Safarnama is back..✨️

30.08

Hello... Hii... 🌻

I know… it’s been quite a few days since I posted here. And honestly, I feel really bad about my inconsistency. Not just with this blog, but with my behaviour, my decisions, and the way I’ve been managing my overall life lately.

I don’t know what exactly is happening with me.I’m not stressed… but I am disappointed. Disappointed in myself.

Because after trying so hard, after constantly telling myself that I’ll do better, I still somehow end up making the same stupid mistakes. And then I sit and wonder—

“What am I actually doing wrong?”

Why am I behaving like a child sometimes?

Why do I keep making mistakes even when I know better?

Why do I overthink things that shouldn’t even matter this much?

And most importantly…

Why does everything feel so messed up right now?

It’s strange because from the outside, maybe everything looks normal. Life is moving, I’m working, I’m doing things, I’m trying… But somewhere inside, I feel like I’m not really managing myself the way I should.

And that feeling hurts. I know I’m not perfect. I know mistakes are a part of growing up. But sometimes, I just wish I could understand myself a little better. Maybe I’m expecting too much from myself. Maybe I’m trying to figure out too many things at once.

Or maybe… I simply need to slow down, breathe, and stop being so harsh on myself. I don’t know. But today, I just wanted to come here and be honest. No pretending that everything is sorted. No pretending that I have all the answers.

Just me… sitting with my thoughts and trying to understand where I’m going wrong. Maybe this is also a part of the journey.

Messy days. Wrong decisions. Stupid mistakes. Disappointments. And then… trying again. So yeah…

Hi again, Safarnama.

I’m back. 🌻

25.08.2026

I can document this as a PYARA DAY. 🥹❤️

So, as usual, my day started with reaching office. I attended my training session, but yaar, subah se hi headache tha. So maine ek chhota sa break liya and had a full cup of latte. Thoda better feel hua… ☕😌

Phir 4 baje se continuously meetings start ho gayi. Upar se Nifty ki expiry ne sabko loss karwa diya and I was literally going crazy! 😭😂 But inn sab cheezon ke beech mera mind already kisi aur hi zone mein tha…

Because I was going on a DATE with my 4lyferz! Jahan mai Sabeb aur my darling se milne wali thi. Waooo! 🫶🏻

Maine jaise hi mauka mila, nikal gayi ready hone. Formals change kiye, apni white T-shirt pehni aur wahi same black pant jo mai pata nahi kitni baar pehen chuki hu. 😂

Acche se ready bhi nahi ho paayi because… I was already late So bas—

LET’S GOOOOOO! 🏃🏻‍♀️😂

Maine thoda cash withdraw kiya, metro ka ticket liya and phir nikal padi. Aur bhaiiii… BHAAYANKAR CROWD! 😭

Aur ek funny cheez—mujhe Marol mein yaad aaya ki maine chats properly read hi nahi ki thi. 😂 Humne pehle Powai ka plan banaya tha, but rain ki wajah se plan change ho gaya and finally hum Bombay to Barcelona pahunch gaye.

Honestly, mujhe lagta hai solo trip karne ke liye hamesha kahin door jaane ki zarurat nahi hoti… apne hi area mein itni mast-mast jagah hai! 😂same darling ne bhi same kaha

Tab tak Sabeb aur Darling already pahunch chuke the and mai bhi finally wahan pahunch gayi. Sabse pehle garlic bread order ki… jo ki ekdum FLOP nikli. 😭  Itni thandi thi ki meri rating hai— 2/10. 😂

Phir pizza aaya. Woh thoda theek-thaak tha, so usko milte hain 7/10. 🍕😂

But honestly, mera mann toh kuch chapata-chupata khane ka tha Kha-peekar hum wahan se nikal gaye. Aur bhaiii… aaj maine BAHUT BAATEIN KI. 🥹❤️

But sabse best part? I CONVINCED EVERYONE FOR ANOTHER TRIP! 😭😂✈️

Mission successful!

Aur phir aaya aaj ka sabse unexpected and sweetest moment…

Mujhe birthday gift mila. 🥹🎁❤️

Honestly, 100/10. Mujhe jo cheez itne din se chahiye thi, exactly wahi mili. And uske saath itni prettiest handmade photos… Yaar, mai genuinely emotional ho gayi thi. 🥹

Maine bilkul expect nahi kiya tha ki mujhe gift milega. And that's what made it even more special.

Best gift, seriously. ❤️ Thank you, Sabeb, for putting so much effort into it. And Shrey and my Chand ..I just love you all. 🥹❤️

Phir hum pav bhaji khane gaye the, but pav bhaji toh reh hi gayi and humne mast kadak chai pee. 😂☕

Uske baad pani puri khayi.

Aur pani puri ke paas ek chhota sa cute baby tha. 🥹 I swear, I just love kids, especially cute little boys. 😂❤️

Woh apni behen ko apni body dikha raha tha and I was like—

“Awwwww… kitna masoom hai!” 🥹😂

Maine usse thodi baatein bhi ki and pata chala ki woh pani puri wale uncle ka beta tha. ❤️ Phir Sabeb apne ghar ki taraf nikal gayi…

Aur mai aur Darling bhi chal diye.But phir…Hum dono almost 2 hours tak baith gaye. 🥹

Humne ek doosre se bahut saari baatein share ki. Aisi baatein jo shayad hum normally kisi se nahi karte.

We both opened up to each other…

and somewhere between all those conversations, humne bahut saari cheezein realise ki.

There were moments when I cried in front of her, and mujhe dekh kar woh bhi rone lagi. 🥺Hum baith kar bahut der tak baatein karte rahe…

and honestly, that two hours felt different.

Finally, around 10 baje, hum ghar ke liye nikle.

Aaj humne koi proper day pictures bhi nahi li… but honestly, aaj pictures se zyada memories bani hain. ❤️

Ghar aakar maine almost 25 minutes Chand se baat ki. 😂❤️

Woh meri saari baatein sun kar has rahi thi and pata nahi kyun, but usse baat karke mujhe bahut happiness mili.

Alhamdulillah. ❤️

Allah mere 4lyferz ki dosti hamesha salamat rakhe.

Bas hum aise hi milte rahein, haste rahein, ladte rahein, trips plan karte rahein and ek doosre ke saath aise hi khade rahein. 🥹❤️

Aur haan… Kal Eid Milad hai. 🌙✨ Ghar par do chhoti bacchiyan mehndi lagwane aayi thi, toh maine unhe mehndi lagayi. Phir ghar ka khana khaya, Chand se thodi chat par baat ki…

And finally,

I went back to sleep. 😴❤️

     

23.08

Sorry, will post soon

24.08.2026

Hii Guys.. ❤️

So finally… corporate life is back! 😂

Aaj Monday tha, toh week ki beginning office se hi karte hain..

Office paas hai, phir bhi main aur jaldi uthti hoon so that aaram se ready hokar jaaun, kyunki bhai… it’s a full corporate! 😭😂

Jaldi se ready hokar lunch lekar main office ke liye nikal padi.

Honestly, office mein mujhe kaafi bore feel hota hai aur abhi toh thoda uncomfortable bhi lagta hai. It’s not really good… but theek hai.

No worries. Good things take time. 🌻

Office se ghar aate-aate main bilkul thak chuki thi. Kal garden mein main kitni energetic thi aur aaj dekho meri battery full 0% 😂

Shaam hote hi mera food mode ON ho gaya. 😭

Pehle Frankie… waoo!

Phir Maggi…

Uske baad Horlicks Power… 😂

Aur obviously… chai with butter!

Matlab shaam ki cravings ne aaj poora attendance laga diya. 😂Uske baad Daraksha ke saath thodi masti ki aur finally humne books cart mein add kar hi di! 📚❤️

Lekin order nahi kiya… kyunki almost 15–20 books ho gayi thi aur total bill around 3–4k jaa raha tha. Main toh expecting thi ki 2k ke aas-paas ho jaana chahiye. Aur honestly, main books se bhi fully satisfied nahi thi.So thoda research karke I will add it in my cart

Thoda ruk jaate hain.

Aaram se, thande dimaag se dobara books dekhungi aur phir order karungi, Inshallah. Maybe iss week ya next week. 📖✨

Phir half-way mein mujhe bathroom jaana tha, toh main neeche gayi… aur guess what?

Mere ghar ke saamne mujhe meri bachpan ki ek friend mil gayi. Sheef.

Ab woh pehle ki tarah humare ghar nahi aati, but honestly, I never feel bad about it. Uski mom-dad kaafi supportive hain, especially uski education ko lekar, aur woh mujhse bhi kehte hain ki usse guide karun.

Woh mujhe dekh kar smile kar rahi thi, toh main bhi ruk gayi. Humne almost 5–10 minutes baat ki. kisi apne se do minute baat karna bhi achha lagta hai.

Raat ko maine moon ke baare mein kuch likhne ki try ki… 🌙 Concept mere dimaag mein tha. Feel bhi ho raha tha. But pata nahi kyun, words mil hi nahi rahe the.

Kabhi-kabhi na, feeling andar bahut clear hoti hai…

but words us feeling tak pahunch hi nahi paate. Phir Meet sir se video se related baat hui—what we’ll do, kaise karenge, etc.

Aur uske baad pata hi nahi chala kab main so gayi. Aaj surprisingly bahut jaldi so gayi. 😂

Anyways… Day overall achha tha.

Aur aaj main bas khud se ek hi baat kehna chahti hoon— “Good things take time.”

Har cheez immediately perfect nahi hoti. Kuch cheezon ko settle hone mein waqt lagta hai… aur shayad mujhe bhi thoda waqt dena chahiye.

Allhumdulillah..

Safarnama. 🌙✨

22.08.2026

Today I'm sharing highlights of my day..

Sabse pehle, office jaana pada. 😭

Uske baad maine Raj Shamani ka ek blog read kiya jisme woh parents aur unke child ka gap explain kar rahe the. Honestly, kaafi interesting laga. Kuch cheezein hum normally dekh toh lete hain, but unke peeche ka meaning samajhne ki koshish hi nahi karte.

Phir maine apna blog likha aur Dara ka aur Chand ka blog bhi padha. 🫶🏻

Honestly, mujhe dusron ke blogs padhna bhi utna hi pasand hai jitna apna likhna.

