🌸DAY145: 26-05-2026: Trying to balance my Day.🌸

DATE: 26-05-2026

Aaj ka lunch

Hii Guys, it’s me here again… welcome back to my daily blog 💫

Honestly telling… mujhe khud par bahot gussa aa raha hai these days because everything feels pending and incomplete. I’m trying so hard to balance everything together but somehow kuch na kuch reh hi jaata hai…

Chalo phir, aaj ka simple sa day document karte hai 

Aaj ka highlight? My boss again gifted me a full box of mangoes 🥭😭
I literally loved ittttt!!!!

Day started nicely. Maine hair wash kiya, acche se ready hui and then office ke liye nikli… and raaste mai suddenly yaad aaya — “YAAR mere baal toh open hai!” 😭
I completely forgot to carry a rubber band.

Office pahoch kar finally maine saari pending lights post ki and uske baad hi mera mind thoda free hua.

Then I continued my work, visited a client office, collected mutual fund forms and came back to office… aur office aate hi mere liye fridge se mangoes nikaal diye gaye 🥹🥭
And guess what?
Maine saare aam akele hi kha liye without even asking anyone 😂

Uske baad maine study start kiya — topic tha demerger failures of Zee and SAB TV. Honestly finance world kabhi kabhi itna interesting lagta hai because har din kuch naya seekhne milta hai.

Aur aaj ek aur interesting case mila jahan mujhe bhi kuch new learn karne mila.

So basically, humare ek client ke daddy ke paas Deepak Fertilizers ke around 200 old shares hai — woh bhi share certificate wale zamane ke. Ab unko demat karna hai, but issue yeh hai ki original share certificates missing hai and now they either need duplicate certificates and proper process documentation.

But here comes the interesting part… 👀

Aapko pata hai agar bahot purane shares hote hai aur unko koi claim nahi karta for years — ya shareholder ki death ho jaye and nobody withdraws or transfers them — then those shares actually go into the Investor Protection Fund.

And trust me… waha se shares recover karna is a very costly and time-taking process 😭

So yes, aaj ke blog ka little knowledge section yahi tha ✨

Abhi raat ke 8:47 ho rahe hai and honestly aaj bas itna hi hua.
Now I’m going to complete all my pending work.

Good bye guys 🌙
Allah Hafiz 🤍

Alhumdulilah for everything ✨

DAY143: 25-05-2026: This is How I spend my Monday

DATE: 25-05-2026

~Today Lunch - Missal Pav~

 Hello Guys, kaise ho aap sab? 🌻
Abhi raat ke 10:37 ho rahe hai and mai khana pina karke mast apna blog likhne baith gayi hu. Honestly, blogging is a very time-taking process for me 😭 because jab tak mai likhti hu tab tak mere dusre kaam pending ho jaate hai… but there’s one satisfaction hidden inside all this chaos — somehow I’m still maintaining consistency.

Guys mujhe aapse kuch share bhi karna hai… something exciting is going on.. but I’ll only tell you all once everything gets completed properly. Bas  itna samajh lo mai bhi bahot jyada excited hu uske liye 

Anyways, aaj ka din as a proper Monday start hua with one thought only:

“Yaar office nahi jaana… ek aur chutti mil jaati toh kya hi jaata.”

But reality doesn’t care about feelings  jaana toh padta hi hai.

So I got ready, took bath quickly and quietly took some money from Ammi’s purse because today I decided tiffin nahi leke jaungi. Honestly bahot garmi hai and Ammi poori raat properly soyi bhi nahi thi. Abbu bhi subah 5:30 baje kaam par chale gaye the and phir Ammi ko bhi uthna pad gaya. She barely gets proper sleep, so I didn’t want to force her to wake up and make tiffin for me.

Aur waise bhi… paise hai toh tension kis baat ki lunch bahar se kha lungi.

I reached office on time while listening to naat sharif and songs peacefully. And Aaj  mai standing office gayi bhi aur standing hi wapas bhi aayi  Mumbai local and bus life is basically free leg workout.

Office pahochte hi padhai mode on.

Aaj test diya and once again mere marks kam aaye 
Anyways… practice and practice only.

Finance honestly bahot tough hai yaar. Interesting toh itna lagta hai mujhe but difficult bhi utna hi hai. Sometimes concepts samajhne mai hi brain freeze ho jaata hai.

Ab office routine simple hai:

• kaam karo

• lunch ka wait karo

• thoda study karo

• phir life ko question karo 

But today boss ne mujhe ek interesting question diya and honestly you all will learn something too.

He asked:

“If Khush wants ₹12 lakh after 10 years at 12% return, and SIP amount every year 5% increase bhi hoga… then starting SIP amount kitna hona chahiye?”

At first mujhe bhi laga yeh kya calculation hai 

But honestly iska solution bahot simple hai.

You can literally search on Google:
“Reverse SIP Calculator”

And different tools mil jayenge calculation ke liye.

Meri recommendation:

• CAFS MONEY (https://cafsmoney.com/calculator/sip-reverse-calculator)

• groww for simple sip calulator

• Or simply ChatGPT 

Boss ne mujhe hints diye and slowly maine samajh liya kaise calculate karna hai… and bhaiiii answer bhi aa gaya  warna honestly mujhe bahot embarrassing lagta if I couldn’t solve it.

And then suddenly sir said:

“Good.”

BASSS 
One small appreciation and pura din accha lagne lagta hai.

Then another interesting thing happened.

The client for SIP follow-up turned out to be Muslim and honestly mujhe accha laga hearing that  because slowly slowly our community ke log bhi finance and market side aa rahe hai and that genuinely feels nice to see.

Now honestly boss aur mera vibe full friendly ho gaya hai 
We both have very chill energy in office and sab mujhe “Sir ki ladli” bolte hai.

But the funny thing is… I’m actually on resignation period 
Sir mera resignation delay kar rahe hai and mai bhi honestly jaldi nahi kar rahi because mujhe office genuinely pasand hai.

There are reasons why I want to leave… but emotionally I still feel connected there.

And one thing I’ll always say — sir handles his small company like a family. Sach mai service and environment bahot accha hai.

Inshallah office se connection hamesha rahega even after leaving. Leads bhi dungi because good people deserve growth. 🤍

Lunch ke baad thoda kaam kiya… thoda sleepy mode bhi on hua  and around 4 baje I again started thinking about my LinkedIn posts.

borivali wali Crowd~Khatarnak

LinkedIn par active rehna is hard yaar but I really want to try. Kab hoga consistency nahi pata… but effort toh karungi.

Ismai hi shaam ho gayi and mast masti karte hue mai ghar aa gayi.

Bus mai standing thi and sababeb ke saath itni hasi mazaak chal rahi thi that one small kid kept staring at me like:

“Yeh ladki itna smile kyu kar rahi hai?” 

And honestly sababeb ne meri Eid excitement aur badha di.

Now I’m fully excitedddd 
Mai mast ready houngi, ache kapde pehnungi and pura vibe karungi because bhai festival hai… enjoy karna toh banta hai.

Ghar aakar thodi der mai Abbu bhi aa gaye. Then chai, biscuit aur namkeen ke saath mast baate hui 🤍

After that I opened my laptop, revised one chapter properly and finally sat down to write today’s blog.

And now while ending this… time ho gaya 10:57 p.m 

Bas abhi habit tracker fill karna hai and then day officially over.

Allah Hafiz everyone 🌻
Alhamdulillah for everything.

— safarnama

DAY 142: 24-05-2026 Eid-ul- Ada ki Shopping day

Date 24-05-2026

(INSIDE A PET SHOP)

Hii Guys welcome back to my daily bloggg 🌻

I’m genuinely happy seeing you all again… and thank you for reading my heart so patiently every single day. Sometimes I feel like these blogs are less about writing and more about quietly sharing pieces of my soul with people who understand feelings. 🤍

And today’s blog is interesting because it was Sundayyyy  plus Eid-ul-Adha shopping dayyy finallyyy. Batao phir aap sab ka Sunday kaisa gaya? Life apke maze le rahi hai ya phir aap life ke maze le rahe ho? 

Dekho phir mai apni faltu bak bak start kar di… let me focus on what happened today.

So my Sunday started around 10 baje and subah hote hi Dara ke taane start. Wahhh 
“Arey itni jaldi uth gayi? So jaa.”

And I replied very sincerely, “Mujhe padhai karni hai.”
But andar se mera asli motive kuch aur hi tha — mujhe shopping jaana tha  so I woke up early thinking pehle padhai karungi then market jaungi.

I brushed my teeth, got fresh quickly without wasting time and ate garam garam dal with 2 pav for breakfast. And honestly, after eating dal pav… bathroom trip tho banta hai 

Then I came back and started doing timepass in balcony while scrolling reels peacefully… but suddenly mummy appeared out of nowhere and gave me one tapli saying:

“Balcony mai faltu masti mat kiya kar!”

And instantly mera aggression activate 
“Chup chaap reels hi tho dekh rahi hu… maar kyu rahi ho!”

