Hii Guys..

Kaisa chal raha hai sab...currently I'm in a situation where I doesn't know what's going on..what's happening all the things are out of me and out of my control.

22.07.2026 — Just Another Day, But Worth Documenting 🤍

Hi guys~ Jaise-jaise I'm getting time, I'm trying to document my days and share them with you. Thank you, once again, for listening to me. I don't know why, but this little space motivates me. It makes me feel like I can share my thoughts and my everyday life without constantly thinking that someone is going to judge me.

So, let's start the day...

Actually, let's start with the most highlighted part of my day — sorry, evening! 😂

Because jaise hi main ghar pahunchti hoon, meri life ka ek alag hi routine start ho jaata hai.

Me, Dara aur Lala...

Bus mein evening se lekar raat ke dinner tak bus humari hi baatein chalti rehti hain. Seriously, hum itna bolte hain ki kabhi-kabhi mujhe khud lagta hai — humare paas itni baatein aati kahan se hain? 😂 aur maar bhi padti hai.. yeh fix hai..

Aaj Humne Manchurian, Manchurian soup aur aloo paratha khaya, saath mein hamari special homemade spicy chutney. And then dinner mein, kyunki aaj baarish ka mausam tha, garma-garam khichdi with chutney tha

Kasam se... full ho gaye the hum! 🤌🏻

Phir maine thode questions solve kiye. Waise toh din bhar kaafi kuch chal raha tha, but bus mein masti karte-karte pata hi nahi chala ki poora din kaise nikal gaya.

Office and ghar..

And just like that, another day came to an end.

Alhamdulillah. 🤍

-Safarnama 

21.07.2026 —🌻

Hi… Again, a new week begins.

 

But honestly, meri vibe aaj bilkul lazy thi. Itni zyada tired thi ki bas mann kar raha tha kuch na karun. 😭 Main office around 11:15 AM pahunchi, which is obviously too embarrassingly late... but ek cheez ke liye I’m actually proud of myself — aaj maine koi leave apply nahi ki! 😂

 

So, technically, I still showed up. That's an achievement, right?

Office mein humare upcoming event ki preparations chal rahi hain. Invitations distribute kar rahe hain aur ensure kar rahe hain ki sab log properly registered ho jaayein. Aur obviously, sabse important part — sales!

Abhi Abakkus Large & Mid Cap Fund ka NFO, yani New Fund Offer, chal raha hai, toh hum clients ko subscribe karne ke liye convince kar rahe hain. Honestly, kabhi-kabhi lagta hai humara pura kaam hi clients ko convince karna hai. 😭

 

But one thing I have to admit — hamari research team kaafi achhi hai. So, at least that part is genuinely good.

 

Aaj ki evening was the best... 🤍 Office ke baad finally ghar aayi aur phir thoda apna time mila.

Sabse pehle maine Lala ki banayi hui fried rice khayi — and honestly, it tasted so good! 🍚

Uske baad Sabu ke saath chair par baith kar vlogs dekhe. Just good food, apne log, random vlogs aur ek peaceful evening.

 

Sometimes, the best moments are actually the simplest ones. Aaj ka best time wahi tha. 🤍

Phir maine apna Sunday wala blog complete kiya aur post bhi kar diya. Aur blog likhte-likhte mujhe pata hi nahi chala ki maine khana khana hi bhool gayi! 😭

So, that's it for today

Bye, milte hain next blog mein. 🌻

-Allhumdulilah

-Safarnama

 

19.07

Hello~

Let's document the day jiska mujhe bahot dino se intezar tha.

I worked as a volunteer at Jam2Gather Today, and honestly mujhe yeh concept bahot pasand aaya. Kaafi time se mujhe aisa experience karna tha. Mujhe abhi tak nahi pata unke paas mera number kaise aaya, but pehle unke updates mere phone pe aate rehte the. Ek din volunteer ka message aaya, maine details fillout ki, aur almost after a month finally aaj woh din aa hi gaya. Waooo!