Phir around 2:00 baje, main Sher-e-Punjab chali gayi, div ponnasery bankar —LOL—😂

Main bhi full confidence mein pahunch gayi… pass toh ho gaya, but kaam nahi hua! 😭😂

Uske baad Burger King gayi, order kiya aur poora meal enjoy kiya. 🍔🍟

Khaane ke baad aaj maine LEARN OPTIONS aur OI data—basically market mein yeh kaise kaam karta hai—uske baare mein bhi thoda padha. Nayi cheezein seekhne ka apna hi alag satisfaction hai.

Aur phir… 7 baje ghar aakar maine apna masti & gup-shup session start kar diya. 😂

Bas phir kya tha—baatein chalti rahi, gossip hoti rahi, aur series ka 1 episode bhj nahi dekhi mai aur so gyii...

Allhumdulillah..aaj ka day sach mai mast tha.. peaceful feel hua 

-Safarnama 

21.08.2026

Hello Everyone.. ❤️

Soo aaj bhi main ek deadline mein uthii 😭😂 aur phir mast jaldi-jaldi ready hokar tiffin liya aur nikal padi office ki taraf. Raste mein full volume mein gaane sun rahi thi… aur phir achanak laga, “Bhai, subah-subah kya sun rahi hoon main?” 😂 Chalo, Naath Sharif sun leti hoon… thoda dil bhi shaant ho jaayega. Aur bas phir bhag-daud karte hue somehow time par office pahunch gayi. 😌

Office pahunchkar thodi der baithi, kyunki abhi koi aaya nahi tha. Waise ek cheez notice kar rahi hoon—yahan Virar wale log bhi hain, and bhai, kya hardworking log hain! 😂 I genuinely feel mujhe inse kuch seekhna chahiye.

Phir VI ma’am bhi aa gayi aur hum 7th floor par breakfast ke liye chale gaye. Mendu vada, proper daal wala sambhar, chutney aur ek cup chai… matlab breakfast mast tha! 😂❤️

Uske baad neeche aaye aur sabka kaam start ho gaya. Aur main? As usual… “mere liye koi kaam hai nahi hai ..just chilling..

Toh compliance module karna compulsory tha, so wahi start kar diya. Basically money laundering, POSH, cybersecurity jaise topics ke lectures dekhne hote hain, phir test dena hota hai aur pass hona hota hai. Toh mera kaafi time wahi nikal gaya.

Uske baad Pari se thoda software seekha. Honestly, mujhe accha laga usse seekhkar aur baatein karke. Usne apne hobbies ke baare mein bataya aur maine bhi apne baare mein thoda share kiya. But obviously sab kuch nahi bataya. 😂 (In my mind..) Chand baar-baar yaad dilati rehti hai—“Apne saare cards ek saath open mat karna.” So yes madam, noted. 😂

Phir hum sabne aaj table par baithe-baithe hi lunch kar liya because canteen jaane ka kisi ka mood nahi tha. Waise canteen bahot beautiful toh nahi hai, but wahan se nature dikhta hai—mountains, cloudy sky, thandi-thandi hawa… and somehow it gives me a home wali feeling. Phir dekhte-dekhte 3:30 baj gaye aur sab chill mode mein aa gaye. Koi idhar ghoom raha tha, koi udhar, koi baatein kar raha tha… aur main bhi thoda-thoda join karne lagi because kuch log mujhe bula lete hain.

Abhi bhi main completely comfortable nahi hoon, but slowly-slowly hum baat karte hain, ideas share karte hain aur ek doosre ko samajhne ki koshish kar rahe hain. Aur aaj meri baat hui Ansh se. Mann karta hai unhe Ansh bhai bolun because obviously woh mujhse elder hain, but corporate mein “bhai” bolna thoda ajeeb hi lagta hai. 😂 But honestly, aaj unse bahot acchi conversation hui..He appreciated me and especially the way I think. Unhone bola ki unhe bahot kam log milte hain jinke thoughts unse match karte hain, and somehow unhe woh quality mujhmein dikhti hai.

And honestly, mujhe bhi unse ek achhi energy lagti so mai tho unlimited baat karti hu..so phir kya .. Kuch logon ke saath na, day one se hi ek comfort feel ho jaata hai. Unse meri pehli hi conversation mein mujhe laga ki haan, this person is kind. Unka government jobs aur MNCs ka bhi achha experience raha hai and technical analysis ke baare mein bhi unhe kaafi knowledge hai. So somehow I feel, I can learn a lot from him. 📚Maybe abbu ke age ke hai.. ya phir chote bhii Phir kya… hum wapas canteen gaye chai peene. ☕️

Wahan ek aur person bhi the, aur unhone bhi mujhe work ko lekar guide kiya. Hum company ke client base ke baare mein discuss kar rahe the aur meri past company se compare kar rahe the. And honestly… main thodi ghabra gayi.

Because mujhe laga ki yahan sales ke chakkar mein aise kaam bhi ho sakte hain jahan client ka loss ho jaaye. Aur yaar… yeh cheez main kabhi nahi kar sakti.

Main khud ek investor hoon aur mujhe pata hai ki ek-ek paisa kamaane mein kitni mehnat lagti hai. Kisi aur ke hard-earned money ko sirf sales ke liye risk mein daalna… that's something I really don't want to be a part of.

Abhi toh main bas observe kar rahi hoon, samajh rahi hoon aur seekh rahi hoon. Phir kya… dekhte-dekhte 5:30 ho gaya. Backpack uthao guys… LET'S GO HOME! 🎒 But ek aur shock mila—Saturday ko bhi office hai! I was literally like… “Yeh kya baat hui bhai?” 😭 Mujhe yeh Saturday wali dishonesty bilkul pasand nahi aayi. Mera dimaag kharab ho gaya.

But phir khud ko samjhaya— “Chal Khush, at least subah uthkar naha legi, time par sab cheezein ho jayengi… aur 1 baje hi toh office khatam ho jayega.” So kal 10 se 1 baje tak office hai. Ghar aakar phir wahi thoughts start ho gaye… Kya main yeh job kar paungi? Because mujhe meri personality pata hai. Agar mujhe kuch wrong laga, toh main zyada din chup reh nahi paungi.

But then another thought comes— “Agar nahi hua toh? What's next?” Aur phir doosri side— “Agar maine kar liya toh?” Basically dono sides positive-negative chal rahe hain dimaag mein.  But ek cheez achhi hui… Abbu ne poocha, “Kaisa ja raha hai job?”

And bhaiii… pata nahi kyun, but that felt nice.

Abbu aur mere thoughts kaafi different hain. Support karne ka unka tareeka bhi alag hai. But somewhere, I feel he is trying to understand what I'm going through.

And that's enough for me.  Main try karungi. Pass ya fail, result jo bhi ho… I will give my best. Phir ghar par aaj mast chicken koftay ka salan, rice, roti aur salad bana tha. 🍗❤️

Aur maine ek plate bhar ke khaayi! Alhamdulillah. Maza aa gaya. 

Waise ek baat notice ki maine… Main kitna office-office soch rahi hoon! Bhai, Eid Milad bhi toh aane wala hai.  The birth of our beloved Prophet Muhammad ﷺ. Inshallah iss paak mahine mein sab accha hoga. Ameen. 🤲🏻

Galiyon mein lights lag gayi hain, har ghar mein balloons hain… overall ek alag hi positivity feel ho rahi hai..But somehow main itni saari doosri cheezon mein busy ho gayi thi ki properly feel hi nahi kar pa rahi thi. Blog likhte waqt ab sab feel ho raha hai. And that's the beauty of writing..u know it ..ik ik

And now I'm thinking… What's next? Padhai bhi karni hai. Enjoy bhi karna hai. Friends se milna bhi hai. Work bhi karna hai. Khud ko improve bhi karna hai.like bahot improve karna hai.. Sab kuch karna hai. 

Abhi 4lyferz bhi get-together plan karne ki koshish kar rahe hain. ❤️ Aur main soch rahi hoon… Kya mujhe phir se apne 23rd birthday celebration ke baare mein sochna chahiye?  Ya phir ignore karke important cheezon par focus karna chahiye?

I think abhi mujhe apne charts aur options strong karne hain. Practice karni hai. Roz thoda jaldi uthna hai. Work karna hai. Aur sabse important—phones se unnecessary distraction nahi. Honestly, I'm not even that distracted… bas mere paas abhi laptop nahi hai jisse main properly kaam kar sakun. But jab tak laptop nahi hai, phone se jitna possible hai utna karungi. Aur somehow mujhe paise arrange karne hain because mujhe CFA mein admission lena hai. Target hai ₹50,000 arrange karna.

Abhi mere paas nahi hai… but somehow karna hai. Admission lena hai. Aur phir hard study start karni hai.  Apne goal par focus karke.

Office mein mujhe lagta hai log smart hain… but funny thing is, they are smart in the areas where I am dumb. And maybe that's not a bad thing. Because agar main unse seekh sakti hoon, toh why not? Har jagah koi na koi humse better hota hai.

Bas seekhna aana chahiye. So yes… I'll try. Main nahi jaanti yeh job kitne time tak chalegi. Main nahi jaanti main is environment ke saath adjust kar paungi ya nahi. Main nahi jaanti next kya hoga. But abhi ke liye—

Aur abhi ke liye blog likh liya hai, toh obviously sabse pehle Chand ko text karungi. 😂 Usse baatein karungi, woh apne kaam mein busy hogi toh side mein ek series laga lungi…

And then finally—Sleep. good good night guys..

Allah Hafiz. ❤️🤲🏻

Greatful for everything..

Safarnama..

20.08.2026

Hello Everyone... ❤️

Finally aaj woh din aa hi gaya... jiska mujhe March se wait tha. 🥹

Subah ke 5:30 a.m. se main jaag rahi thi, but 8 baje tak khud ko yahi bolkar sula rahi thi ki “thoda aur so leti hoon...” 😂 Phir pata nahi kaise finally himmat karke uth hi gayi.

Fatafat ready hui, hair wash kiya aur Bismillah karke ghar se nikal padi... And surprisingly, almost on time office pahunch gayi. 😂

Sach bolu toh aaj mere andar bahut mixed feelings thi — khushi bhi thi aur thodi nervousness bhi.

Kyunki jab insaan apni life mein kuch change karta hai na, toh sirf jagah nahi badalti... insaan khud bhi thoda badal jaata hai.