Guys sach bataun… mera Sunday bina daant aur maar ke complete hi nahi hota.

Anyways, mann ko samjhate hue I finally sat to study around 11:42 a.m and completed notes of chapter 7 till almost 1:40 p.m. Productive girl era for two hours only ✨

Then I thought chalo thoda break lete hai because market toh 4 baje jaana tha so I planned ki araam se nahake ready hongi.

But that “small break” slowly converted into full holiday mode 

I started watching reels, then opened one YouTube channel called The Money Magic and they had this series about living inside trains for 14 days. Bhaiiii pata hi nahi chala kab dekhte dekhte meri aankh lag gayi 

And honestly now I’ve realized something — my body has fixed its sleep timing at 3 p.m because office mai bhi roz 3 baje neend aati hai.

While sleeping, suddenly mummy’s voice started echoing in the house:

“Yeh ladki kabhi nahi sudhregi. Kisi kaam ki nahi hai!”

And I woke up instantly 
Plus my left leg was paining badly because I genuinely can’t sleep comfortably on the floor and bed par itni garmi lagti hai that sometimes sleeping itself feels like hardwork.

So finally I forced myself to get up and get ready.

I took bath, washed my hair, got ready properly and sent my picture to Chand ✨
And exactly uske baad Dara ka gussa pure ghar mai gunjna start 

“Ab market jaana hai toh madam ko araam se hair wash karna hai… ready hona hai… ab isko leke kaun jayega?”

Then mummy also joined and declared:

“Aaj isko punishment denge.”

And punishment kya tha?
Mujhe, mummy aur Lala ko saare bags uthane pade 

We took an auto till Vaishali Market, Jogeshwari West and finally reached there. We explored sooo many shops but either sizes weren’t available or clothes didn’t feel worth buying. After roaming around too much, I finally decided stitched outfits hi best rahenge, so I started looking for dress materials instead.

Shopping honestly becomes exhausting after one point 

Then obviously khana toh banta tha.

We sat at a small restaurant type place and ordered:

• 3 shawarmas 🌯

• 1 sweet lime juice 🥤

• Half noodles 🍜

Total bill: ₹450

And honestly kahi bahar jao aur kuch khao nahi toh outing incomplete lagti hai now 

Sometimes I think how much I’ve changed.

There was a time when I wouldn’t even spend ₹10 outside on food. I used to eat from home before leaving and directly come back home to eat again. But now slowly I’m spending more on experiences, food, outings and little happiness.

Wahhh… this is how life changes people slowly.

But yes, spending habits definitely control karni padegi from next month  pakka.

After all that walking, the three of us got extremely tired. But our work still wasn’t over because we had to go Jogeshwari West side to give clothes to the tailor.

And bhaiii Mumbai auto struggle 
Empty autos pass beside you proudly but nobody says YES.

Meri life mai auto wala hi mujhe yes nahi bol raha… koi ladka yes bolega woh toh bahot door ki baat hai 
(Serious mat lena, bas line acchi lag rahi thi.)

Before reaching tailor shop there were so many small gali roads and honestly that whole area feels so unhygienic that sach mai I avoid even drinking water there 

And then suddenly guess whatttt — meri cousin mil gayi with her kids. They had come to buy bakre ka khana from the market.

One thing I’ll say honestly… cousins irritating ho sakte hai  but kids are always cute.

So I bought 4 lychee juices and all of us stood there drinking together. By that time mujhe itni pyaas lag rahi thi and tailor shop ke andar literally mujhe halka chakkar jaisa feel ho raha tha because of heat and tiredness.

We quickly gave all the clothes to the tailor and now let’s see final dresses kaise turn out hote hai 

Inspiration toh maine dangerous level ki li hai Pinterest se but I made one mistake — plain dress material le liya. Ab agar dress ko accha classy look dena hai toh matching beautiful dupatta bhi lena padega.

And honestly I’m already excitedddd 😭✨

I’ll properly share all my Eid shopping in the next 2-3 days once everything comes back from tailoring and styling.

ghar aakar mai khana khati dal rice and egg and mummy abbu se baat ki bahot saari and mera mann bahot heavy feel kar rahaa tha so i requested chand to call me. we do the VC and phir kya mujhe halka feel hua and then mai movie dekhte hue .. movie ki ending bahot against thii mere liye.. and yeh sochte socte so gayii 

For now bas itna hiii 🌻
Allah Hafiz everyone.

Khush raho.
And Alhamdulillah for everything I have. 🤍

— safarnama

DAY141-23-05-2026: SOME CANCELLATION ARE GOOD TOO...

 23-05-2026: Saturday

english blog.

~SUNSET~

Taking a deep breath in and out, trying to prepare my mind for everything life throws at me… Sometimes I really feel like I am still a flower trying to bloom slowly, and maybe that’s why I call my life a Safarnama — because every day feels like another page of a journey I’m still understanding.

I think I’ve always been emotionally connected to stories. Since childhood, I loved listening to people, understanding emotions, hearing different experiences, and observing how everyone silently carries their own world inside them. Maybe that’s why even ordinary days feel meaningful to me.

So today, on 23-05-2026 at 8:45 p.m, I’m sitting in frong of ammi while writing this blog with some chit chat- coz nobody can stop my patar patar

My morning actually started in a strange way. I saw a dream that disturbed me badly. It felt so real that even after waking up, my mind couldn’t leave it behind. In the dream, I felt trapped in some weird time-travel loop and suddenly my alarm rang loudly at 8:15 and broke everything. But honestly, that dream stayed in my head for half the morning.....

Still, life doesn’t stop because of dreams.(In loop)

I got up, started using my phone, talked to Liboy for some time, got fresh, washed my hair, and suddenly realized I was already getting late for office. Somehow I packed breakfast and tiffin quickly so I could eat later in office peacefully.

And surprisingly, both bus and train came on time today. Rare Mumbai miracle. 😭

When I reached office, I realized only Pinky ma’am was there. I asked her where everyone else was and she casually said everyone was on leave. At that exact moment my heart literally celebrated because I knew the day would be peaceful. Full AC office, silence everywhere, less work, sleepy vibes… honestly lovely.

Then I opened my tiffin and ate egg rice along with a Punjabi samosa I ordered from outside. Ate so peacefully that sleep instantly started attacking me. i slept for 20min power nap guyyyyysssssssss

sweetlime juice

After office, I went with ki for school hunt because her younger brother needed admission in 9th standard after shifting from Kandivali to Andheri. Mumbai heat already destroys energy and after walking continuously from one school to another, our condition became terrible. We visited Holy Family High School and St. Dominic School, and after all that walking, sweet lime juice literally felt like therapy. 🥤

After that she dropped me halfway near my finance institute where I had gone for CFA counselling.

That counselling session honestly filled my mind with confusion.

They explained all their courses, fees, placements, practical learning, research projects, AI-based projects, internships… and for a moment I genuinely got attracted because I don’t just want a certificate. I want practical learning. I want real exposure. I want to actually become skilled.

But then reality quietly entered my thoughts.

The CFA fees itself already felt huge:
Level 1 — ₹45,900
Level 2 — ₹35,000
Level 3 — ₹25,000

And then there was another programme costing around ₹2.5 lakh plus GST.

For some people maybe it’s normal, but for me it felt heavy. Very heavy.

I sat there thinking how education keeps becoming more expensive while students silently keep stressing about money behind every dream. And then fear also entered my mind — what if placements don’t happen after spending so much? What if I take a loan and regret it later?

The moment I came outside, I immediately called Chand and told her everything. Somewhere indirectly she advised me not to rush emotionally into loans just because something sounds shiny and promising.

And honestly, her words stayed in my head for the entire evening.

MINT LEMON MOJITO

After coming home, one of my relatives visited us. She got married recently last month and you all already know how many questions I ask people. 😭 I asked her everything — about married life, husband, mother-in-law, village life, Mumbai life, long distance, happiness… everything.

Because no matter how much I joke around, somewhere I observe life very deeply.

She told me her husband is supportive, but situations are still difficult because her family wants her to stay in the village while her husband works in Mumbai. Listening to her made me realize again how different life becomes after marriage for women.

KOREAN BUNS

Then suddenly my own thoughts started running.

One city… but completely different realities.

Some people live in beautiful buildings while some live inside tiny slum rooms where seven people somehow manage life together. Some women come home tired after long days and immediately start cooking rotis without even resting.

And there I was, silently listening and thinking about life.

Sometimes Mumbai itself feels like a lesson.

Later she wanted to go out for some time so I accompanied her. We ordered Korean cheese bun, cold drinks and cakes, and somehow small food moments make life feel softer for a while. 🤍

Then she gave me one advice that genuinely stayed with me. She told me not to trust everyone too quickly in office and to always take time understanding people because everyone isn’t always genuine.

And honestly… she was right.

By evening I watched the sunset quietly and for a few minutes everything inside me felt calm. No career stress. No dream loop. No future tension. Just silence and changing sky colors. 🌇

My Juhu plan also got cancelled today which made me sad for a little while 😭 but next time pakka better plan banega.