Ghar mein almost sabse ladai ho hi gayi thi, aur aaj tak mujhe samajh nahi aaya ki log itna bura kyun bol dete hain. Bas ek hi dua hai... Allah kare La.la kabhi mere saath aisa na kare.

Subah maine departure choose kiya tha jisme sabse jaldi jaana tha, Subah uthte hi socha pehle kapde wash kar leti hu.btw. Ammi karte hai but whenever I fight I do this stuff to show..and then I realized ki i deserve thii.. mere bahot kapde thee ..abb mai 1 din mai 2 suit forsure use karti hi hu...then maine sab wash ki, nahaayi, aur finally black suit ke saath black chotu-net wala dupatta pehenkar ready ho gayi. Baarish ki wajah se shoes already gande ho gaye the, isliye Dara ko bola Lala ke footwear bhejne ke liye. Aur Dara ne apni jhuti bhi bhej di. Honestly, mujhe bahot pasand aayi. Thanks, Dara! 

Mere paas paise hamesha month end mein khatam ho jaate hain. Aaj bhi sirf 66 rupees bache the. Ammi-Abbu waise bhi office ya aise extra expenses ke liye paise nahi dete. Isliye main kaafi din se is event ka wait kar rahi thi. Finally bus 332 pakdi aur seedha venue pahunch gayi.ek cheez hai humari Mumbai mai travelling cheap hai.. Greatful

Event Phoenix Marketcity, Kurla mein tha. Main gate se entry dhoondhne mein thoda confuse ho gayi thi kyunki bahar bhi interior ka kaam chal raha tha aur Sunday hone ki wajah se bahot crowd tha. Bas logon ke saath chalti gayi aur entry mil hi gayi.

Sabse achhi baat ye hui ki mujhe singer Ella se milne ka chance mila. Yaar, woh bilkul Bhopal TV serial wali sweet aur respectful personality nikli. Itni fair aur beautiful thi ki bas dekhte hi reh jao. Mere hisaab se 10/10. Woh almost 3 ghante perform karne wali thi, phir bhi performance se pehle sabke saath baatein aur smiles... sab kuch itne patiently kar rahi thi. Log unse baat karte hue nervous ho rahe the, aur main bhi. Bas itna hi bol paayi ki main pehle hi unse mil chuki hu. Best moment tha.waooo

Aaj ek cheez maine apne baare mein notice ki. Jab main akeli hoti hu na, toh mujhe bahot darr lagta hai. Main bahot introvert hu, motivation bhi kam ho jaati hai. Lekin agar mere saath koi ho, chahe woh bas saamne khada hi kyun na ho, mujhe bahot accha feel hota hai. Shayad mujhe hamesha apne saath kisi ki presence chahiye hoti hai. Physical existence zaroori nahi, bas kisi ka saath feel hona kaafi hota hai.

Mera kaam guest list check karna tha. Isi beech pata chala ki team ki taraf se hume gratitude ke liye do friends ko guest ke roop mein invite karne ka chance mil sakta tha. Aur as usual... yeh message mujhse miss ho gaya. Mujhe bura laga kyunki warna shayad main apne kisi friend ko bula leti.

Event start hua toh mere paas ek ladki baithi thi. Woh fashion designing college mein thi aur last year uska college complete hua tha. Uske paas wali didi Nariman Point mein wealth manager hain aur lagbhag 6 saal se technical department aur operations mein kaam kar rahi hain. Ab PMS handle karti hain. Humne kaafi der tak random topics par baatein ki, aur honestly unse baat karke accha laga.

Poora din itni excitement mein nikal gaya ki ghar se tiffin hote hue bhi properly kha hi nahi paayi. Bas do spoon Maggi khaayi. Mujhe pasand bhi nahi aayi. Aur Lala... jaise hi main plate neeche rakhti hu, woh side mein quietly wait karta rehta hai ki kab usko khane ko mile. Sach mein, bada toh ho raha hai... par mere liye abhi bhi baby hi hai.