Mujhe lagta hai life ne mujhse kuch cheezein le li hain... kuch jagah mujhe lagta hai ki main lack kar rahi hoon. But ek cheez mujhe pata hai — Main khud par trust karti hoon.

I will build it again. ❤️

Maine office aate hi ek cup coffee order ki, kyunki last night vomiting ki wajah se main kuch kha nahi paayi thi. Aur jab garam-garam coffee mili na... uff!

Alhamdulillah, maza aa gaya. ☕️😂

Aaj main office gayi aur wahan bahut saare naye faces, naye people mile. Kuch log weird lage, kuch surprisingly positive bhi the... but somehow mujhe woh energy feel nahi hui jo pehle hoti thi.

Pata nahi kyun, ab mujhe logon se thoda ghabrahat si lagti hai. Shayad iska reason bhi pata hai... When trust breaks, even a person breaks too.

Hum waapas normal ho jaate hain, baat karte hain, smile karte hain... but jo pehle wala 10/10 trust hota hai na, woh instantly waapas nahi aata.

Phir mera first day of office tha aur honestly, koi kaam ka pressure nahi tha. So I was just chilling. 😂 Lunch ke liye ghar gayi aur Dad ke saath khana khaya.

Chicken wala salan aur soft-soft rice...

Simple sa khana tha, but pata nahi kyun, us waqt woh bahut tasty laga.

Phir thodi der baad main wapas office ke liye nikal padi. Raaste mein apne friends ko mini shoot  message bhi kar diya.

Life mein kitna bhi kuch chal raha ho... friends share karne ke baad I feel motivated..

Aaj ka best part tab tha jab maine apni feelings share ki... Aur pata hai? Mera mood literally change ho gaya.

Kabhi-kabhi bas dil ki baat kisi ke saath share kar dene se hi mann halka ho jaata hai.

Office jaana bhi aaj thoda better feel ho raha tha. Aisa lag raha tha jaise life mein ek new step-up ho raha hai. Bas dil se ek hi dua nikli —“Allah, sab aasaan kare... Ameen.” 🤲🏻

Shaam ko ghar aayi aur mere group mein chhoti-chhoti baatein start ho gayi. Main apni feelings share kar rahi thi aur phir Aaj Neet se baat hui. Yaad hai na, Neeta?

Wahi jo bachlor party mein gayi thi... 😂 Ab uski shaadi hone wali hai. Uski shaadi mein kuch problems hain, but still I am genuinely happy for her. She is happily moving forward with her life and her husband. Jab main usse last time mili thi, usne mujhe ek advice di thi.

“Whenever you get married, please paise wale se hi shaadi karna.” 😂

Uski baat sunke mujhe laga... life kitni ajeeb hai na? Har relationship ki apni struggles hoti hain. Har kisi ki life perfect nahi hoti. But despite everything, she is still trying to build her life. Aur honestly, I just pray ki Allah usse aur uske husband ko sukoon aur ek happy life de. ❤️

Then abbu ke saath kuch time spend kiya. Phir hum dono walk par gaye... aur honestly, mujhe bahut achha laga. Kabhi-kabhi na, life mein bade-bade plans ki zarurat nahi hoti.

Bas Dad ke saath ek simple si walk bhi enough hoti hai. ❤️

At this point, mujhe pata hai mere Abbu kya feel kar rahe hain. Woh har cheez openly nahi bolte, but main unhe samajhti hoon. Thoda-thoda unhe motivate karti hoon aur bas ek hi cheez kehti hoon — Trust the process of Almighty Allah. Jo hoga, achha hoga.

Bas dua karo, sab sahi ho jaayega. Alhamdulillah. 🤲🏻

Guys, yahan share karne ka reason bhi yahi hai... Aap log sirf mere readers nahi ho Somewhere, you have become a part of my inner soul too. 

Life mein hum sabke paas kabhi na kabhi mushkilein hoti hain. Kabhi doubt, kabhi stress, kabhi overthinking... But main hamesha ek cheez believe karti hoon  Positive socho.

Achha sochne se har problem solve nahi hoti, but achha sochne se dil ko umeed zaroor milti hai. Aur kabhi-kabhi wahi umeed humein aage le jaati hai. Believe me. ❤️

Aaj hum walk par gaye, bahut saari baatein ki... Aur phir last mein Apple Liye mein fruit wale uncle se ₹10 ka discount bhi le liya. 😂

Abbu ko dates chahiye the. Mostly Ammi hi shopping karti hain, toh Father-Daughter duo ko rates ka kya hi idea! 😂

Hum dono ko laga 250 grams ka box ₹120 ka hoga... But bhai, woh nikla ₹150 ka! So obviously, hum dono ne Ammi ko blame kar diya. 😂

Typical us. 😂 Aur guess what? Aaj mujhe ek beautiful sa chand dikha. Bohot beautiful...

MashaAllah. 🌙✨Chand ki woh shine aur nature ki beauty dekhkar mujhe genuinely bahut happiness milti hai. Phir hum dono ghar aa gaye. Maine Apple taste kiya... Aur taste tha — less than average. 😂

Phir Abbu ne khana khaya — salad, rice aur tandoori roti. Namaz ka time tha, but heavy food ki wajah se thoda lazy feel ho raha tha. Aur bhai, mera dimaag toh already kharab ho chuka tha. 😂

Maybe isi liye mujhe index mein positive aur negative change calculate karna nahi aa raha tha. 😂

But thoda-thoda samajh aa gaya... Phir maine apna doubt clear karne ke liye Sir se poocha ki Energy aur Power Index mein actual difference kya hota hai. Maine unse options bhi sikhane ko bola. Aur Sir ne kabhi mana nahi kiya... So finally, I will learn that too.  Next, main bahut koshish kar rahi thi sone ki...

But neend hi nahi aa rahi thi. Phone bhi use nahi kar rahi thi, phir bhi mera brain sleep ke liye ready hi nahi tha. Kabhi-kabhi na, body tired hoti hai but dimaag ke andar thoughts ka traffic chalu hota hai. 😂

Finally... raat ke 3 baje neend aa hi gayi.

Alhamdulillah. ❤️ And that's how another little chapter of my life came to an end... Maybe kuch cheezein abhi samajh nahi aa rahi hain.

Maybe kuch cheezein time ke saath samajh aayengi. But filhaal...

I trust myself. I trust the process. And most importantly, I trust Allah. 🤍

— Safarnama ✨

19.08.2026

I'm writing this on 20.08, and abhi raat ke 12:54 AM ho gaye hain. Head mein abhi bhi pain hai, but phir bhi I'm sitting here and writing my blog.

Because I genuinely love to write...Aur poore saal mein maine kuch cheezein consistently ki hain, and one of them is this blog. No matter what was happening around me, somehow I always came back here—to write, to share, and sometimes bas apne thoughts ko words dene.

So lets share my day, aaj main uthi thodi aaram se. Fresh hui, breakfast kiya, and uske baad jab finally phone uthayi aur mails check kiye... I got the mail thay I urgently needed from my last office! 😭😂

YEEESSS! Alhamdulillah!

Ek chhoti si cheez thi, but us moment pe it felt like a huge relief.

Next, main Ribel Kid aka Apoorva ka podcast dekhne baith gayi. I know she's an irritating personality... and honestly, main bhi kuch kam nahi hoon. 😂 So somehow, I understand her. But bhai, she is a real mother of khands! 😂

Podcast dekhte-dekhte mujhe ek ajeeb si realization hui. Woh jo bhi baatein kar rahi thi, usmein se kuch cheezein mujhe bahot relatable lagi.

I know she is at a very different stage in life, probably living the kind of 20s that most girls dream about—earning money, partying, travelling, having fun, experiencing life... and maybe meri life waisi nahi hai.

But does that mean the feelings can't be the same?

The confusion can be the same.

The overthinking can be the same.

The feeling of not knowing what you actually want can be the same.

Mujhe laga—

“Arre, isko bhi confusion hota hai? Toh bhai,akele main pagal nahi hoon!” felt good..

And then I started thinking about myself.

Kabhi hum kisi cheez ka dream dekhte hain. We wait for it, imagine it, think about it again and again... and then finally woh day aa jaata hai.

But strangely... Kuch feel hi nahi hota. Bas ek second ke liye lagta hai, “Okay... ho gaya.”

And then my brain immediately comes up with another dream. Another wish. Another thing to chase.

Maybe that's just how humans are.

Jab hamara brain woh exact cheez dekh leta hai jiske baare mein woh itne time se soch raha tha, toh somehow usse woh reality normal lagne lagti hai. The excitement settles down. The brain becomes a little calm...

and then it starts looking for the next thing.

And honestly, today I realised— I am not crazy. 😂

Everyone is confused. Everyone is figuring themselves out. Everyone wants to learn something new at every stage of life.

Bas difference itna hai ki hum sab apni confusion alag tareeke se handle karte hain.

But meanwhile, mera brain ne aaj already itni ajeeb-ajeeb cheezein soch li thi ki mujhe literally bahot chakkar aa rahe the. Shaam tak meri halat bhi kharab ho gayi thi. Of course, it could have been something else too, but mentally I was definitely not okay.

Because somewhere in the background, there was this anxiety: “Kal se office join karna hai.” My holidays were officially ending.

And apparently, meri body ne bhi preparation mode on kar diya. 😂 Maine apni pant Abbu se fit karwayi, then I went to the market.

Wahan mujhe apne liye ek new sandal mil gayi—green colour ki. 🥹💚

Acchi lagi toh le li.

And then Mummy ne mujhe halwa-paratha dilaya.

Aur honestly, jab main woh garma-garam paratha chew kar rahi thi na, mere brain ko ek second ke liye laga—

“Haan bhai, life itni bhi buri nahi hai.” 😂

But suddenly, I started feeling irritated again.

Hazaar cheezein ek saath dimaag mein chal rahi thi. Thoughts idhar, thoughts udhar... and then meri Mummy se argument ho gaya.

Uske baad toh bhai sahab... Itna pain hone laga. Bahot zyada.

I started vomiting and everything just went downhill. Meri chutti ki last evening jo peacefully end honi chahiye thi, woh ekdum kharab ho gayi.

