17.07.2026
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| ~YEH KAHANI MERI HAI~ |
Hii Guys...
Aaj ka blog shayad mere baaki blogs thoda sa lengthy hoga..
Pichle kuch dino se meri life bilkul scrambled si ho gayi hai. Main ek hi cheez ko kabhi laptop mein likh rahi hoon, kabhi phone ke notes mein, aur kabhi diary mein.
Sach bolu... Mujhe samajh hi nahi aa raha ki yeh sirf thakan hai, anxiety hai ya sirf meri overthinking. Bas itna pata hai ki andar bahot kuch chal raha hai.
Agar tumne observe kiya hoga, toh pichle kuch dino se main regular blogs bhi nahi likh pa rahi hoon. Aur mere liye yeh bahot unusual hai.
Kehte hain na... bheed mein hum sirf logon ke chehre dekhte hain. Lekin pichle kuch dino se main unke expressions, unka behaviour aur unki aankhon mein chhupi tension bhi notice karne lagi hoon. Shayad main zyada observe kar rahi hoon... ya shayad pehli baar itna dhyaan se dekh rahi hoon.
Isliye maine socha... jo bhi chal raha hai, sab likh deti hoon. Shayad likhne se mere brain ko bhi clarity mile. Aur jo mujhe padh raha hai, shayad woh bhi mujhe thoda better samajh paaye. Mujhe guide kar paaye..
Kahani ki shuruwat hue July ke first week se.
Jaise tum sabko pata hai, humari company ka merger hua hai. Now Officially The office is working as per our #new boss.(I hate him). Papers sign hue, meetings hui aur kaam chalu ho gaya. Bahar se sab kuch smooth lag raha tha.
Lekin dheere dheere office ka atmosphere badalne laga. Discussion badal gaye. Pressure badhne laga.
Aur mujhe personally lagne laga ki yeh sirf merger nahi hai... Acquasition hai. Shayad main galat hoon. But that's how my heart is seeing it. Sabse zyada bura mujhe apne seniors ko dekh kar lagta hai.
Jo log itne saalon se honestly kaam kar rahe hain, unke upar itna pressure dekh kar dil heavy ho jaata hai. Pehli baar maine aaj unhe donkey ke tarah kaam karte hue dekha hai..30- 40 yrs mai they never had seen how corporate works. Now achanak everthing is happening.
Ab calls aur targets hi sab kuch ban gaye hain. Target complete hua toh incentive. Nahi hua toh penalty.
Aur yeh soch kar hi ajeeb lagta hai ki jis salary se ghar chalana waise hi mushkil hai, ussi mein se penalty bhi.Wahhh..Boss Wahh..
Kabhi kabhi lagta hai... Insaan bura nahi hota.Situation usse banne par Majboor karti deti hai.
Meri office lagbhag 40 saal purani hai. Hamesha ek chhote aur khush parivaar jaisi vibe aati thi. Shayad isi wajah se mujhe yahan ka environment itna pasand hai. Lekin ab sab kuch dheere dheere badalta hua sa lag raha hai. Bas ek hi dua hai...
Allah kare humare naye bosses ko bhi jaldi samajh aaye ki numbers se pehle log aate hain. Mujhe bas itna feel ho raha hai ki agar pressure isi tarah badhta gaya, toh sirf employees hi nahi... clients bhi uska asar feel karenge.Targets ke Chakkar mai koi bhi product kisi ko bhi chipka diya jayega.
Ho sakta hai main galat hoon. Ho sakta hai main sirf zyada soch rahi hoon.
Lekin aaj mere dil mein jo tha, woh maine bina kuch chhupaye likh diya.
Kabhi kabhi answers dhoondhne se pehle apne thoughts ko words dena zaroori hota hai. Aur aaj maine bas wahi kiya.
Abb tak toh tum logon ko pakka lag raha hoga ki "Khush pagal ho gayi hai." 😂 But trust me...
Main isse bhi zyada pagal ho chuki hoon.
Pata nahi kyun, lekin mujhe lagta hai main corporate buddy nahi hoon. Mujhe kisi ki lead chori karke apna target complete nahi karna. Mujhe kisi ko neecha dikhakar ya kisi ka haq lekar aage badhna bhi nahi hai. Aur sabse zyada darr mujhe iss baat ka hai ki kahin situations mujhe waise insaan mein na badal dein, jaisa main kabhi banna hi nahi chahti.
Ha..Mai Galat insaan..Lekin yeh wali nahii
mujhe Tamasha movie yaad gayi. Usmein jo loop dikhaya tha na... wahi loop. Bas bhaagte rehna, kaam karte rehna, aur dheere dheere khud ko hi bhool jaana. Pata nahi kyun, lekin mujhe uss loop mein phasna nahi hai..
Aur shayad isi wajah se mera focus bhi disturb ho raha hai. Padhai waise nahi ho pa rahi jaise main chahti hoon. Kabhi office ke thoughts, kabhi future ki tension, kabhi overthinking... sab ek saath dimaag mein chalne lagta hai.
that's it for the day.
Alhamdulillah.
– Safarnama
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