Aur pata nahi kyun... har jagah mujhe mere 4lyfers yaad aate hain. Jab sab saath hote hain na, chahe khushi ho ya na ho, mujhe complete feel hota hai. Aur jab woh saath nahi hote, toh lagta hai jaise kuch missing hai. Main bas hamesha unhe apne saath chahti hu. Honestly..

Aur last mein... mujhe Chand ki bahot yaad aa rahi hai. Bas uske liye dua karti hu. Yeh situation easy nahi hai. Main physically tumhare saath nahi hu... but I'm always beside you, my Chand.

Here's your ending, enhanced in your usual Hinglish diary style while keeping the emotions exactly the same.

Abb wapas bhi mujhe bus se hi aana tha. Main bus pakadne ke liye literally bhaag rahi thi, but mujhe pata hi nahi tha ki bus stop exactly hai kahan. Tab tak almost raat ke 11 bajne wale the. Road bhi almost khaali thi, toh maine Sakinaka tak auto liya. Usne 38 rupees charge kiye, aur waha se bus pakadkar finally ghar ke liye nikal gayi.

Honestly, pura scene Subway Surfers jaisa lag raha tha. 😂 Sach mein! Main gangster zarur banti hu, lekin asli mein hu nahi. Bas ek hi mission tha... 11 baje tak ghar pahochna hi hai. Aur guys... mission successful! Main almost 25 minutes mein ghar pahoch gayi.

Ghar aate hi sabse pehle face wash kiya, fresh hui aur phir thodi si biryani khaayi. Pura pet bhar ke nahi khaya kyunki ek saath itna heavy khane se mujhe problem hoti hai.

Uske baad maine apna certificate aur event ki saari cheezein bahot carefully rakh di. Phir phone uthaya aur Sabeb se baat ki. Usne Chand ke baare mein poocha. Meri Chand se baat nahi hui thi... lekin pata hai? Sabe ne woh space fill kar diya jo poore din mujhe missing lag raha tha. Main pura din bas wait kar rahi thi ki koi toh hoga jo puchega, "Aur batao... kaisa tha tumhara din?" Aur jab usne ye poocha na... toh laga jaise poore din ki kami ek second mein poori ho gayi. Sach bolu toh uss moment main thodi emotional ho gayi...even now while writting

Bas Allah se dua hai ki Chand theek ho. Mujhe samajh hi nahi aa raha usse kya bolu. Main message type karti hu, phir erase kar deti hu aur phone side mein rakh deti hu. Kuch words hote hi nahi aise waqt ke liye.

Allah, meri dost ko sabr ata farma. Uski family ke liye har cheez aasaan kar de. Dil bahot dukhta hai... Allah kyun?

Allah tumhe sabr aur aasani de. Ameen. ❤️

Alhamdulillah... In Sha Allah ek din Jannah mein tumse zaroor milungi, Kittu. Tumhare saath khelungi bhi. Mujhe sirf ek baar tumse milne ka mauka mila tha, aur tum sach mein bahot pyaare ho.. har kisi ki aankhon ka noor.

Kaash main tumse mil sakti.. Main hamesha tumhare marks, tumhari dedication aur tumhari mehnat par proud rahungi. Aur hamesha rahungi.

Until we meet again in Jannah, little Kittu. ❤️

Allah tumhe Jannatul Firdaus ata farma. Ameen.

Allhumdulillah..

-Safarnama 

18.07.2026

Hii Guys... Documenting my Saturday...

Ab toh har Saturday office jaana hi padta hai. Aaj bhi main aram aram se bina nahaye hi office nikal gayi. Socha tha sirf 2 baje tak office hoga, ghar aakar mast nahaungi, thoda rest karungi aur phir padhai. Pura plan ready tha... lekin life ko mere plans kab pasand aate hain? 😂

Main office mein almost ek saal se hoon, aur itne time mein maine kabhi apne boss ko Saturday ko office aate hue nahi dekhi hu. Lekin aaj pata nahi kya hua... woh bhi aa gaye. Aur around 1:30 PM pata chala ki aaj 4–5 baje tak rukna padega. Chalo, agar kaam hota toh bhi theek tha. Lekin funny baat yeh thi ki main toh almost poora time fukat hi baithi thi. Koi proper kaam hi nahi tha.