Finally, dua karke so gayi... Bas dil mein ek hi baat thi— “Ya Allah, kal tak theek kar dena.” 🤲🏻

And then comes the funniest part of this whole story. Mere sincere Abbu ne mujhe apni BP ki tablet khila di. 😭😂 Aur mujhe us waqt pata bhi nahi tha ki ye painkiller nahi hai!

Mujhe toh next day pata chala. I mean... ABBU??? 😭😂

Unhone apparently decide kar liya tha ki mera BP high hai. Doctor sahab ne diagnosis bhi kar diya, bas machine missing thi. 😂 But jokes apart... This is how my Abbu is.

He saw me in pain and probably thought, “Meri beti ka BP high hoga.”

And without overthinking, he just tried to make me feel better in the only way he knew. Wahhh, mere sincere Abbu. ❤️😂

Sometimes parents' love is honestly the funniest, most imperfect and sweetest thing in the world. And after all the overthinking, anxiety, headache, vomiting, arguments and BP ki mysterious tablet...

All I can say is—

Thanks, Allah. I'm fine. I'm alive. And tomorrow is another day. 🤍 Kal se ek nayi routine, naya office, naya phase...

Aur main? Same old confused, overthinking, dramatic, but still hopeful Khush.

 Allhumdulillah..

— Safarnama ✨

18.08.2026 — True Connections Never Really Leave 🤍

18.08.2026

Guyss... Mai jab se leave par hu na, har roz late uth rahi hu! 😂 Like raat ke 3 baje sona and subah ke 11–12 baje uthna...

Aur meri ek habit hai—mai fresh hote hi turant phone haath mein leti hu. Sabse pehle WhatsApp check karti hu and then Instagram, jahan saare unseen messages dekhti hu aur sabko reply karti hu.

But ab yeh subah nahi, dopahar hoti hai! 😂😂

Jahan log mera intezaar karte-karte mujhe call bhi karne lagte hain... Aur woh calls bhi aise time par jab mera phone hamesha vibration par hota hai ya phir mute! 😭 Maine logon ko unlimited pareshaan karke rakha hai.

Mere incoming calls bhi band hain and ab log mujhe WhatsApp par call karna start kar chuke hain.

Actually, mai logon se pareshaan hu, that's trueee... But log mujhse zyada pareshaan hain! 😂😂

Anyways..., aaj finally mera appointment letter aa gaya! Alhamdulillah, Allahumma Barik. 🤍

And guess what? It literally meets all my expectations.

Maine bas days of working read kiye hain and 1st salary wali information tak toh mai abhi bhi unread hi hu. 😂 But overall...I’m happy. 🥹❤️

Subah se lekar shaam ke 4:30 tak maine paperwork hi kiya and yaar, abhi bhi pending hai!

Itna paperwork kaise ho sakta hai bhai? 😭

Mujhe ek letter bhi chahiye tha but mera login nahi ho raha tha. So I decided ki chalo, office hi visit kar leti hu jahan mera main login tha.

Waise letter toh mujhe mila nahi... But sabse mil liya. ❤️ And honestly, that was much better.

As soon as I entered the office, maine apni stories suna-suna kar sabko hasana start kar diya. And you know what?

Unke faces par smile dekhkar mujhe khud smile aa rahi thi. Koi mere faltu jokes par hass raha tha... And yaar, kisi ko mere jokes par hasta dekhna hi meri life hai! 😂❤️

Koi mujhe gale se laga raha tha... Koi haath mila raha tha... Koi bol raha tha, “You are looking thin!” Aur koi bol raha tha, “Your face is shining!” 😂😭

Bas ek ghanta tha... But woh ek ghanta bahot fast chala gaya. Pinky maam ne mujhe chips diye. 🥹 Aur ek new joiner hai—she is beautiful yaar!—usne mujhe ek badi wali Dairy Milk di. 🍫😂

Felt amazing. Sab bol rahe the— “Office without you is so quiet.” And honestly, mere mann mein bas ek hi thought tha... “I will always be with you.”

Because true connections kabhi completely break nahi hote. Haan, log physically door ho jaate hain... Life change ho jaati hai... Daily milna band ho jaata hai...

But some people stay inside you. Aur shayad isi ko true connection kehte hain. 🤍 Ghar aakar maine thoda break liya because mai kaafi thak gayi thi.

Even thoda chakkar jaisa feel ho raha tha. Maine chai pi ☕ and thoda rest kiya. Uske baad turant market update kiya, indices observe kiye and Investopedia se bhi thoda padha. Phir passport ka kaam start kiya—documents submit karne the and kaafi saara kaam tha.

Basically... Aaj bhi kaam khatam hone ka naam nahi le raha tha. 😂 But honestly, aaj ka day kaafi pyaara tha.

Almost ek week ke baad mujhe genuinely happy feel hua. 🥹❤️ And the funniest part? Jab maine time dekha toh 9 baj chuke the! Pata hi nahi chala poora din kaise nikal gaya.

Bas ek cheez miss ho gayi... My walk. 😭

Doctor ne mujhe roz walk karne ko boli hai and eyes par soft, warm cloth rakhne ko bhi bola hai. But aaj honestly time hi nahi mila.

Hopefully kal se thoda properly manage karungi. Anyways...

Aaj ka din mujhe ek baar phir remind karke gaya ki life mein sab kuch change ho sakta hai, but genuine connections don't disappear that easily. You may leave a place... But sometimes, a little part of you still belongs there. And maybe that's why going back today felt so good. 🤍

Alhamdulillah for this beautiful day.

-Safarnama ✨

17.08.2026 bday ke baad wali vibe.. khushnuma hai..

17.08.2026 — Baarish, Movie, Aur Chand 🌙

Hello.. 🤍

Aaj mujhe accha lag raha hai... finally meri birthday anxiety khatam ho gayi hai! 😭😂

Subah uthte hi mai last year ke baare mein soch rahi thi. Last birthday was honestly one of the best days. Hum restaurant gaye the and hum 4lyferz ne mera birthday celebrate kiya tha. Yaar, kya mast feeling thi! 🥹❤️

Aur sabse funny coincidence—baarish tab bhi thi aur aaj bhi hai. 🌧️

Bas aaj ka din thoda aalsi wala tha. Mujhe kuch karne ka mann hi nahi ho raha tha, toh maine mostly movie dekh kar hi half day nikaal diya.

Maine Varun Dhawan ki movie dekhi — “Hai Jawani Toh Ishq Hona Hai.”

Varun Dhawan ki movies mein na ek alag hi chulbuli-masti wali vibe hoti hai, aur is movie mein bhi full wahi tha. 😂

Story mein Jass aur Baani married hain, but dono divorce lene ki soch rahe hote hain because Jass wants a child, while Baani ek company ki CEO hai aur apne career par focus karna chahti hai.

Court dono ko decision final karne ke liye thoda time deta hai.

Baani Jass ko bolti hai ki move on kar lo... Aur guess what? Jass actually move on kar bhi gaya! 😂 Uski ek new girlfriend bhi ban gayi—mast si!

Phir ek din Baani suddenly London aa jaati hai aur Jass ko batati hai ki she is expecting a child. Aur ussi din uski new girlfriend bhi announce kar deti hai ki she is expecting a child too.

Wahhhhh! 😭😂

Pehle bechare ko ek baccha chahiye tha... Ab ek saath do bacche mil rahe hain! 😂

Story mein full dono ke saath bach-bach ke play hua aur eventually sach bahar aa gaya. End mein Baani ko beti hoti hai aur uski girlfriend ko beta.

Aur jab dono women ko Jass ki reality pata chalti hai, toh dono Jass ko chhod deti hain. 😂 Dono London mein rehne lagti hain aur Jass wapas India aa jaata hai...

Aur bhai sahab... Ek aur new girlfriend bana leta hai. 😭😂

Pehle do tak toh theek tha... situations thi, galtiyan thi, samajh sakte hain.But third time I was like— HIEEEEEEEEEEEEE! 😭🤣

Situation se learn bhi karna chahiye tha na bhai!

Socho writer ji... ending thodi acchi de dete. Humari generation movies se galat inspiration le legi! 😂

Anyways, no hate. 😂❤️ Movie dekhte waqt maine bahot hassi and honestly, mujhe movie entertaining lagi.

Aur ek cheez samajh aayi—life mein kabhi-kabhi cheezein gol-gol ghoom kar wahi aa jaati hain jahan se humne start kiya tha. Bas mera half day isi movie mein nikal gaya. 😂

3:30 ke baad maine thoda market overview kiya and then shaam ko thoda rest liya. Sir mein ek jagah pain ho raha tha, toh maine oiling ki aur bas chill kiya.

Maybe mera screen time bhi zyada ho raha hai... 👀📱 Uske baad maine apne pending blogs likhe aur post kiye. Aur dekhte hi dekhte dinner ka time ho gaya.

Aaj khane mein bhaiya wali curry bani thi. Bahot spicy thi but honestly, bahot mazedaar bhi thi! 🌶️😂 Saath mein rice aur roti.

Aur mai phone dekhte hue khana kha rahi thi. Surprisingly, maine ek full roti kha li... and I swear, woh bhi sirf phone ki wajah se. 😂

Pata hi nahi chala ki roti kab khatam ho gayi! But end mein Abbu se daant bhi pad gayi—

“Itni badi ho gayi ho aur abhi bhi bacchon ki tarah phone dekh kar khana kha rahi ho!”

😂😭 But maine zyada argue nahi kiya because fault meri hi thi.

Khana khate hi maine laptop open kiya aur TP karte-karte Dara aur Chand ke saare blogs padhne lagi. Aur bas...

Pata hi nahi chala kitna time nikal gaya. Baaton-baaton mein raat ho gayi. Btw, aaj maine bahot dino baad Chand dekhi. 🌙

Achanak meri nazar aasman ki taraf gayi aur wahan Chand tha... Yaar... Bahot pretty tha. Ek alag hi shine hoti hai na Chand mein, jo aankhon mein reh jaati hai. Bas wahi feeling thi. ✨ I genuinely love nature yaar. Allah, You are truly the best Creator. 🤍

Socho... Baarish ka mausam ho, aasman mein Chand dikh raha ho aur thandi si hawa ho... How blessed is that? 🌧️🌙

After a long time, uss moment ne mera dil genuinely alive feel karaya aur aankhon mein woh little sparkle wapas le aaya.

