27.09 — Sunday~
Kal subah, just morning mai subah-subah uthkar I went for a walk with my sir.. Honestly, the feeling was amazing.. and I really want ki har morning mai yeh karu. 🌻
As soon as I entered the beach, I was expecting ki beach pe full visarjan wali Ganesh ji ki murtis idhar-udhar hongi… but it was actually a full clean beach. Almost beach clean ho gaya tha, but murtis ko trucks mai transfer karna tha..
And my question was — where??? Kahi dumping ground??? Noooo, please. Kya hum insaano ka faith itna kharab hai???
Kuch dino pehle hi mai discuss kar rahi thi ki jab log chale jaate hain na, toh people eventually forget them and get busy enjoying other things again.. And now I’m fully assured — yes.
Log visarjan ke baad Bhagwan ji ko bhul jaate hain. Where is… yess.
Mandal wale hi beach clean nahi kar sakte the? Literally, murtis ko dande se phod rahe theee… and I was feeling so bad.
Yess, NGO wale full josh mai cleaning kar rahe the — “Ganpati Bappa Morya” karte karte. Har age ke log theee… yes, you read it right. But jo bheed visarjan ke waqt aayi thi, woh log kyun nahi kiyeee???
Kya unko bas dance karna tha? Roads gande karne the? Aur phir ghar jaakar aaram karna tha, next day office jaana tha?
Even I saw one famous Ganpati made by a famous artist in a reel… woh murti bhi same wahiii… I was like, “I want to clean this too…” Yaar… kaash mujhe bhi yeh mauka mileee.
Honestly, beach full clean tha… but woh log kyun nahi? And before I start judging everyone, ek reality check mere liye bhi hai.
Aisa nahi hai ki I’m some pure person. Main bhi kabhi-kabhi roads par ya idhar-udhar litter dump kar deti hoon. So maybe this wasn’t just about them. It was a reality check for me too.
Hum sabko change chahiye hota hai… but shayad change ki beginning hamesha “unhone kyun nahi kiya?” se nahi,
“maine kya kiya?” se honi chahiye.This version keeps your frustration intact, but makes the ending hit harder because you include yourself in the question instead of only blaming the visarjan crowd...
Btw guys, this was my very first time experiencing a proper walk day. 😂I started my walk at 8:13 a.m. and ended up around 10:30 a.m. almost.And beach ki sand mai chalna is NOT easy yaar!!! 😭😂
Beech mai hume kuch weird-looking log bhi dikhe, so I would always recommend — beach par walk karo toh jaha people ho waha hi raho. Aage zyada isolated side jaana safe nahi lagta. This was actually my 2nd time experiencing something like this, so bas sharing it as a reminder — beaches par bhi har type ke log hote hain, so thoda alert rehna.
Baaki mai toh sir ke saath thi, so I was safe and I genuinely enjoyed it. I ran… I played… I talked about travelling… and finance. And finance ki baat aayi toh yaar… 😭😭😭 Making a career in finance is NOT easy. Sometimes I feel I’m lacking in my skills. And then I start questioning myself… “Aaish" tu kar kya rahi hai?”
Aaj meeting bhi thi and I was literally thinking — why can’t I take this meeting alone Why was it postponed just because no one was there from my seniors?
Somehow, I managed everything and convinced my client to do the meeting by evening.Sochooo kaise. 😂 I even told him, “Sir, I’m in mandir.” 😂 So that he would understand why I wasn’t immediately available. And funny thing is — I was actually in ISKCON. 😂
As soon as I finished my walk, we went to ISKCON. Waha humne dosa khana tha… but dosa tha hi nahi. 😭 So I ate dahi vadeee. And yaar, ₹100 per plate!!! 😭 Upar se itna heavy tha ki mujhe kuch khaas pasand bhi nahi aaya.
Then railway mai thodi si inquiry karni thi, so I did that and then metro lekar ghar aa gayi. Actually mujhe Tolani jaana tha, but phone charge nahi tha and upar se meeting ka arrangement made me crazyyy yaar. 😭 Finally, 4 baje ki meeting fix hui. We started preparing from around 3:30. Arsh bhai ko mujhe sab explain karna tha — client background, his requirements, what exactly he needs and all.
I did that… And finally, almost 5 baje mai free ho gayiii. But uske baad mere legs mai bht pain tha. 😭 So I did some oiling, thoda aaram kiya and then I picked up my book. And honestly… Mera dimaag kharab ho gaya. 😂😭 Zara ke alawa mujhe kuch characters hi samajh nahi aa rahe the! Jack… and Jim… 😭😂
I think mujhe wapas reread karna hoga yaar. Meeting ke baad I also had a talk with my TL. And honestly, the way she suggested things was very positive.
She basically told me to work on myself — my knowledge, communication, confidence and even my appearance.
And I feel the same. Mujhe khud par bht kaam karna chahiye. And I never want ki log mujhe point out karein aur usse pehle mujhe khud realise na ho. I want to work on myself before anyone has to tell me. So from now onwards… I will spend on me. Not just money. I want to spend my time, energy, effort and consistency on myself. For growing. For learning. For becoming better.
Kitni baar maine plans banaye hain… Kitni baar bola hai ki “ab yeh karungi, ab woh karungi…” But maybe ab sirf plans ka time nahi hai. Ab action ka time hai. I want to start valuing every second I have. I want to work hard on me. Because maybe I’m not where I want to be yet… but I know one thing — I don’t want to stay the same person either.
And maybe this walk was not just a walk.
literally and in life too. 🌻
Allhumdulillah
-safarnama
yess 🥺
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