Waise aaj ka best part tha... lunch boss ki taraf se. Mood thoda uplift karne ke liye maine Pav Bhaji aur Chilli Cheese Garlic Paratha order kiya. Ek baat toh pakki hai... mujhe bade restaurants se zyada maza street food mein aata hai. Uska taste hi alag hota hai.

Humne Khasiyat Restaurant se order kiya tha. Honestly, food bas average hi laga. Har cheez thodi zyada tangy thi aur woh Chilli Cheese Garlic Paratha... baap re! Itna overloaded tha cheese se ki maine sirf ek quarter ka aadha hi khaya hoga aur uske baad hi itna heavy feel hone laga jaise bas ab aur nahi khaya jaayega. Seriously, vomiting jaisa feel ho raha tha.

Office se ghar aate waqt bas ek hi wish thi... thoda sukoon mile. Thoda rest karungi aur phir padhai karungi. Lekin ghar pahunchte hi alag hi chapter shuru ho gaya.

Humare ghar mein phir se full kalesh ho gaya.

Raat bhar wahi drama chalta raha. Mummy se daant bhi padi, maar bhi khani padi, aur uss sab ke beech mere phone ke almost saare apps delete ho gaye. Phir dobara download karne pade. Aur sabse badi problem... mere WhatsApp ka backup on hi nahi tha. Matlab... meri saari photos chali gayi.

Aur iss poori story ka credit... Dara ko. 😭😂

Uss waqt itna gussa aur irritation ho raha tha ki bas mann kar raha tha zor zor se ro lu. Aur sach kahun... main royi bhi.

Mood theek karne ke liye maine thodi der movie dekhne ki try ki. Socha shayad distraction mil jaaye. Lekin honestly, dil phir bhi halka nahi hua. Aakhir mein bas phone Dara ke mu par maar kar so gyi ... aur so gayi.

Aaj ka din shayad un dino mein se tha jahan office bhi expected nahi tha... aur ghar bhi peaceful nahi tha. Lekin koi baat nahi... Har din ek jaisa nahi hota.

Aur mujhe yakeen hai ki ek din yeh sab bhi sirf meri diary ka ek purana page ban kar reh jayega. Jo bhi hai... Alhamdulillah.

– Safarnama

TAMASHA...(I feel I have a Psychological disorder)

 17.07.2026

~YEH KAHANI MERI HAI~

Hii Guys...

Aaj ka blog shayad mere baaki blogs thoda sa lengthy hoga..

Pichle kuch dino se meri life bilkul scrambled si ho gayi hai. Main ek hi cheez ko kabhi laptop mein likh rahi hoon, kabhi phone ke notes mein, aur kabhi diary mein.

Sach bolu... Mujhe samajh hi nahi aa raha ki yeh sirf thakan hai, anxiety hai ya sirf meri overthinking. Bas itna pata hai ki andar bahot kuch chal raha hai.

Agar tumne observe kiya hoga, toh pichle kuch dino se main regular blogs bhi nahi likh pa rahi hoon. Aur mere liye yeh bahot unusual hai. 

Kehte hain na... bheed mein hum sirf logon ke chehre dekhte hain. Lekin pichle kuch dino se main unke expressions, unka behaviour aur unki aankhon mein chhupi tension bhi notice karne lagi hoon. Shayad main zyada observe kar rahi hoon... ya shayad pehli baar itna dhyaan se dekh rahi hoon.

Isliye maine socha... jo bhi chal raha hai, sab likh deti hoon. Shayad likhne se mere brain ko bhi clarity mile. Aur jo mujhe padh raha hai, shayad woh bhi mujhe thoda better samajh paaye. Mujhe guide kar paaye..

Kahani ki shuruwat hue July ke first week se.