Aur phir raat ko mai apni bak-bak karte-karte late night so gayi. 😂

Yeh raat ka apna hi maza hai... Alhamdulillah for this unstressful day. 🤍

Safarnama ✨

~16.08.2026~

Hello Everyone…

Aaj mera birthday hai — HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Khush! 🥹🎂

Today I officially turned 23. Bas ek bada sa number ho gaya yaar… 😂

Aur pata nahi kyun, bina kisi wajah ke mujhe bahot anxiety ho rahi thi. Sach mein, subah se mind ajeeb sa tha.

Subah around 8:30 baje meri aankh khuli aur mujhe laga shayad fever aa raha hai. Fajr ke liye nahi uth paayi, uska regret bhi ho raha tha… aur phir bina zyada kuch soche wapas so gayi.

Next time meri aankh 11 baje khuli. Uthi, fresh hui, breakfast kiya aur thodi der baad kapde nikale aur naha liya, because mujhe Johar ki namaz ada karni thi. I knew ki namaz mujhe sukoon degi.

Maine namaz padhi, Quran padha, dua ki… aur phir jaise hi phone open kiya, mujhe 4lyferz ki post dikhi. And honestly… mera mood hi change ho gaya. 🥹❤️

Thank you, Sabeb, for writing that “proud” word for me. It genuinely mattered to me. ❤️

Thanks Dara, ladai hone ke baad bhi mujhe wish karne ke liye… aur even paise gift karne ke liye. 😂

You know, I love only money in my life. 💸😂

Thanks darling, for putting in so much effort. Honestly, mujhe woh story bahot pyari lagi. Ab mai baar-baar apne archive mein jaakar usse dekhungi. 🥹❤️

Thanks Chand…

Thank you for posting a story every day, yaar. Mere har kharab din, har stressful day ke beech jab bhi mai woh story dekhti thi, mujhe thoda halka feel hota tha.

Aur aaj ki woh pyari si story dekh kar toh meri aankhon mein literally tears aa gaye the. ❤️

And ek baat aur share karu…

Iss saal maine Instagram par almost sabse stories hide kar di thi because mujhe sabke wishes nahi chahiye the. Mujhe bina wajah ka time bhi nahi dena tha aur har kisi ko “thank you” bolna bhi nahi tha.

I wanted my people to wish me. Mujhe unki wishes chahiye thi. Unki dua chahiye thi. And as expected… mere sone se uthne se pehle hi mujhe mere logon ki wishes mil gayi thi. 🥹

Mujhe logon se door rehna ya completely alone rehna pasand nahi hai. Shayad isi wajah se mai bahot overthink karti hu. I just want to be surrounded by good people. And Allah ne meri expectations se bhi zyada ache log meri life mein diye hain. Alhamdulillah. 🤲🏻

So maybe next year mujhe sabko hide karne ki zarurat hi nahi padegi. 😂❤️

Honestly, aaj mera bahar jaane ka bilkul mann nahi tha. But mujhe pata tha ki bahar jaana zaroori hai… maybe just so that I could feel a little better.

4lyfers mein Sabeb, Shrey aur Chand ne bhi mujhe motivate kiya to go out. So… mai nikal gayi. Aur mai uss jagah gayi jahan mai hamesha khud ko strong karne jaati hu.

And this was actually the first time I went out this dressed up — full makeup, properly ready and everything. I can literally consider it my mini solo trip. 😂❤️

Bahot saare emotions the uss waqt. Ek cheez realize hui… Simple life is actually beautiful. Ek simple birthday bhi sukoon de sakta hai.

Life mein humare saath jo bhi hota hai, maybe it's a part of Allah's plan. Humein har cheez ko immediately understand karna zaroori nahi hai. Kabhi-kabhi bas accept karna hota hai… aur move on karna hota hai. Dua karo. Trust the process. Trust Allah. I trust my Creator.

Agar Allah mujhe difficult things de raha hai, toh bhi mai Alhamdulillah kahungi. Mai aur mehnat karungi. Khud ko improve karungi.

Aur sabse important — khud ko ek accha insaan banane ki koshish karungi. Because at the end of the day, mere liye success sirf kuch achieve karna nahi hai. Acha insaan banna bhi success hai.

22 ki age mein maine bahot kuch dekha hai. Bahot situations face ki hain. Kabhi life easy nahi thi, aur jab bhi life thodi hard hui, somehow mere paas mere strong connections rahe.

4lyfers. Dara. My family. You guys were there for me.I know tumse hi meri ladai hai, tumse hi meri mohabbat hai. 😂❤️But from the bottom of my heart… mere jeene ka ek bahot bada jariya tum sab ho. I love you all.

And I genuinely want to do everything I can for you all. ❤️ Today, I just want to thank Allah for blessing me with this life, these people and these moments.

And I make a dua for my next year… Ya Allah, mujhe behtar insaan bana, mere dil ko sukoon de, mujhe mere goals tak pahunchne ki himmat de, mere apno ko hamesha khush rakh, aur mujhe har mushkil situation mein sabr aur strength de. Ameen. 🤲🏻

Birthday ke din mai akele walk par bhi gayi. Bahot ajeeb si feeling thi. Dimaag mein literally halchal chal rahi thi aur mai bas khud ko stop karne ki koshish kar rahi thi. Thandi hawa thi… halka sa rain drizzle ho raha tha…

Aur mai chup-chaap walk kar rahi thi. Which is funny because yeh meri personality hai hi nahi. 😂 Mujhe shor karna pasand hai. Mujhe shor mein rehna pasand hai.

Masti karna, bakchodi karna, dance karna, bina reason ke hasna — yeh sab mai hu. But kabhi-kabhi jab meri woh personality bahar nahi aa paati, toh mujhe lagta hai ki mere paas sab kuch hote hue bhi kuch missing hai.

Still, that quiet walk somehow made me feel better.Kuch new emotions ho rahe hai life mai 

Ghar aayi toh almost biryani ready thi. 😂 Phir Fatiya bhi hua aur hum sabne dua ki. Aur phir hum 6 log ek hi plate mein masti karte hue biryani kha rahe the. Ek round nahi… 2 rounds. 😂😂

Thodi der baad mere cousins bhi aaye. Mere teen cousins — meri Khala ke bete. Humari baat-cheet bhi actually kuch months pehle hi properly start hui hai, so ab aana-jaana, khaana-peena sab start ho gaya hai.

Woh log bhi aaye… Aur phir unke saath bhi 3 rounds biryani ho gayi. 😂 Dara ne jo paise gift kiye the, unse maine ice cream mangwayi.

And we just sat there and ate. Simple. Nothing fancy.but somehow… perfect.

Chand se VC par bhi baat ki. 😂❤️ Mera gala already faad-faad kar baat ki hu network bhi nahi aa raha tha, toh mai balcony mein jaakar baar-baar apna sir bahar nikal kar baat kar rahi thi. Typical me. 😂

And one more thing I realized about myself today… I am actually a cringe personality. 😂

I think sabki personality different people ke saamne thodi different hoti hai.

But jo personality meri mere friends ke saath, mere apne logon ke saath hoti hai… Woh real me hu. Masti karna. Dance karna. Randomly chalna. Shor machana. Hasna. Pareshan karna. That's me.

Aur jab mai apne aap ko woh sab karte hue nahi dekh paati, toh mujhe lagta hai ki mere paas sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai.

Raat ko maine finally apne birthday ka post finish kiya. I know, mere 4lyfers aaj physically mere saath nahi the. And honestly, dil se meri wish thi ki mai apna birthday unke saath celebrate karu. Mere paas aur bhi circles hain. I could have gone out with other people.

But pata nahi kyun… Mujhe unke saath hi celebrate karna tha. Still, they never made me feel like I was missing them. I missed them, yes. But no complaints. ❤️

And honestly, family ke saath ghar par rehkar bhi mujhe bahot accha laga. Mere dono parents aur mere siblings ne mere liye efforts kiye. And I genuinely didn't expect ki mera day itna pyara end hoga. Aur haan… ki bhi aayi thi mujhe milne. 🥹❤️Thank you yaar, for meeting me. I love you, always. ❤️

Abhi bhi bahot kuch hai likhne ko… But bas. Kar deti hu ab. 😂 

So…

Alhamdulillah for this day.

Alhamdulillah for 23.

Alhamdulillah for everything. 🤲🏻❤️

Another year of learning, growing, falling, getting back up, working harder, loving harder and becoming a better version of myself.

Happy 23rd to me. 🎂✨

ALLHUMDULILLAH 

— Safarnama ❤️

The Freedom I Wish to See

15.08.2026

Hello..

Aaj ka din honestly super stressful tha. I don't know why, but my mind was just not ready to calm down. Baar-baar khud ko bol rahi thi, “Bas, stop thinking… relax kar,” but kuch bhi kaam nahi kar raha tha.

Actually, mai ek movie dekh rahi thi — Mai Vaapas Aaunga. Usme Partition ke time ka ek scene tha, jahan dikhaya gaya tha ki logon ne kitna kuch khoya tha. Partition ki reality hi itni painful thi… but the way women suffered during that time completely broke something inside me.

Unke saath jo hua, woh dekhna mere liye bahot difficult tha. Kuch women itna unbearable pain lekar jee rahi thi ki unhone apni zindagi tak khatam kar li. Meri soul literally tadap gayi woh scene dekh kar. Maine movie ka woh part skip kar diya, but unfortunately ek chhota sa clip meri nazar se guzra… aur woh mere mind mein stuck ho gaya.

Aaj Independence Day tha.

Aur honestly, mai un sab logon ko salute karti hu jo uss waqt iss struggle ka hissa the — chahe woh kisi bhi community, religion ya country se belong karte ho. Woh ek aisa waqt tha jo kisi bhi insaan ko dobara nahi dekhna chahiye.

I salute every freedom fighter who raised their voice, who went to jail, who sacrificed their lives and their families, and who fought so that hum aaj azaadi ki saans le sakein. 🇮🇳

But somewhere, I feel… yeh azaadi aaj bhi adhuri hai. Mere liye true freedom sirf ek country ka independent hona nahi hai.

True freedom woh hogi jis din duniya ka har insaan — chahe woh man ho ya woman — bina darr ke chale, freely breathe kare, apni zindagi apne tareeke se jee sake.

Jis din women ko har jagah safe feel hoga.

Jis din har religion ek dusre ki respect karega.