Still, somewhere I felt happy because my day stayed so busy that my disturbing dream didn’t keep repeating inside my head the entire day.

At night I lay down for some time, talked with mummy, scrolled reels, watched abbu quietly standing beside me watching YouTube recipes 😭 and then continued writing this blog.

And after thinking deeply for a long time, I finally decided something.

I’ll work harder in office.
I’ll save money slowly.
I’ll continue preparing for CFA.
But for now, I don’t want to take education loans.

Maybe Allah really is the best planner after all.

So tonight I’m ending this day with hope, dua and gratitude.

May everything slowly become easier.
May confusion turn into clarity.
May hard work bloom into something beautiful one day.

Alhamdulillah for this beautiful day. 🌻

— safarnama

🌻DAY140: 22-05-2026: office: aaj hua full office shock....: I cooked..

 

22-05-2026: Friday

9:22 P.M

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Oyeee hoyeee ki haal chaal guys, sab badhiya? 🌻 Kaisa ja raha hai aap sab ka May? waise Haal kaisa bhi ho… khush raho… aur dusro ko bhi khush rakhooooo ✨ Abhi mujhe padhai karni hai so I’m starting to document my day… Chalo phir kahani shuru karein ☕🌤️ Aaj ki kahani mai “Khush” phir uth gayi subah 7:40 am ko 😭 And honestly 8 baje bhi office pahochne ka enough time hota hai… but mai hu na… dimag mai calculations chalti rehti hai:

“Wapas so jaungi…”
“Ya phir aaj chutti kar lungi…”
“Ya bas thodi der aur…”

But but but… Ammi aa gayi Ravannn bankar meri kahani mai 😭✨ She woke me up happily… aur khush ko laga ki “5 minute aur huggu kar leti hu.” Sach batao… huggu karne mai bhi 20-30 minute chahiye hote hai ? 😭(pressure problem) ek baat batau mai sochti hu gaoo ke kheet mai hu and huggu kar rahi hu... kaash yeh sapna bhi sach ho..kab jaungi gao..

So mai fatafat half huggu karke aayi aur socha baaki ka kal 😭

Uske baad speed mode ON ⚡ Brush kiya, nahayi, suit pehna, tiffin liya, mummy ko pareshaan kiya, haste haste ghar se nikli…

And guess what? Mai office bas 15 minutes late pahochi  Aur humare office mai 1 minute bhi late matlab bahot late maana jata hai… but for me honestly? It was still a good entry ✨ Office pahochte hi maine blog post kiya and phir padhai karte karte 10 baj gaye… And then finally — work time guys 💻☕ Phir aaya “Investment Check Time” 📈✨ CDSL ka bahot fayda hua because finally maine properly check kiya ki mere kitne accounts hai, kaha nominee add hai, kaha nahi hai…

Aur mujhe pata chala ki mere 2 main accounts hi investments ke hai and thankfully sab safe hai ✨

Thoda correction karna hai… but overall mujhe accha laga yeh dekhkar ki slowly slowly mai future ke liye kuch build kar rahi hu.

Allah please mujhe itna capable banana ki mai apne goals achieve kar paau 🤍

Sham mai office mai ek bahot ajeeb situation hui…

mera colleague maindak ko terminate kiya gaya and uska pura office shock mai hai.Woh investors ko random calls kar raha tha, office email id access kar raha tha, aur even kuch sheets bhi gayab thi…meri

Honestly bahot galat laga.

Mazak, masti, choti moti cheeze alag hoti hai… But kisi ka trust todna? That’s scary.

Zindagi mai aisa kaam karo ki log yaad rakhe… Na ki aisa ki naam sunkar log uncomfortable ho jaye.

Aur sach bolu… Aaj kal office ki situation dekhkar mujhe office chhodne ka guilt bhi feel hota hai kabhi kabhi.

But abhi mujhe sirf aur sirf apne future ke baare mai sochna hai. I don’t know where life is taking me. Kabhi kabhi bahot confused feel hota hai. Kabhi lagta hai mai survive kar paungi ya nahi… Aur honestly kabhi kabhi mujhe lagta hai ki mai duniya mai apni image galat bana rahi hu.

But phir ek awaaz aati hai:“Log kya kar rahe hai usse zyada important yeh hai ki mujhe kya karna hai.”

Mujhe content creation karna hai. Bahot saari new cheeze try karni hai. Travel karna hai. Create karna hai. Earn karna hai. Aur sabse pehle — apne ammi abbu ko woh life deni hai jo woh deserve karte hai 🤍

Mera sapna bahot bada nahi hai… Bas itna ki ammi ko paise dekhkar tension na ho.Abbu ko thak kar kaam na karna pade. Aur unki har choti wish bina soche poori ho jaye. Issliye mujhe unka support chahiye… Kyuki ladki hu… insecurity toh hoti hai kabhi kabhi.

But ek baat pakki hai:

Mai positive rahungi. Mehnat karungi. Aur bina pause liye kaam karungi 🌻

Aur mere pyare dosto… Aap log bhi strong rehna okay?

I love you all dil se 🤍

By the way kal mai Juhu jaa rahi hu 🌊 Bahot masti karungi aur photos bhi ast lungi yehhhhhhhhhh ✨

Ghar aake abbu ne kaha: “I want you to cook something for me.” Aur pata hai?

Abbu work se aaye the bilkul tired… but still smile kar rahe the. Kabhi kabhi lagta hai mai exactly unki tarah banna chahti hu.

Same hardworking nature. Same strength. Same sacrifice.

Kabhi kabhi daat dete hai toh mujhe gussa aata hai 😭 Hum dono ka aggression bhi same hai honestly.

Difference bas itna hai — Abbu gussa andar rakh lete hai… Aur mai “Vande Bharat” ki speed mai express kar deti hu 😭 So maine decide kiya —

Aaj mai Maggi banaungi 🍜✨ Abbu Pocket se 100 rupay liye aur bhaagti hui shop gayi.

Ek shop par sirf 2 Maggi thi… Dusri shop par aur 2 mili… Phir friidge mai dekhi  MIRCHI nahi hai 😭

5 rupay ki mirchi li…
Finally Maggi ready 😭✨

Mujhe honestly utni pasand nahi aayi… but sab walon ne kha li 😭

Plot twist? Abbu usually Maggi nahi khate 😭 But agar kabhi kha li toh matlab genuinely mood hoga.

aur abbu nahi khaye.... full mehnat waste woh kaam kar rahe theee and he never take break while working pani bus peete hai

Abhi raat ke 10:07 ho rahe hai and blog post karne ke baad mai padhai karungi Inshallah 🤍

Aur haan…
Aaj meri Salman Sir se bhi baat hui.( JB Nagar ke boss 📈 )

Charts, analysis aur market ke baare mai discussion hua and genuinely — I believe he is one of the smartest people I know when it comes to trading.

Aur ab mai slowly investments bhi start karungi because honestly mujhe lagta hai mera current portfolio long term ke liye utna strong nahi hai.

Byeee guys 😭 MerI patar patar kabhi band nahi hota.

Alhamdulillah for everything 🤍
Allah ka bahot bahot shukriya for giving me this beautiful life.

One day Inshallah…
Mai apne parents ko proud feel karwaungi ✨

Allah Hafiz 🌻
— safarnama

DAY 139:21-05-2026: Mast tha aaj ka din

21-05-2026

Hii Everyone!
Chalo phir aaj bina time waste kare — baatein shuru kare? 🌻

Aaj mera attendance finally green mark hua hai — on time guys!!!
Actually maine office se thoda dur hi app open karke check kiya ki attendance mark hota hai ya nahi… and guess what? HO GAYAAA  Bas phir kya… attendance mark hua aur mai araam araam se niche
thoda timepass karne ruk gayi. Ek pen bhi buy ki for 15/- and then finally reached office.Office mai daily mere desk par newspaper rakha hota hai by Vijay Sir because he knows I’m literally the only person who actually reads it 😭Aur aaj front page par kya tha?Modi ji and Meloni with Parle Melody chocolates 😂 Internet ka new viral couple apparently…Din ki starting hi meme material thi honestly.Aur suno stock market wale logon ne bhi mauka nahi chhoda . Jaise hi yeh reel viral hui, Parle related stock around 5% up gaya and even touched higher circuit. ( Higher circuit matlab ek limit hoti hai set by SEBI jaha stock ek din mai usse zyada move nahi kar sakta because suddenly bahot buying volume aa jata hai. ) Aur ab asli baat yeh chal rahi hai ki Parle ke owner ka around 8,000 crore IPO bhi aa sakta hai… toh log bol rahe hai marketing bhi mast level ki chal rahi hai 👀📈

Anyways…Office mai thodi padhai ki, thoda LinkedIn scroll kiya and then kaam start. Sach bolu? Roz same work karna bahot boring hota hai… but karna padta hai.

