20-03-2026 | Ramadan – Day 30 (Last Roza)
Assalamualaikum…
Aaj Ramadan ka last roza hai.
Mujhe pata hai aaj market mein bahut crowd hoga. Kallo ne mujhe bola tha ki station se aate waqt ek dupatta le aana, lekin sach kahu toh mujhe aaj uss bhare hue crowd mein jaana bilkul nahi tha. Eid ke ek din pehle market ka scene hi alag hota hai — log khul ke paise kharch karte hai, shopping karte hai, excitement har taraf hoti hai.
Tabhi mere mind mein ek thought aaya —
“Eid ka actual meaning kya hota hai?”
Mujhe aaj tak exactly pata hi nahi tha. Maine socha chalo fatafat search karte hai.
Aur pata chala ki Eid ka matlab hota hai ek aisa khushi ka din jab Muslims Allah ka shukr ada karte hai, dua karte hai aur apni khushi family, friends aur zaruratmand logon ke saath share karte hai.
Honestly…
Wah, kya khoobsurat meaning hai.
Lekin sach kahu…
Itne khushi ke din par bhi mere dil mein thodi udaasi thi.
Main bas apni hi duniya mein silent thi.
Dil chahta tha ki Ramadan ruk jaaye thoda aur…
Thoda aur roza, thodi aur ibadat, thodi aur sehri aur iftaar.
Yeh mahina itni jaldi guzar gaya.
Abhi toh lag raha tha jaise kal hi start hua tha.
Office mein bhi aaj ajeeb si fatigue thi. Kaam mein bilkul mann nahi lag raha tha.
Maine mummy ko call kiya aur bola:
“Aaj iftaar mein kuch mat banana, main le aati hu bahar se.”
Jaise hamesha hota hai… mummy ne har baar ki tarah aaj bhi mana kar diya. she never say yes to me..
Unhone bola:
“Pani puri ki tayari ho gayi hai, bas puri le aana.”
Bas phir… jaise taise din guzar gaya aur main office se nikal gayi. Aaj last day tha toh 1 hour early leave mil gayi.
Aur main soch rahi thi —
Ab Monday se phir wahi routine… andhere mein ghar aana.
Ghar pahunch kar jo iftar hua na… pani puri aur watermelon.
Aur sach mein… itna pani ho gaya stomach mein ki mujhe khud samajh nahi aa raha tha ki namaz kaise padhungi.
Sach kahu toh itne din baad blog likh rahi hu.
Pending blogs bahut hai, sab yaad bhi hai… lekin jo feeling us moment mein hoti hai na, woh baad mein utni strong nahi rehti.
Iftar ke waqt main sach mein ro padi.
Dil bahut heavy ho gaya.
Mujhe yaad hai Ramadan ki shuruat mein maine kaunsi dua maangi thi… aur aaj kis dua par usse khatam kar rahi hu.
Allah bhi na… iss mahine mein insaan ko bahut kuch sikha dete hai.
Is Ramadan mein meri duaein bhi change ho gayi.
Mujhe dheere dheere ehsaas hua ki kuch cheezein zidd se nahi milti.
Hume bas Allah par trust karna chahiye.
Woh Almighty hai…
Woh sab jaante hai.
Hume bas shukr ada karna chahiye aur ek achha insaan banne ki koshish karni chahiye.
Sach kahu toh mujhe lagta hai main perfect insaan nahi hu.
Kabhi kabhi main selfish bhi ho jaati hu.
Lekin mujhe yeh bhi samajh aaya hai —
khud ka sochna galat nahi hai, lekin dusron ke dil ka bhi khayal rakhna zaroori hai.
Aur main dil se aisa hi insaan banna chahti hu.
Aisa insaan jo:
bhuke ko khana de
beemar ki madad kare
aur apni zindagi se kisi aur ki zindagi asaan bana sake.
Haan… yeh sapne bahut bade hai.
Lekin dua hai ki ek din mere har alfaaz sach ho jaye... plezz allah ameen kar do..
Aur ek aur dua hai —
Allah mujhe kabhi kisi ka mohtaaj na banaye…
kisi bhi mard ka nahi.
Chahe woh abbu ho, bhai ho ya koi aur.
Phir main beauty shop gayi aur Eid ke liye thodi shopping ki — makeup, skincare aur Kashmiri chudiya.
Uske baad Isha ki namaz padhi.
Abbu se poocha ki aaj taraweeh hogi kya, unhone kaha nahi.
Phir maine namaz padhi… dua ki… aur Eid ki tayari start ho gayi.
Pics click hui, phone use hua… aur maine Surah Yaseen bhi padhi.
Iss Ramadan ka hisaab dekhu toh:
1 Quran complete
16 Yaseen
Namaz aur Taraweeh (sirf 2 miss hui)
Phir dil se ek dua nikalti hai:
Allahumma ballighna Ramadan.
Ya Allah, hume agla Ramadan bhi naseeb karna.
Aur meri ek aur badi dua hai —
Next Ramadan aur Eid Mecca aur Medina mein ho.
InshaAllah… Allah apne ghar bula le ek din.
Main, Ammi, Abbu, Fawdi, Kallo, Lala — sab saath.
Us raat Laylatul Jaiza bhi thi — woh raat jab Allah apne bandon ko gifts dete hai.
Isliye maine decide kiya ki raat ko jagna hai.
Aur Alhamdulillah… main 2:25 a.m. tak ibadat karti rahi.
Nafil namaz, shukrana aur bahut si duaein.
Phir mummy ka gussa bhi start ho gaya —
“Ab so ja, kal poora din soegi.”
Aur finally…
2:35 a.m. par main so gayi.
Shabba khair. 🌙
— Safarnama
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