Jis din hum differences ko lekar ladne ke bajaye ek dusre ko gale lagayenge.

Jis din political leaders sirf politics nahi, balki har aam insaan ke liye genuinely kaam karenge.

I know, India jaisi huge and diverse country ko sambhalna is not easy. There are millions of people, millions of opinions, different religions, cultures and problems.

But difficult doesn't mean impossible.

Mai marne se pehle ek aisi country… aur ek aisi duniya dekhna chahti hu jahan insaan, insaan se mohabbat kare. Jahan competition se zyada cooperation ho.

Jahan ek dusre ko neeche kheenchne ke bajaye, hum ek dusre ka sahara banein. Jahan kisi ki identity uske against use na ho. Jahan kisi woman ko apni safety ke liye apni freedom sacrifice na karni pade. Aur jahan kisi bhi maa ko apne bachche ko nafrat nahi, insaniyat sikhani pade.

I don't know agar mai apni lifetime mein aisi duniya dekh paungi ya nahi… But I will always pray for it. Allah, mujhe woh din dekhna naseeb kare. Ameen. 🤲🏻

Until then, I will keep believing in humanity, keep loving my country, and keep hoping that someday we will understand that freedom is not complete until everyone is free.

Jai Hind. 🇮🇳 And yes… I love my Tiranga.

I will always stand for my country and, more importantly, for the people of my country.

Happy 80th Independence Day. 🇮🇳✨

14.08.2026

Hello Guys…

Aaj mujhe ek cheez share karni hai jo main kuch dino se bahut soch rahi hoon.

The thing is… “Bag Pack, To Naya Safar.”

But ab mujhe realise ho raha hai ki job chhodna aur second job mein jaana is not as simple as just switching jobs and starting work again. The main picture is… mera almost half year isi circle mein nikal gaya.

Pehle interviews dena, phir decide karna ki resign karna hai ya nahi. Uske baad sabse important—resign karne ka ek proper reason sochna. 😂 Phir almost ek month tak bahut sochne ke baad maine finally resign diya. Aur uske baad 3 months ka notice period serve karna… honestly, ye bhi koi simple task nahi hai.

Main apne words se kitna bhi chilla loon, kitna bhi explain kar loon ki main kya feel kar rahi hoon, but the truth is—people won't actually know what I've been feeling for the last few months. Aur shayad isi wajah se mujhe genuinely lagta hai ki main is poori duniya mein bahut akeli hoon.

I'm trying to calm myself down. I really am. But nahi ho raha.

aaj mujhe pata chala ki meri salary credit hone mein 45 days lagenge. bhaiiiii… subah-subah mera dimaag hi hil gaya. 😭 Mujhe honestly bahut gussa aaya. I was like—ye pehle batana chahiye tha na, Vi Ma'am!

Mere already SIPs ka tension hai, mere iss month ke personal targets hain, aur somehow mujhe pata hai ki woh targets abhi achieve nahi honge. I know ki baad mein main manage kar lungi. But mujhe abhi karna tha. In  this month . Agar mujhe pehle pata hota ki salary 45 days baad milegi, toh main kahin na kahin se kuch arrangement kar leti. At least mentally prepared toh hoti.

But ab jab sab kuch ek saath aa raha hai, toh dimaag obviously overload ho raha hai. Honestly, I'm just hating these days.

Kabhi-kabhi genuinely mann mein aata hai— Why are people like this? Why does it feel like the entire world is against me? Main aisi kaunsi galti kar rahi hoon?

I don't know. Maybe I'm overthinking. Maybe I'm tired. Maybe I'm scared of what comes next. Maybe I'm just exhausted from handling everything for so long.

Aaj bas Allah se dua ki. Rabbi Awwal ka month shuru ho gaya hai, and Inshallah, I just want Allah to make everything easy for me. Mujhe har cheez figure out karne ki strength de aur mere liye jo best hai, uski taraf guide kare. Because somewhere I know… Waqt accha ho ya bura, guzarta zaroor hai. Toh ab mujhe aur pareshan nahi hona.

Bas observe karna hai. Exactly dekhna hai ki problem main hoon ya meri situation? Aur shayad isi difference ko samajhna mere naye safar ka first step hoga. Inshallah, kal main better mood ke saath wapas aaungi—aur hopefully best blogs ke saath. ❤️ Aaj ye sab likhne ke baad honestly accha laga.

Maybe that's why I write. Taaki jab main khud apni life ke beech mein phas jaati hoon, toh ek baar ruk kar apni hi story ko bahar se dekh sakun.

Aur khud ko yaad dila sakun— “This is just a phase. This is how life goes on.” Bag pack ho chuka hai… will do my best...

-Allhumdulilah

-safarnama

13.08.2026

Hello Guys… ❤️

So aaj subah uthte hi, bina nahaye, chai aur pulao khaya aur Abbu ke saath eye hospital nikal gayi. 😭😂

Dua padhte-padhte saare tests karwaye and Alhamdulillah, meri dono eyes bilkul good hain. Bas ab mujhe thoda khud ka aur apni eyes ka dhyaan rakhna hai.

Uske baad same route par mere cousin bhai ki new shop open hui hai, toh main aur Abbu wahan bhi visit karne gaye. Shop rent par hai aur woh pehle attar aur perfumes sell karte the, but ab newly cosmetics bhi add kiye hain. Allah unki shop mein barkat de... his journey really inspired me..

Wahan Abbu aur bhai baat kar rahe the. Kisi topic par woh dono literate logon aur common sense ke baare mein baat kar rahe the—ki kabhi-kabhi jo log padh-likh jaate hain, unmein common sense nahi hota. Aur mujhe pata tha ki indirectly target main hi hoon.

Honestly, mujhe bahut bura laga. Gussa bhi aaya.

Kabhi-kabhi mujhe lagta hai ki mere parents mujhse kabhi proud nahi honge, chahe main kuch bhi kar loon. Aur I know mujhe kya karna chahiye aur kya nahi. Main ye bhi jaanti hoon ki meri personality mein flaws hain, mera self-control bhi bahut kam hai… but kisi ko baar-baar low feel karana ya unhe bura feel karwana bhi sahi nahi hai.

Anyways, maine sab kuch jaldi se bhulne ki koshish ki aur Abbu ke saath baatein karte hue ghar aa gayi.

Aur bhaiiii… baarish! Full baarish ho rahi thi. 🌧️ Bheeg kar surprisingly bahut accha laga mujhe. It felt like thoda sa mind bhi wash ho gaya. Ghar aakar nahayi, khana khaya aur kuch time chill kiya.

Phir Chand aur meri thodi der baat hui. Accha laga usse baat karke. Uske baad main walk par nikal gayi.

Main mostly garden jaati hoon because wahan jaakar mujhe thoda peaceful feel hota hai. But aaj mujhe lag raha tha ki shayad mujhe jaana hi nahi chahiye tha. Main relax hone gayi thi, but meri khud ki thoughts mujhe itna disturb kar rahi thi ki mujhe khud samajh nahi aa raha tha ki mere saath ho kya raha hai.

I think I'm making my own life and my own days harder than they need to be.

Main swing par baith kar baar-baar try kar rahi thi ki kuch na sochu… bas chup-chaap swing karu aur enjoy karu. But mera dimaag ruk hi nahi raha tha. Itna soch rahi thi ki mujhe chakkar jaise aane lage. So I quietly got up and ghar aa gayi. Thandi hawa ke alawa aaj kuch bhi accha nahi lag raha tha.

Ghar aakar thoda rest kiya. Blog likhne ki bhi try ki, but honestly, kuch likha hi nahi gaya.

Dinner mein noodles bane the, toh woh khaye. And then I wrote a letter to myself.

Uske baad main Lala ke saath baithi aur usse bola ki mere saath movie dekhe. We watched The Last House.

Movie acchi thi. Mujhe laga tha ending kuch aur better hogi, but kuch khaas nahi hua. Mujhe honestly aur dekhna tha—did they actually find the home? What happened after that? 😭

But paani mein hi movie khatam kar di. However, movie ka jo part mujhe sabse zyada pasand aaya, woh parents wala tha. The way parents were working so hard for their children, just so that their children could survive and have a better life.

And somewhere, maybe I realised that main bhi apne parents ka woh side properly dekh nahi paa rahi hoon because of my own anger and aggression.

Maybe I'm so busy feeling hurt that I sometimes forget that they have their own way of caring.

I don't want to talk too much about this or tell anyone that I'm feeling this way because, honestly, mujhe khud lagta hai ki main hi wrong hoon.

But at the same time… I don't want to be treated like I'm a bad person either.

I know I have problems.

I know I need to work on myself.

I know I need more self-control.

I know my reactions can hurt people.

But I also know one thing— I'm not a bad person. Bas meri ek hi request hai. Understand me, and I promise I'll understand you even more beautifully.

Maybe I just need someone to see beyond my anger, my aggression and my mistakes.

Because somewhere beneath all of that… I'm still me. And I'm still trying. ❤️

Allhumdulillah 

-Safarnama 

12.08.2026

Chaloo ab fat-fat apne saare pending blogs post kar deti hoon! 😂

Btw, aaj main thoda late uth gayi thi, isliye aaj ka blog bhi zyada bada nahi hoga. Aaj ka main target tha ki kisi bhi tarah DN Nagar jaakar eye testing karwani hai. So mast ready hokar, thoda TP karte hue, main Abbu ke saath nikal gayi. 😭😂

Waha pahoch kar woh log alag alag test batane lage soo I was upset and tensed..and Abbu ne kaha let's goo to Aashish eye care jogeshwari..but shaam ho gyi thii and then next day ka appointment lekar aa gye..

Nothing too exciting today, but at least ek pending jo complete nahi hua! ✨

Allhumdulillah 

Safarnama 

11.08.2026: bag-pack for Naya - safar

Hello guys…

Aaj 14.08.2026 hai and I’m still holding the same feeling in my heart. Ek ajeeb sa mix hai—khushi bhi hai, thoda sadness bhi, aur sabse zyada gratitude.

I also realised something today. Jab hum kisi place ko chhodne wale hote hain na, tab suddenly wahi jagah, wahi log aur wahi choti-choti cheezein bahut special lagne lagti hain. Shayad isliye farewell ke baad bhi main unhi memories ke baare mein soch rahi hoon.

And I think my first job is going to be one of those memories… jo jitna time beetega, utni hi zyada special hoti jayegi.