Aur haan yeh tha aaj ka lunch 🍱✨

Office mai har week 3-4 webinars toh hote hi hai and aaj ka session honestly bahot accha tha.

Topic tha: “Steps To Build Psychological Capital” Mai 15 mins late join ki thi so starting ka context miss ho gaya 😭Speaker thi — Aarushi Gupta.What a lovely person she is.. Guys seriously do follow her on Instagram and LinkedIn because she genuinely deserves it. Sach bolu… 45 minutes ke liye mai duniya bhul gayi thi. Her warm gestures, the way she interacted with everyone, chatbox conversations, activities — everything felt so comforting.

She talked about the 4 pillars of Psychological Capital:

• Hope
• Efficiency
• Resilience
• Optimism

And she explained everything with small activities where we had to audit ourselves.

Ek activity mai she asked:“What is your small win of this year?” Aur maine chatbox mai likha:

“I wrote my blog with 0 skip days.”AND GUYS… SHE REPLIED: “I’m jealous of you.” 😭✨

Bas mera din wahi ban gaya. Kisi ne likha: “I took my family on a trip.” Kisi ne likha: “I’m living independently here without anyone.” It felt so beautiful honestly… strangers sharing their tiny victories. Then she talked about “Locus of Control” — and mujhe genuinely laga ki mujhe yeh concept bahot pehle pata hona chahiye tha. Activity kuch aisi thi:

Ek circle banao. Inside the circle write things under your control. Outside write your concerns.

And then analyse… ki hum energy kaha waste karte hai. Main learning of the session:

When we are in a problem, stress lene ke bajaye we should try figuring out HOW to solve it.

Simple lagta hai sunne mai… Karne mai bahot difficult hota hai.

Mujhe yaad hai 11th-12th se mai Gaur Gopal Das ji ko follow karti hu and unki ek line mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai:

“Do you have a problem?”

IF Yes → Is there a solution? → Yes → Then why worry?

IF No solution? → Then also why worry?

Sunne mai kitna easy lagta hai na…

But jab life actual mai difficult phase mai hoti hai tab yeh sab apply karna bahot hard ho jata hai.

Still… maybe trying matters.

Guys sachmai ek suggestion hamesha dungi:

Dream karo. Socho. Work karo. Easy kuch bhi nahi hota. Hum sirf wahi control kar sakte hai jo humare haath mai hai. Aur funny part dekho — Aaj mai yeh sab gyaan de rahi hu while mujhe khud bhi iss gyaan ki bahot zarurat hai 😭

On a serious note… Aaj ke iss 45 minute session ne mujhe genuinely bahot accha feel karwaya.

And honestly… kabhi kabhi mujhe lagta hai mujhe psychologist ki sachmai zarurat hai.

Anyways ghar aakar mai kuch nahi ki hu lots of talk with Ammi abbu and 4lyfers feeling good ate laddu and mango with abbu. we both talk about IPL and stock market and bahot baat karte hai hum....… Abhi ke liye mere paas mere friends hai 🌻

its 10: 58pm .. yeh blog kal subah post hoga thoda kaam kare personal time spend karke so jaungi

Allah Hafiz, Take Care

Allhumdulilah always.

-Safarnama

🌷DAY138: 20-05-2026: A Day in My Life-Office And Ghar and cycle continues....🌷

 Date: 20/05/2026

Hello! Hello! Its again me 🌷
Aaj ka blog thoda special hai because today I want to share this with my 4lyfers. Honestly, jab maine blogging start ki thi tab kabhi expect nahi kiya tha ki log mere harsh days, random thoughts aur daily life ko itna pyaar denge. But Allah ne mujhe hamesha expectations se zyada diya hai. ~Alhumdulillah~ 🤍

So,Kahani kuch aisi hai ki August 2025 mai, ek random conversation mai- Sabab ne mujhe Blogger.com introduce kiye. Maine account tho bana liya tha, lekin actual start karne mai months lag gaye. Finally, 01-01-2026 ko meri first post gayi… aur phir mai roz likhne lagi. Daily blogging easy bilkul nahi hai, especially mere jaise slow person ke liye 😭 Mujhe ek blog likhne ke liye minimum 1 hour chahiye hota hai. Aur abhi bhi dekho — ghar mai khana ban raha hai, fan off hai, mai sweat poch poch kar blog likh rahi hu 😭 So yes, internal environment ke saath external environment bhi full against hai. Aur honestly, agar Chand nahi hoti na, tho shayad itni consistency bhi nahi hoti. Roz WhatsApp par yaad dilana — “Khush blog pending hai, please post kar lena” 🤍and look Sabab also started to read me like she is a good writer and she is reading me ~waoooo~ — thankyou pretty , for introducing, supporting and motivating me always. And grateful for my darling too 🌷 Allhumdulilah...

Chalo aaj ka Day shuru kare..

Aaj ki subah mai phir office late pahochi.. see below this is my attendence.

yellow- late, red-Holiday, Blue- paid leave, green-ontime

                                                                               🌷

Anyhow, I reached office today. First thing I did was edit and post my blog 
Then I started scrolling through some paid websites for R.A mock tests, but yaar, the plans were sooo expensive 😭 @1099 tak ke the… and I immediately dropped the plan to buy them. So free mock tests hi humare asli dost bane today.

Uske baad maine R.A ka 4th chapter revise kiya and issi mai 10:30 ho gaye. Then obviously market ka index check karna, apne portfolio ke stocks dekhna, specially VI par focus karna 😭📈

And then finally — work mode on.
Clients ko pareshaan karna started 

Aaj mere baju mai Rahul baitha tha. Mai calls mai busy thi and usse laga shayad mera focus nahi hai 😭 but honestly mera 20% focus har jagah hota hi hai. Mujhe jitna pata hai, usne khud se kahi interview call kiya tha and he was already on resign mode. Office mai pehle hi bol diya tha ki June se nahi aayega.

Aaj woh late aaya and  thode hi der mai 11bje kaha ki purane office jaana hai remaining money lene. Permission ke liye boss ko call kiya because manager available nahi the… aur boss ne directly bola — “You are terminated.”

Guys, mai yeh isliye share kar rahi hu because termination is a very big word. MO top 3 broking house companies mai aati hai and life mai kabhi future mai better role ke liye same company join karna ho toh chances khatam ho jaate hai. I know kisi ko bhi X company join karne ka koi “dream” nahi hota 😭 but I’ve worked here for one year and honestly yaha opportunities bahot hai — good roles, money, facilities… even TV par aane ka chance 😭

Phir pura office ussi topic par baat karta raha…

Lunch time hua toh mai neeche Pra bhai ke paas documents complete karne gayi and maine peri peri chips liye 😭 95 rupaye ke half kg aate hai but sooo tasty. Gujaratiyo ke saath rehkar maine ek cheez seekhi hai — lunch without namkeen and chips feels incomplete 

Then around 3:43 p.m meri RM arrived with 2 more people because meri TL changed ho gayi hai 😭 (4lyfers — darling ke TL abb mere TL ban gaye). Meri actual TL bed rest par hai.

And thennn 😭 sab log mujhe convince karne lage ki resignation wapas le lo. But mujhe nahi lena. I want to stand with my words.

Baato baato mai Pinky ma’am ne bola: “We are not going to give you last date.”

Maine unki aankhon mai dekha like — haeeee??? 😭 I paused for less than a second and then laughed — “Aapki marzi.” 

Uske baad hum log kha rahe the and baate kar rahe the. Mostly humare sirf 2 hi topics hote hai:

1. Restaurants 🍜

2. India ki different places discuss karna ✨

Then maine thoda sabko ignore kiya and bahar aakar LinkedIn profile update karna start kiya plus R.A 4th chapter ka mock test diya — scored 26/33 😭

And thennn… bad news. Delhi trip cancel ho gaya.

Ammi ki friend ko rented shop ke liye huge amount deposit karna hai warna owner rent increase karega. So she couldn’t join the trip… and friends bhi waise wale nikle — “ek nahi jaayega toh koi nahi jaayega.”

But hum waise nahi hai 😭
Maine ammi ko bola — agar meri friend hoti na toh mai kehti “aap aao, baaki paise baad mai de dena.” 🤍

Khair… Delhi adhuri reh gayi.
Inshallah something more beautiful is waiting for us. Inshallah soon 

Metro se ghar aayi and mummy ne Burger King try kiya tha 😭 Maine pasta khaya aur dinner bhi saath mai. Dara aur mera dono ka stomach already full tha but phir bhi hum besharamo ki tarah khaate rahe because cauliflower bana tha with rice 😭 Hum dono roti ko dekha bhi nahi.

Baate karte karte kab 2 plates finish ho gayi pata hi nahi chala 😭

And now it’s 11:46 p.m.
Ending my day with this blog.

Abhi edit karke kal post karungi because ghar aakar mera ek bhi kaam properly nahi hota 😭
Kal ka to-do list banana baki hai and Saturday se maine habit tracker bhi properly track nahi kiya.

