har din kaam bahot hai, but nothing is properly planned or managed. And when things don’t go according to my plan, I start feeling lost. So today, I went to the garden. I sat there, focused myself, and started completing my tasks one by one.

And honestly? Bohot accha feel hua. Sometimes you don’t need a huge solution. Sometimes you just need to sit somewhere quietly, breathe, and start doing one thing at a time.

And then, at the end…I spent a longgg time on the swing with my favourite songs playing. And honestly, I was feeling everything. Peace.Confusion.Happiness.Sadness.Hope.

Everything at once.

It’s weird because I know I have so much in my life. Mere paas sab hai, Alhumdulillah. 🤍Still, there’s something inside me that sometimes makes me sad.

And maybe…that something is just me

Lately, mere khwaabon mein bhi mere khwaab aane lage hain. 😂 And woh bhi bahot, bahot zyada. Pata nahi kyun. Maybe somewhere inside, my dreams are reminding me that I still have so much I want to do. And honestly, I don’t want to overthink it anymore.

I’ve written it all down now. So, enough thinking. Let’s do the things that actually matter. I’m still figuring myself out. I have mood swings I get confused. I get tired.

Sometimes I feel lost. But I’m also happy.

I want to keep moving. Maybe I don’t know exactly what’s next.bBut I trust that, Inshallah, I’ll figure it out. 🌻 Until then—

 one day at a time, one task at a time, one dream at a time. 🤍

-Safarnama