College ke baad this was officially my first job. Maine kabhi nahi socha tha ki ek aisi jagah jahan main ek nervous si ladki banke enter karungi, eventually mere liye itni beautiful memories aur itne lovely people ka place ban jayegi.

Laughing, learning, making mistakes, getting scolded, doing stupid things, meeting people, growing up… everything was definitely not easy as I was in my adult phase. There have been so many moments when I questioned myself and wondered, “Kya main enough kar rahi hoon?”

But happy baat yeh hai ki haan… yeh job meri life ki first corporate job rahi. Not because everything was perfect, but because of the people I met here. ❤️

Pinky Ma’am

She was my “Mom” in office. But somewhere along the way, she became much more than that—like a friend, a guide and honestly, someone I could always depend on. I never expected that someone with such a big age difference from me would match my vibe so perfectly. But she did. I know she loves me much more than I realise, cares for me and always guides me through her advice. Aur main khush hoon ki I irritated her with all my talks, because somewhere I know she loves me enough to tolerate all of that. 😂 I know she will definitely miss my daily bak-bak, and I will miss having her around even more.

K Sir

Firstly, I will miss all the gifts  you had  bought ..And the support you have given me throughout my job… I truly value it. I spent more than a year here, and because of all of you, I got to learn so many things—not only about work but also about people, communication and how to deal with different situations. Thank you for helping me understand things about my career and for giving me the guidance I needed. From the bottom of my heart, thank you.

Boss

I always used to say, “Salman Sir, aapke jitna achha boss mujhe kabhi nahi milega.” But Boss, you proved me wrong. You made me realise that a pocket full of money doesn't necessarily define a person… because a person can carry a heart full of kindness too. I will miss all your treats—biryani, vadapav, mithai, samosa, chocolate… and honestly, every little thing you used to give me. More than the treats, I will miss the way you treated me. You always treated me like your little daughter, and that is something I will always remember. Thank you, Boss, for loving me like your lil daughter. ❤️ And I promise, I will always be there whenever you need me—whether it is for work or anything else. Just one call away.

Neel Sir

I genuinely remember those little moments when I would just come and stand near you and start talking about cricket, football, or literally anything random. 😂 Those conversations will always remain special to me. Thank you for always being so patient, kind, and helpful. I will truly miss coming to you, talking endlessly, and disturbing you with my random conversations.  Thank you for always helping me solve the cases of clients. You really helped me understand things better and, somewhere, you also helped me build better relationships with clients.

Jay Sir 

Thank you for always allowing me to send every courier to my friends. 😂 It may have looked like a small thing, but because of those couriers, I got to send letters to Chand, and somehow those little letters made our bond even more beautiful. our entertaining my non-veg talks and for tolerating all my random conversations. 😂 I will genuinely miss those little moments. And one thing I will always remember is your smile and that beautiful ashirwaad in my last video. It was such a simple moment, but it meant a lot to me and will always stay as one of my farewell memories.

KI

You are the best, bro! ❤️ Hum baatein karte-karte kab itne mast se truly connect ho gaye, pata hi nahi chala. Honestly, mere office aane ka ek reason tum bhi thi yaar. Thank you for always helping me, supporting me, and making those boring office days a little more fun. 😂 I genuinely always want ki humari friendship aise hi continue rahe, no matter where life takes us. I’ll always be there for you through all your ups and downs, and I hope you’ll always be there for me too. Bas contact mein rehna aur aise hi pagalpan aur bakchodi continue rakhna. 😂❤️

I’m not just leaving a job. I’m leaving a place where I grew up a little, learned a lot, made mistakes, laughed loudly, irritated people, made memories and, most importantly, found some really good people.

So yes… Thank you for being a part of my first job, my first corporate journey and one of the most important chapters of my life.

I may leave the office, but I don’t want to leave the people and memories behind. Some places are just workplaces. And some places quietly become a part of you. This place will always be one of them. ❤️

Sukr Allah..dil se for your blessings..InshaAllah I will work more hard for my coming days.. 

Foco-42915 signing out..

Allhumdulillah 

-Safarnama 

10.08.2026 — Documenting My Farewell

10.08.2026

Hello guys...

Today I am documenting my farewell.

So, Baat kuch Friday wale din ki hai — 7th August 2026. Mere boss ne mujhe bulaya and again asked me about my resignation. And honestly, haan... mujhe jaana haiii. Aur ab jaane ka waqt bhi aa gaya haii...- (true reality that no-one is ready to accept even me too..)☠️ He told me in a upset mood, “Monday ko tumhara farewell karenge,” and said he will be ordering whatever I liked to eat.

And obviously... Chinese hi hoga!🌟🌟🌟

So today is 10th August 2026 — the day of me and the farewell of my first job.

And mujhe yeh din document karna hi tha. Har pal. Har chhota sa moment. Because I know someday I am going to look back at this day and remember exactly how it felt to leave the place where I started my professional life.

Ek raat pehle hi maine decide kar liya tha ki mujhe kya pehenna hai — my current favourite yellow kurti.

Subah mast gusl kiya, hair wash kiya, baal open rakhe and fresh-fresh nikal gayi.

And guess what?

Aaj phir I'm travelling without tickets! Jiska apna hi ek alag maza hai. TC Andheri station par the.... like 10 T.C , but ab tak ke experiences ne mujhe thoda confidence de diya tha. Dua padh kar main nikal padi. Q Ki risk lene mai jitna maza aata hai uthna hi dar bhi lagta hai..

As always... office pahoch kar late mark kar diya. Actually, absent mark ho gaya tha, but maine apne new TL se regularization karwa li😂😂 And honestly, this was one of the best things about the day. Mujhe bilkul unexpected laga ki he would approve it. But he did. And I was happy.

Recording karte-karte mujhe realise hua ki main sirf apna farewell document nahi kar rahi thi... Main apne aap ko observe kar rahi thi uss movement ..har movement ko feel kar rahi thiii . I started observing that Khush who used to run hard just to reach office. That Khush who would somehow make it every day, even when things felt difficult. That Khush who was now standing at the other end of this journey. Kuch alag hi feel ho raha tha..   (samaj lo)

And then train mein... I stood near the door. Sach kahu, Ammi mujhe hamesha door ke paas khade hone se mana karti hain. But today, I was standing quietly in one corner, holding the rod, my hair open, and the cool train हवा hitting my face.

Bas main... meri khule baal... aur hawa. Aur pata nahi kyun, sab kuch bahot pyara lag raha tha. Maybe because I knew this version of me is changing.

Office pahoch kar maine apna saara samaan Samet li .. Aaj Kandivali ke do employees bhi yahan shift hue the. Acchi baat yeh thi ki dono same place par rehte hain aur paas hi hain, so that felt nice. Abb traveling easy hogyi dono ki bhii

Phir maine apni jagah change ki and I was basically chilling in my own zone. No calls. No major tension. Bas incoming calls attend karne padenge — woh toh ignore nahi kar sakti!

And then, around 9:30 in the morning, ek client aayi. She looked at me and said, “Aapki earrings bahot acchi lag rahi hain!” And then she asked me to send her a picture because she wanted to buy the same ones. Guys, main picture bhejna chahti thi, but mauka hi nahi mila.

Ek aur baat.. office ne aaj humare neighbors office members ko reveal kiya that I'm leaving so they all started asking me the reason! And ek sir tho mere liye cake laaye thee it's was orange chocolate cake and abb tak sabse branded and tasty cake maine apne life mai khayi hu.. bahit saara ..hum sab mil ke mast breakfast kar liya🤣

Then..Thoda kaam kiya. Aur bahot saara T.P. bhi! And finally... KHAANE KA TIME. Sir ne mujhe awaaz lagayi and asked, “Aaj kya mangwai tere liye?” And I said...

“Jo aap mujhe khane nahi dete the, wahi Chinese!”

WAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Alhamdulillah.

I ordered rice and Manchurian gravy for everyone. It was genuinely so tasty. Saath mein shrikhand, dahi wade... everything was there.

Aur pata hai sabse achhi baat kya thi? Food nahi. The way everyone was making me feel special. Sab log genuinely mere liye sad feel kar rahe thee. They were making sure that I was happy, comfortable and enjoying my farewell. Honestly ...thoda-bahot no feeling wala emotion that... 

And somewhere inside, I kept thinking... “I don't think I deserve this much.” But maybe I . Maybe after all those difficult days, late mornings, stress, work, confusion, tears, laughter, random T.P., travelling, learning and surviving... Maybe I deserved one happy day.

(Samjh lo guyss..mix of emotion and no emotion type wali feeling aa rahi thii)

And then break ke baad pinky maam came out of our trading room and started some random T.p and guess what ?? Kya baat baat hoi hogii

My story..My complain...

The ATM Incident 😂 Chalo, aap sab ko bhi ek incident share karti hoon. 😂

Last Saturday hum niche gaye the, and Pinky ma’am ko cash chahiye tha. So, as usual, hum ATM ki taraf nikal gaye. Ab uss ATM mein ek sensor wala door tha. Aur pata nahi mujhe kya sujhi… main baar-baar apne pair se sensor activate karke door khol rahi thi. 😭😂 Matlab ek baar kiya, phir dobara kiya… aur phir mujhe laga, “Arey wah, ye toh mast game hai!” So I kept doing it. And Pinky ma’am was standing there watching all this nonsense happen in front of the ATM. 🤣 Unko itni embarrassment hui ki bas poochho mat. 😂 And honestly, ab mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki guys, ma’am ko main mostly saath mein kyun lekar jaati hoon niche… because I am a certified badmosh and mujhe akela chhodna public ke liye dangerous ho sakta hai. 😭🤣 Pinky ma’am deserves an award for handling me. 😂

I swear, she will miss all are the moments Because somehow, no matter how hard life gets, there is this one little kida inside me that refuses to stop having fun.

Life kitni bhi hard kyun na ho... Masti toh chalti rehni chahiye. I am growing up. I am adulting. And obviously, changes toh bante hain. But I don't want to lose this part of myself — the girl who finds something funny even in the middle of a stressful day, the girl who can laugh loudly, the girl who keeps trying to be happy even when things aren't perfect.

Hum log literally 3:30 tak khaate rahe baate karte hi rahe where office feels like a home And honestly, seeing everyone happy made me happy too.

