Assalmuailaikum everyone… 🌙
Welcome back to my daily blog…
I know mere kabhi on time blogs post nahi hote hai … but I’m trying—really trying to show up every day 🤍
Aaj mujhe feel ho raha hai jaise main birthday girl hu… 🎂
Socho… aisa kya special hai aaj?
Socho… sochoooo…
It’s my 1st anniversary.
Aaj mujhe office join kiye poora ek saal ho gaya…
And honestly—survive karna hi sabse bada achievement hai mere liye.
28 April 2025… mera first day tha office ka…
Degree complete hone ke baad ka pehla step.
Aur sirf mere “4lyfers” jaante hai…
ki exams ke baad main kitni pareshaan thi…
to get a job, like a stupid mujhe sabr hi nahi tha and i was like jitni jaldi job mile uthna behtar hai..
Roz garden jaana…
Career ke bare mein sochna…
Interviews ke liye struggle karna…
Logon se distance bana lena…
Aur khud se hi ladte rehna…
Haan… ek insaan tha jisse main share karti thi…
But sach yeh hai—mere 4lyfers jaisa koi nahi.
I love you all…
Sach mein… likhte likhte aankhon mein aansu aa gaye…
Aaj 1 saal baad bhi main perfect nahi hu…
Aaj bhi mess create karti hu…
Ladti hu… gussa karti hu… kabhi galat words bhi bol deti hu…
But 4lyfers?
They still hold me… still love me.
Aur kabhi kabhi lagta hai…
shayad main itna deserve bhi nahi karti.
Iss 1 saal mein meri life bohot badal gayi…
Kal tak main ek choti si, ambitious si ladki thi…
Aur aaj… main un ambitions ke raste par chal rahi hu…
Aage kya hoga… mujhe nahi pata…
Main rahu ya na rahu…
But aaj ke din ke liye—I’m grateful.
Alhamdulillah for everything. 🤲
Mujhe khud par aaj proud feel ho raha hai…Kyuki main har baar toot kar… ro kar…phir bhi har subah uth kar office gayi hu.
Ek waqt aisa bhi tha…jab main itni zyada traumatized thi ki bas… sab khatam kar dene ka khayal aaya…
Lekin maine ro kar khud ko sambhala… Aur aaj agar main yahan hu— toh sirf apne doston ki wajah se. specially my Chandyaari… 🤍Agar tum nahi hoti… toh shayad main bhi nahi hoti.
Thank you for staying… always. thankyou for receive my long calls ..
Aaj khushi ka din hai… toh celebration toh banta hai na? 😭✨
Par reality—
9:16 p.m hai… paise bhi hai…
Par main khud par 1 rupiya bhi spend na karu...
actually for me cake, gifts and flowers acheivement nahi hai
balki..
Toh maine kya choose kiya?
Kaam.
Discipline.
Growth.
Subah se padhai ki…
“Eat That Frog” padh rahi hu—procrastination se ladne ke liye…
Aur ab yeh blog likhne ke baad… phir se padhai karungi.
Mujhe cake ya flowers khush nahi karte…
Mujhe khushi milti hai—
jab main improve karti hu…
jab main grow karti hu…
Kal se aur better banungi…
Aur mehnat karungi…
Har task complete karne ki koshish karungi…
Agar mujhe gift dena hai…
toh bas dua dena 🤲
Meri health ke liye…
Mujhe zinda rehna hai…
Un sapno ke liye… jo maine apne abbu ki aankhon mein dekhe hai…
Dear Allah…
Aaj jo bhi hu… aapki wajah se hu…
Aapne hi farishte bhi bheje… aur imtihaan bhi…
Kabhi kabhi aapne mujhe itna rulaya…
jaise main kuch bhi nahi hu…
Woh din bhi dekhe hai…
jab mere paas 10 rupaye nahi the…
bus ka ticket lene ke liye…
Aur main bina ticket ke gayi…
sirf iss umeed mein ki ek din sab better hoga…
Allah… aap test lete ho na?
Theek hai… samajh gayi…
Bas ab thoda reham bhi kar do…
Mujhe pata hai main strong hu…
Par andar se… main bohot soft hu…
Aur mujhe dar lagta hai… bohot.
Meri aaj ki ek hi dua hai—
Mujhe itna waqt de do…
ki main apne ammi-abbu ke sapne poore kar saku…
Uske baad…
jo aapki marzi 🤍
Shukr. Alhamdulillah for everything. 🌙
Thanks Chanyaari for sending me the digital bouque.. I love it ..Thanks sababeb and my darling for holding me...and thanks to every person who supports me . Im today because of them and hamesha allah 1st app ho .. sukr my almighty..
— Safarnama
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