Sab complete karke phone use karungi and then finally sleep 🌙

Thankyou for reading me 🤍
~Alhumdulillah~

— Safarnama

some pics guys!

DAY 137:19-05-2026: Documenting for myself.

 

Date: 19-05-2026

Hii Guys 

Its 5:28 pm: Gmorning. Mai aaj pura din office mai soyi hu. 

(wrote 2 lines in my office and came back home.. Here's my writing continue  below)

Hii guys Welcome back to my another blog… 

… mai aaj 3 din ke baad likh rahi hu. Mera Sunday aur Monday aur can consider Saturday too. itna bura gaya ki shayad meri 22 years ki life ke worst days me se ek tha. Aaj raat ke 3:00 a.m. ho rahe hai… pura Mumbai so raha hoga, but meri aankhon me neend abhi bhi nahi hai.

Aaj mai royi. Bohot royi.I feel so lonely

Aur ajeeb baat pata hai? Mai woh insaan nahi hu jo har baat pe overthink kare. School aur college ke days ne mujhe strong banana sikhaya tha. Maine har situation ko chup rehkar handle kiya hai. Lekin iss baar… pata nahi kyun dil tootne ki awaaz andar tak chali gayi.

Shayad meri life me woh 2 log hi meri sabse badi weakness bane. Naam nahi bataungi…

Some years back…

Ek ladki hua karti thi — Khush.

Cool-chilled. Bindaas. Har situation ko smartly handle karne wali. Life uske against bhi jaati thi tab bhi woh hass leti thi. Mujhe woh version apna phir se chahiye.

Aur pata hai? Mujhe yakeen hai ek din woh ladki wapas aayegi.
One day soon, Inshallah. 🌙

Perfect nahi banna… bas phir se apni aankhon ki woh roshni wapas chahiye.

Aaj abbu ke ek action ne mujhe andar tak tod diya. Aisa laga jaise kuch zakham kabhi bharte hi nahi… unpe bas waqt ki mitti jam jaati hai.

Mai bhaag bhaag kar sabke liye present rehti hu. Ek side family. Ek side close ones. Ek side expectations. Aur end me khud ke liye sirf thakan bachti hai.

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai mai literally bheekh maang rahi hu — love ki, care ki, samajhne ki.

Aur sabse painful cheez pata hai?

Jin logo ke paas emotions hi nahi bache, woh kabhi samajh hi nahi sakte ki aap kis dard se guzarte ho.

Isliye please… kabhi uss insaan se mohabbat mat karna jo tumhari presence ko samjhe hi nahi. 

Aaj subah se sirf soch rahi hu… aur likhte likhte ek line dil se nikli:

“Aankhon me mere khwaab the… jo saare ke saare adhure reh gaye.
Meri jaan, tu itna bata — kya thi meri khata?
Tu itna bata , tu na sata… kar meri phir parwah.
Na ho mujhse juda… tu wapas aa sab pehle sa tha…”

Jo bhi yeh padh raha hai… honestly, yaha stop bhi kar sakta hai. Yeh blog kisi ke liye nahi likh rahi. Yeh sirf meri documentation hai… taki future me meri older self yeh padh kar samajh sake ki mai kitni toot gayi thi… aur phir bhi survive kar gayi.

Mujhe khud nahi pata mai itna kyun likh rahi hu. Shayad mann halka ho raha hai.

Shayad likhna hi meri therapy hai.

Aaj ek aur realization hua…

Meri life hard hai sirf dusro ki wajah se nahi. Kabhi kabhi meri khud ki wajah se bhi. Aur strange part yeh hai ki kabhi kabhi mujhe khud par proud bhi feel hota hai — because despite everything, mai abhi bhi soft hu. Abhi bhi logo ke liye dil rakhti hu.Same as I was

Aaj kaam karte karte maine phone uthaya aur notifications check kiye. Office group se mujhe remove kar diya gaya tha. Aur  thing? Mujhe yeh tak yaad nahi tha ki mera last date kab hai

But you know what?

Ab regret nahi karungi.

Jo log meri value nahi samjhe… unke peeche apna mental peace aur nahi khona.

Aur haan… aaj Ustad Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan ki qawwali baar baar dimag me chal rahi thi:

“log Gairon se zakham khaye hau, humne… apno ne diya hai.”

Aur sach me… kuch lines sirf suni nahi jaati, mehsoos hoti hai.

Itna sab negative likhne ke baad ek cheez zarur bolungi…

Allah ne mujhe duniya ke best log bhi diye hai. Mere friends… mere heart ke pieces hai. maine bohot logo se baat ki, but kuch 7–8 log aise hai jo meri soul ko genuinely sukoon dete hai.

Love you all. 🤍

Kabhi kabhi bas ek message,?” hi insaan ko zinda feel karwa deta hai. 

• Chandyaari

• sabeb

• Darling

• Aik

• Lilboy

• Nuh

• Dara

• and my baby la la

You all are the people who somehow make me feel positive every single time. Tum log ho isliye mai abhi bhi khud ko sambhal leti hu.

Ab mai kal raat se soyi nahi hu. Time ho raha hai 11:59 p.m… aur finally blog complete karke seedha sone jaungi.

Agar kal subah uthkar thoda better feel hua… toh shayad yeh proof hoga ki dil tootne ke baad bhi insaan jeeta rehta hai.

Goodnight. 🌙-Allah hafiz

-Allhumdulilah

-Safarnama

18-05-2026: I work more when Im in stressed.

Hii. dont want to write very big blog. Im trying to recover me .

if any time I feel something to write here definately I will add my learning for my older self

  I work more when Im in stressed.

yes did all my pending work even Im not well mentally because me and my work matters not health

~Allhumdullilah.

-safarnama

💢DAY 136: 17-05-2026: ~please Delete.

 Hii guys, im back again ..

yes Im posting late .. coz I was out of my mind and dont want to document this say...

Sometimes it happens that we dont want to remember the day and this day is the day.

~ please Delete~

I hope My this day get erase from my mind as soon as possible.💢

Im not in a position to post still posing coz consistency matter the most.

Dua.. 

-safarnama

DAY135: 16-05-2026: FAST RUNNING SAT

 Hiii guys 🌙

Writing my blog at 8:57 pm while listening to “Lakh Lakh Shukar” by Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan 🎶

Literally… I’m soooo obsessed with his voice 😭 Aisa lagta hai jaise har line seedha dil ke andar utar rahi ho.

Kitni bhi koshish kar lo na… Lekin day messed up toh ho hi jaata hai 😭

Abhi ghar mai kuch aisa karnama hua hai jo private hai… toh ussi drama mai mera half time nikal gaya.
Aur abb time ho gaya hai 11:15 pm 😭

Khana toh maine shaam mai hi kha liya tha…Aur abb mujhe dangerous wali bhuk lag rahi hai 😭 Kya aapko bhi night cravings hoti hai?? Mujhe toh kabhi kabhi bahot hoti hai.

Abhi mann kar raha hai ekdum thanda sharbat pine ka…But fridge mai na Rooh Afza hai… na nimbu 😭 Kismat hi kharab hai meri.

Chalo… aaj ke day ke baare mai baat karte hai 🤍

Kal raat mai jaldi so gayi thi… Toh subah 8:30 am uth gayi 😭✨ Achievement honestly.

Phir mai gayi Ovripada ration card ke kaam ke liye… Ammi ke saath… Aik ki mom, uska bhai aur uske dad bhi the.

Aur mai?? Hamesha ki tarah uncle ke auto mai godh mai baithi hui 😭

Waha jaake pata chala — OFFICE CLOSE 😭

Saturday tha… aur pura kaam pending reh gaya. Uske baad mujhe samajh aa gaya tha ki aaj ghar mai Abbu hai… Toh mera ek bhi personal kaam nahi hone wala 😭

Aur EXACTLY wahi hua. Mai aur Abbu nonstop baate karte rahe… Phir Ammi aur Dara bhi join ho gaye… Aur phir kya 😭 Hum 4 log baat karte karte kab kis se ladne lagte hai… pata hi nahi chalta.

#TheFighterCooks 😭🍳

Lekin honestly… Aaj ka din mast tha 🤍

Maine Quran padha… Mera 1st aur 2nd paara complete ho gaya 😭🤍

Kal bhi padhungi Inshallah. Sach kahu… Zindagi mai bas Allah ka haath chahiye… Busss 🤍

— safarnama

DAY 134: LALA BDAY CELEBRATION

15-05-2026: Friday

~LA LA TURNS 16~

 Its 12:29 a.m 🌙

Aur finally… aaj jaakar thoda garmi se relief mila 😭 Mumbai mai sach mai itni garmi ho rahi hai na… pasino se halat kharab ho jaati hai.

Onoooo waittt… Kya mai bhi har dusre line mai “summer summer” kar rahi hu?? 😭 Abhi weather cool hai na… toh mujhe bhi cool down karna chahiye.