Jaise tum sabko pata hai, humari company ka merger hua hai. Now Officially The office is working as per our #new boss.(I hate him). Papers sign hue, meetings hui aur kaam chalu ho gaya. Bahar se sab kuch smooth lag raha tha.

Lekin dheere dheere office ka atmosphere badalne laga. Discussion badal gaye. Pressure badhne laga.

Aur mujhe personally lagne laga ki yeh sirf merger nahi hai... Acquasition hai. Shayad main galat hoon.  But that's how my heart is seeing it. Sabse zyada bura mujhe apne seniors ko dekh kar lagta hai.

Jo log itne saalon se honestly kaam kar rahe hain, unke upar itna pressure dekh kar dil heavy ho jaata hai. Pehli baar maine aaj unhe donkey ke tarah kaam karte hue dekha hai..30- 40 yrs mai they never had seen how corporate works. Now achanak everthing is happening.

Ab calls aur targets hi sab kuch ban gaye hain. Target complete hua toh incentive. Nahi hua toh penalty.

Aur yeh soch kar hi ajeeb lagta hai ki jis salary se ghar chalana waise hi mushkil hai, ussi mein se penalty bhi.Wahhh..Boss Wahh..

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai... Insaan bura nahi hota.Situation usse banne par Majboor karti deti hai.

Meri office lagbhag 40 saal purani hai. Hamesha ek chhote aur khush parivaar jaisi vibe aati thi. Shayad isi wajah se mujhe yahan ka environment itna pasand hai. Lekin ab sab kuch dheere dheere badalta hua sa lag raha hai. Bas ek hi dua hai...

Allah kare humare naye bosses ko bhi jaldi samajh aaye ki numbers se pehle log aate hain. Mujhe bas itna feel ho raha hai ki agar pressure isi tarah badhta gaya, toh sirf employees hi nahi... clients bhi uska asar feel karenge.Targets ke Chakkar mai koi bhi product kisi ko bhi chipka diya jayega.

Ho sakta hai main galat hoon. Ho sakta hai main sirf zyada soch rahi hoon.

Lekin aaj mere dil mein jo tha, woh maine bina kuch chhupaye likh diya.

Kabhi kabhi answers dhoondhne se pehle apne thoughts ko words dena zaroori hota hai. Aur aaj maine bas wahi kiya.

Abb tak toh tum logon ko pakka lag raha hoga ki "Khush pagal ho gayi hai." 😂 But trust me...

Main isse bhi zyada pagal ho chuki hoon.

Pata nahi kyun, lekin mujhe lagta hai main corporate buddy nahi hoon. Mujhe kisi ki lead chori karke apna target complete nahi karna. Mujhe kisi ko neecha dikhakar ya kisi ka haq lekar aage badhna bhi nahi hai. Aur sabse zyada darr mujhe iss baat ka hai ki kahin situations mujhe waise insaan mein na badal dein, jaisa main kabhi banna hi nahi chahti.

Ha..Mai Galat insaan..Lekin yeh wali nahii

mujhe Tamasha movie yaad gayi. Usmein jo loop dikhaya tha na... wahi loop. Bas bhaagte rehna, kaam karte rehna, aur dheere dheere khud ko hi bhool jaana. Pata nahi kyun, lekin mujhe uss loop mein phasna nahi hai..

Aur shayad isi wajah se mera focus bhi disturb ho raha hai. Padhai waise nahi ho pa rahi jaise main chahti hoon. Kabhi office ke thoughts, kabhi future ki tension, kabhi overthinking... sab ek saath dimaag mein chalne lagta hai.

that's it for the day.

Alhamdulillah.

– Safarnama

 16.08.2026

Hii,

On a same date of next month 16.08 will be Khush Day….

I'm Feeling Good.

 

Aaj ka day Ajeeb- Gareeb tha.. Mujhe describe nahi karna hai.

 

I'm receiving some signs..I feel mai ek wrong direction mai hu or mai ek loop mai phass gayi hu..

I feel I don’t know my self what I want to do ..is still pending to know.

-Allhumdulilah

-Safarnama