After eating so much, mujhe obviously neend aane lagi. So I took some time to chill and thodi der so bhi gayi.

And then finally, around 4 PM, everyone started saying... “Aashi.. ice cream mangwa!”

Sir ne bhi bola. And maine bhi kaha, “Haan, mangwao!” And guess what? ICE CREAM AAYI. Because apparently farewell ka rule hai:

First Chinese. Then dessert. And then... Memories.

Today wasn't just my farewell. It was a reminder that I actually lived a whole chapter here. I came here as someone who was just starting her first job.

And now I am leaving with stories, people, lessons, embarrassing moments, late marks, T.P., laughter, stress, travel memories and so many tiny moments that I never thought would become memories. Maybe this is what growing up looks like.

You keep moving. You keep leaving places. You keep meeting people. You keep becoming a slightly different version of yourself. But somewhere inside, that same Khush remains...

The one who loves masti. The one who notices small things. The one who stands by the train door with her hair open, feeling the wind. The one who gets excited about Chinese food. The one who documents everything because she knows... Ek din yeh sab sirf memories reh jayengi.

And today... I wanted to save them. Every little moment. Because this was not just a farewell. This was the end of my first job chapter.

And honestly...

Alhamdulillah for everything.

-safarnama

09.08.2026

Hello guys… kem cho???? 💀

It’s Sunday today, but I’m actually writing this blog on Monday, sitting in my office. 😂

Aaj kal na, days are literally flying! Ek din khatam hota hai aur pata hi nahi chalta ki pura din gaya kahan. There are so many things to do, so many ideas in my head, but somehow I’m just not getting enough time to manage everything properly.

So, as of now, I’m just trying to figure out what exactly I should do and how I should manage everything without making my brain go into full overthinking mode. 😂

Btw, aaj ek cheez ke liye mujhe genuinely khud par thoda proud feel ho raha hai. Maine ek full book padh li this weekend! Yes guys, Saturday aur Sunday dono din baith kar maine ek complete book finish ki — and honestly, that’s a pretty fantastic job by me. 😂

Book kaafi interesting thi technical terms bhi bahot theee. Uska proper review shayad main kabhi na kabhi zaroor mention karungi, because there are a few things from the book that I actually want to try in my own life.

Filhaal bas itna hi.

Life thodi fast chal rahi hai, main thodi confused hoon, but I’m figuring things out… one day at a time.

Alhamdulillah.

– Safarnama

08.08.2026

Hello guys!

Btw, aaj mere Instagram feed mein ek reel aayi thi about 08.08 Lion’s Gate Portal aur manifestation wali theory. Log apni wishes manifest kar rahe the, intentions set kar rahe the and all that. Mujhe bhi laga ki, “Bhai, mujhe bhi karna hai!” 😂 So maine decide kiya ki ek din properly baithungi, time nikalungi aur acche se manifestation karungi. Mai reel tho sabko share ki but khud kuch nahi ki hu 😂Waise bhi, mujhe lagta hai ki aise chhoti-chhoti cheezein karte rehna bhi achha hota hai—at least apne thoughts aur goals ko clearly samajhne ka mauka milta hai.

Khair, aaj Saturday tha aur surprisingly main 10:05 a.m. tak office pahoch gayi! Pehli baar almost on time! Wahhh, progress guys! 😂 Office mein phir maine mast timepass ki, thoda kaam, thodi masti aur bas apna Saturday enjoy..

Ghar aakar thoda rest kiya aur somehow maine Abbu ko convince kar liya ki woh mere saath eye care ke liye chalein. Pehle khana khaye hum and then hum dono nikal gaye.finally eye testing ka Mahurat nikal gya.

Wahan thoda waiting tha, toh hum dono baith kar baatein karte rahe. Phir finally humara turn aaya. Check-up ke baad unhone recommend kiya ki main apni eyes kisi aur hospital mein bhi dikhaun. So Monday ko ab wahan jaana hai.

Ghar wapas aayi toh meri eyes aur head dono mein bahut pain tha. Thoda rest kiya, phir naha li, hair wash kiya, thoda ready hui and then nikal padi paper lene.

Bhaiiii… woh paper lene mein meri halat kharab ho gayi! 😂 But meri bhi zidd thi ki mujhe wahi same paper chahiye. Dusra kuch nahi chalega. Finally, jab woh mujhe mil gaya na, tab jaakar sukoon mila.

Mujhe ek cheez samajh aa gayi hai—jab main kisi cheez ke peeche pad jaati hoon na, toh somehow woh mujhe mil hi jaati hai. Bas thoda struggle, thoda patience aur thodi zidd chahiye. Aur finally mujhe paper 

Paper lene ke baad ghar aayi, book read ki aur phir Salman Sir ke saath market analyst wali discussion hui. We had a really good conversation about India’s market performance and some stocks. Mujhe aise conversations genuinely interesting lagte hain because market ko sirf numbers ki tarah nahi, balki ek bigger picture ki tarah samajhne ka chance milta hai.Jo abhi full consolidation mai hai

And then bas… din almost khatam.

Maine apni friend Chand se bhi baat ki. Tab tak meri tabiyat thodi off lagne lagi thi—fever jaisa feel ho raha tha aur acidity bhi ho gayi thi. Toh phir maine socha, bas bhai, aaj ke liye enough hai.

Chup-chaap bed par so gayi.

Kabhi-kabhi na, poore din mein itni saari chhoti-chhoti cheezein ho jaati hain ki end mein bas body aur mind dono ko ek hi cheez chahiye hoti hai—

Rest.

Allhumdulillah 

-Safarnama 

06.08.2026

Hello Guys...

Aaj ki subah ne mera mast mood bana diya!

Baat kuch aisi hai... as usual mai office 9:30 baje, matlab ek ghanta late pahochi. Jaise hi second floor par gayi, waha se kaafi awaaz aa rahi thi. Dekha toh lagbhag 20–25 students floor par baithe hue the. Ek second ke liye laga ki class ke andar jagah nahi hai ya phir punishment mili hai.

Maine haste hue pucha, "Andar class mein jagah nahi hai ya punishment mili hai?"

Unki smile dekh kar meri bhi smile aa gayi.

Left side mein ek fair aur cute sa ladka bola, "Punishment mili hai." 😂

Maine kaha, "Waah! Mujhe mere school days yaad aa gaye. Hum logon ko bhi aise hi ground mein punishment milti thi."

Phir maine class ka door thoda sa open karke kaha, "Smile karo, mujhe tum logon ki ek photo leni hai... chupke se." 

Teacher ne haste hue bola, "Isse pehle yahan ke staff aur tumhari izzat dono chali jaaye, sab finish karo."

Aur saare students ek saath bole, "Ma'am, izzat toh pehle hi chali gayi hai!" 🤣

Bas... meri morning wahi ban gayi. Itni hasi aayi ki pura mood fresh ho gaya.

Uske baad as usual office ka kaam, lunch walk karne mai niche bhi gyi thii btw Aaj lunch mein chole-rice aur Peri Peri chips the. Lunch ke baad toh itni neend aa rahi thi ki bas sone ka mann kar raha tha... lekin office mein neend kahan milti hai! Isliye side by side kaam karti rahi.

Aaj maine apna wallpaper bhi change kiya. Is saal mera aur Chand ka ek challenge chal raha hai. Hum dono same wallpaper lagate hain. Abhi ke liye toh challenge on hai.( socha nhi tha but khud ba khud hone laga)

Waise aaj kal pata nahi kyun... mann mein ek ajeeb si uljhan chal rahi hai. Reason samajh nahi aa raha.

Aur phir aayi aaj ki highlight... Aaj meri bus driver se ladai ho gayi.

Main bus mein so gayi thi kyunki aankhon mein bahut pain tha. Meri stop nikal gayi. Maine politely uncle se kaha ki door open kar dijiye, main so gayi thi. Lekin unhone seedha mana kar diya.

Ab mujhe waise hi aise drivers par jaldi gussa aa jata hai. Traffic tha, maine socha khol hi denge. Lekin woh apni baat par ade rahe.

Phir maine bhi zor se bola, "Khol do uncle!"

Unhone kaha, "Accident ho jayega."

Maine gusse mein bol diya, "Ho bhi gaya toh aapko kya?" Shayad mujhe woh line nahi bolni chahiye thi, lekin us waqt gussa control nahi hua.

Tabhi piche se ek awaaz aayi, "Ladki hokar awaaz dekho..." Bas... wahi word mujhe chubh gaya. "Ladki hokar."

Main turant piche mudkar boli, "Main equality par believe karti hoon. Beech mein mat aaiye. Yeh meri aur driver uncle ki baat hai. Main handle kar lungi." ( full battamez)

Meri ladai sirf darwaza khulwane ki thi. Mujhe sirf itna bura laga ki log situation samajhne ke bajaye gender ko beech mein le aate hain.

Khair... last mein driver ne door khol diya.

Result? Na mera kuch hua, na unka. Bas sabka mood kharab hua.

Ghar aakar jab maine yeh baat batayi, toh sabne wahi kaha ki galti meri hi thi kyunki main bus mein so gayi thi. Shayad unki baat bhi apni jagah sahi thi. Lekin us waqt mujhe support ki zarurat thi, judgement ki nahi. Khair... expectations kam rakhna hi better hai.

Uske baad Dara ne chai banayi. Hum dono ne saath mein chai pi, phir kisi baat par argument bhi ho gaya. Aaj kal lagta hai mere thoughts shayad kisi se match hi nahi hote. Shayad isliye mujhe har baat share karna bhi kam kar dena chahiye. I will try..

Shaam ko 4lyferz se baat hui. Sabeb ka employee ke mein pehla din tha.

Dear saba.. Allah tumhe bahut kamyaabi de. InshaAllah tum hamesha progress karo, aur hum sab tumhari success celebrate karein. Ameen. ❤️ 

Raat ko ghar par bahar se khana aaya —Schezwan noodles aur chicken soup. Kisne party di mujhe abhi tak nahi pata, shayad Abbu ya Ammi ne. Hum sab ne saath mein khana khaya, phir maine lagbhag ek ghanta reels dekhi.

Aur ab... din khatam karne se pehle yeh blog likh rahi hoon.

Alhamdulillah for the day.

— Safarnama 🌙

End mai maine kaha ..I will mention you in my blog😂😂😎