Pichle 5 minute se mere dimaag mai ek baat atki hui hai… aur mai ussi ke bare mai deep thinking mode mai chali gayi thi.
Bahot kharab thought hai honestly. But chalo… uske bare mai baad mai sochungi… akele sote waqt 😭 Abhi positive blog likhte hai… jaha hum hamesha khush rahe 🤍

So… aaj ka din busy tha.

Late uthna… 9:40 a.m tak office pahochna… Aur pahochte hi nonstop chatar patar baate karna 😭

Mere “Ket” Sir North India trip pe gaye the — Shimla, Kasauli aur bhi bahot jagah. Aur woh full excitement ke saath hume apna experience suna rahe theee 😭 Mountains, weather, vibes… sab.

Lekin baat phir wahi aa gayi — Mere resign ki.

Pinky ma’am bol rahi thi — “Sir aate hi first yahi puchenge… maybe unhone email padh li hogi.”

Aur office mai full day wahi topic chalta raha. Questions pe questions. Discussion pe discussion.

Aur honestly? Mujhe baat hi nahi karni iss topic par. Main already andar se itni exhausted hu… Mujhe aur kuch create nahi karna. Ab mujhe sirf ek cheez par focus rakhna hai —

~STAND STRONGLY WITH RESIGN.~

Guys… Abhi technically next day hai 😭 Means 16-05-2026.

Itna blog likhte likhte mai literally so gayi 😭 Aur ab regret ho raha hai ki chutti ke din kaun sota hai yaarrrr.

Chalo… kal ki baate continue karte hai 😭 Mera office day mostly aise hi nikalta hai…Kaam, bak bak, padhai, stress, random laughs. Aur ek special cheez bataun??? 😭

Mujhe FREE juice mila ✨😭Haan haan free distribution wala. Flavour: Jaljira + Rasna vibes 😭

2 GLASS FULL PI HU.. WAOO

Sach bolu? Free cheezo ka taste alag hi hota hai. Phir shaam ko ghar se emergency type plan aaya — “Khush jaldi aao… Ammi wait kar rahi hai. Saath mai Badi Ammi ke ghar jaana hai.” Aur mai irritate 😭 Because Abbu 5 baje se ghar pe the… Still WHY ME 😭 Raaste mai Andheri pahochte hi maine Adi ko call kiya. Finally usne second-hand phone le liya.

Aur haan… maine blog mai mention nahi kiya tha ki uska phone kho gaya tha  😭Toh maine pucha — “Kaise gum hua?”

Aur woh full honestly bola — “Maine bahot zyada drink kar liya tha… itna ki bottle aur phone dono hi gum ho gaye.”

Aur mera instant reaction — “Accha hua 😭 punishment milni chahiye thi.”

Phir woh explain karne laga ki woh bahot pareshaan tha… isliye itne time baad itna zyada pi liya.
Aur usse regret ho raha tha.

Bahot deep baate hui. But ghar se nonstop calls aa rahe the — Mom aur Dad dono 😭 Phir maine call cut karke Abbu ko call kiya — “Haan haan pahoch gayi.”

Aur Abbu bole — “Aram se aao.” WAHHHH 😭 Toh itne calls karne ki kya zarurat thiii.

Ghar pahochte hi mai seedha bathroom bhaagi 😭 Aur sorry but sach bolungi — Late situation + pressure = compulsory bathroom emergency 😭 Phir Badi Ammi ke saath family talks… Wahi classic dialogue — Kitni patli ho gayi hai…”

Aur Ammi ka sudden reply —“Yeh scooty chalana seekhna chahti hai.”

LITERALLYYYY 😭
Abbu mere saamne baithe hai aur mai indirectly permission ke liye begging mode mai 😭

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai…
Hum ek aisi family mai hai jaha apni marzi ke kapde tak nahi pehen sakte…
Aur duniya wale apni marzi se shaadi kar rahe hai 😭

Dara ro rahi thi kyuki maine uski dress pehni thi 😭
Aur jab maine yeh sab bola toh woh hassne lagi.

Uske baad mai full phass gayi thi family talks mai…Aur idhar subah 9 baje se maine cake order kiya hua tha 😭 Raat ke almost 10 baj gaye the aur abhi tak receive nahi hua.

Phir maine Dara ko bola pickup karne… aur finally woh le aayi.

EK TENSION HAT GAYIIII 😭🎂

Phir ghar aake humne khana khaya — Dal, rice, roti aur seekh 🤍 Aur mera La.La aise khush ho raha tha 😭🤍

Uske baad pics click hue…Cake cut hua… Sabne cake khaya…

Aur cake cut hote hi maine Lala ko daant diya 😭Because woh bahot naughty hai… Aur mai aggressive 😭

Phir half blog likhte likhte… Sochte sochte… Pata hi nahi chala kab neend aa gayi.

Alhamdulillah 🤍

Letter to my baby… La.La 🤍

(Jab tum 26 ke ho jaoge na… tab mai tumhe yeh dikhaungi. Abhi tum bahot chote ho samajhne ke liye.)

Hii Lala 🤍 Today you turned 16.

Yaar… yeh chotu sa baby itna bada kaise ho raha hai 😭
Please stop growing na thoda.

Mujhe tum waise hi pasand ho —
Naughty, masti khor, funny, irritating 😭🤍
Jo pure ghar ko hasa deta hai.

Mujhe abhi bhi yaad hai jab tum mere haath mai itneee chote the 🤍
Tumhare muh se hamesha paani girta rehta tha 😭

Aur tumhara first word…
“Ka… ka…” 😭

Mujhe yaad hai mai tumhe sky mai birds dikhake bolna sikhati thi —
“Bye kwawa bye.” 🕊️

Mujhe tumhari woh cry yaad hai jab loud speaker ki awaaz sunke darr jaate the 😭
Tumhari first poem yaad hai.
Tum kitne patle the ya kitne mote hue the… sab yaad hai 😭
Aur Ammi tumhe kaise maarti thi woh bhi 😭

Ab tum bade ho jaoge…
Aur mai tumhe waise hug nahi kar paungi jaise pehle karti thi.
Na hi waise haath mai utha paungi.

Bas meri dua hai —

Allah tumhe lambi zindagi de 🤍
Tum bilkul Abbu jaise bano… same ditto 🤍
Har ladki ki respect karna.
Hamesha khush rehna.
Bahot padhai karna.
Aur mujhse bhi 100000000 times zyada paise kamaana 😭🤍

— Your Aapa,
Khush 🤍

— safarnama

DAY 133: 14-05-2026: The day in office and office ke baad pehli baar juhu.....🤍

14-05-2026

Hiii Guys 🌙
Kaise ho aap sabbb…

Writing this blog very late because days bahot hectic chal rahe hai… aur life toh already messed up hai 😭
But the difference is…
I’m happy.

Honestly… sach mai happy hu 

Aur uska reason hai?Main acche logo se surrounded hu. Roz ghumna… naye naye places dekhna…  random conversations… travelling nonstop… yeh sab mujhe zinda feel karwate hai. like Allah ne jo mujhe life di hai uska mujhe bahot sukr hai

btw. Guys… mai aaj kal vlogs bhi shoot karti hu 👀 Haan haan… secretly 😭 Practice ke liye.

Because iss saal mera resolution hai —I want to become a vlogger.

Aur dekho na… 5 months ho gaye saal ko… Na properly kuch shoot kiya… na kuch post 😭 DEKHOOO 😭 Mai phir topic se bahar chali gayi.

Aur  mai Juhu bhi gayi thi… Aur pata nahi kyuu… Juhu mai kuch toh hai.Aisa kuch jo maine  abhi tak properly decode nahi kiya… But ek ajeeb si feeling attach ho gayi hai uss jagah se 🌊 aur mai 2nd time iskon temple bhi gayi thii mast place hai ~feeling good~

baaki ka im not writing.. just posting pic ...

Allhumdulilah.. sukr 

-safarnama

📝132: 13-05-2026: Documented my TDL📋 📌 ✔️

 13-05-2026

Okayyy so one very random thing about me 😭

Mere paas bohot saari diaries hai… but meri ek habit hai ki main kabhi bhi ek hi jagah par properly notes nahi likhti.

You’ll literally find my thoughts, to-do lists, random plans, and half-written ideas everywhere 😭

And the funniest part?

Jab actual me zarurat hoti hai, tab wahi important note milta hi nahi 💀

So here’s my very serious-not-so-serious TDL 😭✨

TDL – 13-05-2026

1. At night collect all documents for passport work and arrange everything properly in the bag.

(Yes, because agar documents nikal kar side me rakhe toh pakka next day bhool jaungi 😭)

2. Stick passport-size photo in the passport file.

3. Study Chapter 6 of RA.

(At least try karna hai 😭)

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TDL – 14-05-2026

7:00 am – 8:40 am

Get ready for office while listening to songs because bina gaane ke ready hona feels illegal 😭🎧

8:45 am – 9:00 am

Sit peacefully, log in, check mails, and pretend life is sorted.

9:00 am – 10:00 am

Study Chapter 5 completely and revise everything properly.

10:00 am – 5:00 pm

Office workkkkk 😭

5:00 pm – 6:00 pm

Complete all pending tasks that have been haunting me for days.

6:00 pm – 7:00 pm

Visit Pratik bhai for passport-related work.

7:00 pm onwards

Mast ghumooo, chill, relax, and stop stressing for at least one evening ✨

And yes… raat me blog likhkar post bhi karna hai because pending blogs are staring at me daily 😭

Guys honestly… do you think I can actually complete all this in one day? 😭

Maybe itna difficult bhi nahi hai… bas mera focus aur energy ek jagah tik jaye 💛

-Allhumdullilah.

_Safarnama

🥶DAY 131: 12-05-2026: Tuesday...Im irritated

 

12-05-2026

Hii guys… raat ke 1:25 am ho rahe hai and honestly mera mood abhi thoda off hai. Mere blog ki settings achanak change ho gayi and uske baad se pura vibe hi disturb ho gaya.

Like full codings aa gyi🥶🥶🥶mera dimaag hil gya hai

Mera bilkul mann nahi kar raha tha likhne ka, isliye maine socha tha bas good night bolkar so jaun…

Gn tc...

(Chandyaari ne yeh issue mai meri help kardi hai)- thanks.. 

But then today is already 13th May and I’m again sitting with my laptop trying to complete this pending blog.

Sach bolu toh chai bhi ab utni help nahi kar rahi 😭… I ignored it for some time but my mind is just not at one place right now.

Kabhi kabhi na aisa lagta hai ki blog likhne ke liye sirf time nahi, ek peaceful brain bhi chahiye hota hai… and currently my brain is handling too many thoughts together.

I don’t even know why I suddenly feel like crying sometimes, but phir khud ko samjha bhi leti hu ki “it’s okay.” Maybe it’s just anxiety, overthinking, pressure of pending work, ya phir sab kuch ek saath ho raha hai.

Lekin ek baat hai… even after all this, I still wanted to show up here and write honestly. Because this blog is becoming like a small diary where I can just be myself without pretending everything is perfect.

Abhi itna hi share karna tha…

Next blog hopefully thoda zyada positive hoga, with calmer thoughts, better energy and happier moments 💛

Good night guys ✨

Still Allhumdulillah for everything...

-safarnama

💛DAY 130:11-05-2026- radom things done

 11-05-2026

Aahh finally guys… 😭 Abhi raat ke almost 10:26 pm ho rahe hai and ghar me literally celebration wala atmosphere hai. Mere bhai Lala ka Board Exam result aaya hai… and trust me, I still cannot believe it.

Sach me yaar, itni zyada khushi kabhi kabhi words me explain hi nahi hoti.

I’m genuinely sooo proud of him 💛

Thanks Allah for making my brother — Lala — pass in his first attempt ✨

Even while writing this, I’m still like… “Am I dreaming?” 😭

Sabse funny part pata hai kya tha?

Lala pura ghar me ghoom ghoom ke sabko marks bata raha tha 😭

Lala ne kaha, “Meree friend ke 45% aaye hai aur woh bhavans admission lene ki planning kar raha hai.”

Then I asked,

“Achha… aur Lala ke kitne percent aaye?”

Lala casually said,

“45.”

And I literally went like — “WHAAATTT?” 😭😂 , mujhe laga 90+ hi aaye honge.

Then I asked again, “Baaki sabke kitne aaye?”

Lala said, “45, 60… sabke around wahi.”

And honestly, us moment pe mujhe ek baat realize hui…

Kabhi kabhi percentage se zyada important hoti hai relief.

The happiness that someone passed, survived the pressure, and finally crossed one difficult phase.

Guys sach bolu, I’m honestly so tired these days.

Mere itne saare kaam pending hai and I’m trying so hard to handle everything properly… but somehow things still feel messy.

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai mera cheerful version kahin disappear ho gaya hai.

The girl who used to talk nonstop, laugh at random things, and write blogs with full excitement… ab woh thodi lost si lag rahi hai.

Actually aaj blog likhne ka bhi bilkul mood nahi tha.

I even took a 10-minute tea break hoping I’d feel better 😭☕

Sometimes I genuinely wonder why Allah made me “the most talkative girl” when nowadays I barely even know what to say.

Anyway guys… sorry for this incomplete blog 🥺

I’ll continue again later because right now my laptop is waiting for me and I still have college forms to fill.

😭✨

 Okay bye…

See you in the next blog 💛

Allhumdullillah.

-Safarnama

🍩Day129: 10-05-2026: we Celebrated our 2 Queens Day!

10-05-2026 -SUNDAY-

Bithday Donuts

     Yummy Pizza & Juice    

 

Birthday Gurlss.

Celebrating the Birthday of My Two Beautiful 

Queens 💜 #“S.S Day”

Hota hai na..Kabhi kabhi feelings perfectly express nahi hoti… but dil se hoti hai.Aur yeh blog exactly waisa hi hai.

Is baar maine tum dono ke liye koi fancy birthday card nahi banaya. Na koi aesthetic surprise prepare kiya. Honestly,  bura bhi lag raha tha. But phir laga… shayad dil se likhe hue words handmade cards se bhi zyada special hote hai.  So this is for my two beautiful girls — straight from my heart. 🤍

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Abb First kisse mention karu is a tough task so I"M Coping idea of sababeb-Aranging into alphabetical order-

To My Dear Darling!!🌸

I'm very greatful that I found you at the beginging of our college becoz mujhe tho pata bhi nahi tha ki college mai friends bhi banane hote hai.Thankyou for sitting beside me on a first bench aur dekho Random talks se lekar emotional conversations tak… hasi mazaak se breakdown moments tak… pata hi nahi chala kab tum meri life ka itna important part ban gayi.

And because of you, mujhe Sababeb aur chandyaari bhi mili… aur phir hum sabne milkar apni ek choti si duniya bana li — apna little group, apna chaos, apni comfort place. 💜

I genuinely love you from the bottom of my heart.

Aaj jab mai tumhe dekhti hu na, I can feel how hard you are working — not only for yourself but also for your family. Aur honestly, as a daughter, tum bohot strong ho.

Mujhe pata hai kabhi kabhi tum confused feel karti ho… kabhi rona aata hoga… kabhi lagta hoga sab difficult hai. But please always remember this: Hard work kabhi waste nahi jata.

Aur sach mai, mujhe lagta hai billions of happiness, success aur opportunities tumhara wait kar rahi hai.

I Dua for your healthy life, peaceful heart, and a beautiful future.

Tum duniya ghoomo, concerts attend karo, apne favorite people se milo, aur life ki har choti badi happiness experience karo. I purple you. Te amo. 💜

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Dear Sababeb✨

Chalo start kare appreciation .. dear. --humari planner … humari leader … aur secretly stylish “chup-chup ke ghumne wali” friend  😭💅

Happiest Birthday to youuu!

Tum genuinely un logon mein se ho jinke saath time spend karke acha lagta hai. Tumhari presence hi comforting hai. Mujhe humari random masti, outings, bakbak sessions aur conversations bohot pasand hai. 

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai mai abhi bhi tumhe aur deeply samajhna chahti hu because there’s so much depth in your personality. But jitna bhi mai jaanti hu… usse itna zaroor pata hai that you’re genuinely a beautiful soul.

Tumne ek baar bola tha ki mai tumhe inspire karti hu… but honestly, you inspire me. 🤍mai itni artistic and creative bilkul nahi thii - honestly I had copied hu and still I try you 

Yaad hai woh clay modelling then live example - this blogs- thanks for the advice , Blogs likhne mai bahot mazza aarahi hai... aur bhi share karo things that I can do it as my hobby- because of this I keep my mind calm from stress.. Again thanks! Love you always---I purple you- Te Amo

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To Both of You 🌷

Aisi friendships honestly bohot rare hoti hai.

Jaha silence bhi awkward nahi lagta. Jaha choti choti memories bhi lifetime moments ban jaati hai.

Maybe mai har baar perfect surprises nahi bana paati… but I hope you both always know this:

I’m truly grateful to have both of you in my life.

Thank you for being my comfort people, meri safe space, meri hasi difficult days mein, and one of the best parts of my life.

May this year bring endless happiness, success, peace, self-love and beautiful memories for both of you.

And no matter kitna bhi life change ho jaye…

our little bond will always stay special. 💜

Miss U Chandyaari on this Day...

DAY 128 - 09-05-2026: India’s Investor Festival ✨

  09-05-2026 ☀️✨,Saturday 

Soooo helllo everyone 🤍

Kaise ho aap sab? Yaha Mumbai mein toh full garmi ne bura haal kar diya hai 😭 Main ek second sweat wipe karti hu… aur next second phir se paseenaaaaa. Ewwwwww.

But sach bolu… mujhe accha lagta hai ki mere blogs mein har season capture ho raha hai 🌦️ Kabhi baarish… kabhi garmi… kabhi sadness… kabhi excitement. Everything stays here.

CHALO PHIR AAJ KA BLOG SHURU KARE!!!!!

India’s Investor Festival ✨Presented by Groww

Abb jitna khubsurat yeh festival tha… usse bhi zyada mujhe yeh company
lagti hai.

Agar simple words mein kahu toh Groww ek Indian broker platform hai jahan investors aur traders shares buy-sell kar sakte hai, mutual funds mein invest kar sakte hai and many more financial services bhi use kar sakte hai.

Aur personally mujhe sabse zyada kya pasand hai? Their charts 😭✨ Itne smooth function karte hai ki bas dekhte raho.

so, kahani kuch iss tarah shuru hue.. Aap sabko toh pata hi hai…Instagram scrolling mein main PhD holder hoon 😌📱

Aur wahi reels scroll karte karte mujhe iss event ke baare mein pata chala.
Groww ne apne 10 years complete kiye the aur they were organizing this huge investor festival.

Pehle main soch rahi thi— “Jaau ki nahi jaau…?”

But honestly… Mere paas paise ho aur main kisi exciting jagah na jaau? Impossible 😭

Thodi nervous thi… but bahot excited bhi. Phir Kya chalo abb planning start huiii ✨

Main aur meri Chandyaari ne decide kiya— “Hum ja rahe hai.” Aur phir dil bola—Kaash hum 4lyfers saath jaa paate.

But Sababeb ka same issue… depression phase chal raha tha so she said no 😭 Aur meri darling kooffice se chutti nahi mili.

Sach mein… Hum 4 ek saath mil hi nahi paa rahe lately.

But I dua— Allah humari dosti hamesha strong rakhe. Ameen 🤍

Abb meri Chandyaari Vapi se aane wali thi 😭✨Means madam subah sharp 5:30 a.m uth gayi.

Aur main?

7:30 baje uthkar bhi struggle kar rahi thi 😭

Excitement + nervousness dono full chal raha tha.

Uthte hi thoda TP kiya… Phir nahaane gayi… Aur then STARTED MAKEUP 😭✨

BTW… I’m literally new in makeup field. Khud se makeup karna mera second attempt tha.

Aur mujhe kya chahiye tha?     PERFECTION 😭

Iss perfection ke chakkar mein 1.5 hour ready hone mein laga diye.

But sach bolu?

Result mast aaya 😭🤍

Pics mein clearly dikh raha hoga.

Aur abb… Hum kahi jaaye aur kuch epic na ho? Aisa toh ho hi nahi sakta 😭

Plan yeh tha ki hum dono ek hi Rapido auto se jayenge… mast baate karte karte.

BUT NO. Rapido ka route hi alag ho gaya 😭

Chandyaari already pahoch gayi thi near Jio World Convention Centre, Bandra BKC, Mumbai

Aur main bhi waha pahoch gayi.

Hum gate no. 6 par khade the…

Aur phir pata chala—

EVENT TOH GATE NO. 20 PAR HAI 😭😭😭

GUYSSSS.

Blazer. High heels. Mumbai ki garmi. Meri halat dead 😭

Hum dono chal rahe the… paseene mein full bheeg kar.

mera tho full Makeup bachao mission chal raha tha.

Finally andar gaye…

Aur AC ki hawa lagte hi aisa feel hua jaise life wapas aa gayi 😭✨

bhaiii security level ek dum up tha har jagah you will find them.

Phir security wale ne bola:

“Straight jao and elevator se 3rd floor.”

Aur hum dono excitement mein full fast-fast chal rahe the.

Main pura time phone ka camera open karke har moment capture kar rahi thi 📸✨phir bhi ek dhang ka video nahi aaya...

Aur phir…

THE LINE 😭

Bands lene ke liye queue.

Aur honestly…

Queue mein stand rehna is one of the most boring things for me.

There were 3 ticket platforms groww had open to get the tickets:

1. Groww website

2. BookMyShow

3. District by Zomato

Aur humara ticket booking experience bhi alag hi drama tha 😭

Chandyaari ne mujhe call karke bola tha:

“Tickets sold out ho gaye.”

Aur main literally panic mode mein:

“WHAAATTTTT 😭”

Main turant District app check karne gayi…

Aur tickets available the 😭✨

Maine lightning speed pe book kar diye.

Finally bands mileeeee ✨

Aur saath mein ek bag bhi mila jisme books, brochures and goodies the.

Aur phir kya… Hum dono full photoshoot mode 😭📸

But GUYSSS… Outside jitna accha tha na… andar usse bhi 100 times zyada dreamy.

WAHHHHHH.

Everything was black-themed 🖤 Lights… setup… stalls… vibe…

Aisa lag raha tha jaise kisi corporate space-world mein enter kar gaye ho 😭✨

Main literally idhar-udhar bhaag rahi thi sab dekhne ke liye.

Andar full mela laga hua tha 😭

Free goodies… brochures… books… stickers… tote bags…

Aur main sab collect kar rahi thi like a baccha in stationary shop 😭

Sabse cute part?

Main aur Chandyaari dono 2 baar same stalls pe gaye…

Taaki extra goodies le sake for Sababeb and my darling 😭🤍

Tum dono nahi the saath…

But still tum dono humare saath hi the.

Kabhi kabhi dono mujhe bahot gussa dilate hai 😭

But I love them sooo much.

Love you 4lyfers 🤍

even Dara you too.. next time we will go together Missed you  in this beautiful event.

Corporate mele mein hum bahot ghoomeeee 😭✨

Games khelee… bhaage… masti ki…

Aur phir hum panel discussion side gaye.

AND GUYSSS 😭

ITNI BHEED.

Main andar jaake shocked.

Log khade the because sitting arrangement bahot kam tha.

Phir samajh aaya ki 3 different halls divided the according to topics.

Aur honestly? Knowledgeable tha.

Bahot kuch seekhne mila.

Kis cheez par focus karna hai… Life mein kya improve karna hai…

Woh sab feel hua.

Aur sach bolu… Main jaanti hu mera heart kya feel karta hai.

Kabhi kabhi happy smile ke peeche bahot kuch hidden hota hai.

Mujhe pata hai mujhe bahot mehnat karni hai. Gir kar phir khade hona hai.

Aur honestly… Main sirf apne Allah par believe karti hu 🤍

Mujhe pata hai woh mere liye best hi karega.

Bas meri dua hai: Mere friends hamesha mere saath rahe… Abbu-Ammi healthy aur khush rahe…

Aur mera bhai mere paas rahe.

Ameen 🤍

Guys humne bahot games khelee 😭✨ Crowd manageable tha… itna suffocating nahi. Stand-up comedy attend ki.

AND THAT WAS MY FAVOURITE PART 😭✨

Itna hassi aaye yaar. Aur phir…

Raamdeo Agrawal 😭✨

Aur Zepto ke founder ko bhi dekhaaaa.

Yaar honestly…

SUPERB EVENT.

Loved ittttt.

 Aur khana???? 😭tho hum ne - sorry me only Bhar bhar ke khaya maine 😭✨

Mast maza aagaya.

Abb already maine event bahot define kar diya 😭

But truly…

Grateful for the day.

Alhamdulillah 🤍

Thank you Allah for giving me naseeb for this day.

Thank you Allah ki main achhe se ready hui 😭✨

And thank you Allah for sending me there with my Chandyaari.

Sach bolu?

Woh mere saath hoti hai toh mujhe life ka pressure halka lagta hai.

Main apni tensions bhool jaati hu 🤍

Aur event ka funniest part batana toh main bhool hi gayi 😭

Ek guy mere side mein baitha tha.

Usne pehle conversation start ki.

Mujhe laga koi super professional banda hoga because he was using bahot heavy finance words 😭

Aur main toh talkative hu hi…

Main bhi baat karne lag gayi nonstop.

Phir usne bataya ki woh bhi same field mein kaam karta hai jo main karti hu.

Sab normal chal raha tha.

Phir usne mera naam poocha…

Maine Chandyaari ko bhi introduce kar diya.

Aur phir meri baari aayi uska naam poochne ki.

He said:

“Raafi.”

Aur mere dimag mein instantly:

“Muslim???”

Usne bola:

“Yesss.”

Aur main andar se:

“Bas. Conversation khatam karo 😭”

Phir woh mutual funds advice maang raha tha…

Aur main ignore mode 

Woh samajh gaya.

Funny tha honestly 

Aur nahi… religion define nahi kar rahi hu.

But bas mujhe pata hai humare Muslim boys kitne pyare aur smooth talkers hote hai 😭✨

That’s it for the dayyyyy 🤍

Pictures dekh loooo 😭✨

Meri beautiful girl Chandyaari ne click ki hai.

Small Note 🤍

Thank you Chandyaari for coming with meeeee 😭✨

Aur please mujhe batana tumhe yeh din kaisa laga…

Because this was your first eventttt.

I loved spending time with you 🤍

Love from your friend sitting in Mumbai 🌙✨

Alhamdulillah 🤍

-Safarnama